Life's Sick Lil' Games...

I have a huge gap betwen my exams...a week-long gap! It's both a good and a bad thing...go figure!

I also had to queue a long queue (LOL) to book my room for the next university session 2008/2009...yay, got a room next to my buddy-buds! We're so gonna get sick of each other the next time around, hehehe! Whoa, how time flies! One minute, you say it sucks, then it's good...then it sucks right back again! And where do you end up? At the end of the semester...you find yourself being a freshie, and upgraded to a sophomore...once again, i repeat...WHOA, HOW TIME FLIES!

My birthday is coming up...that means family outing (lunch/brunch/dinner/whatever!)...They ask me what i wanna eat, i say "JAPANESE PLEASE!", and my dad says he can't stand sushi, and my sister's a vegetarian, and my aunt doesn't eat weird food other than her home village food...so let's just go and have a steak dinner!

Sigh...what's the freakin' point of asking ME since all of you had already made a choice! Geez...that's really annoying. I don't really need more food, you know! Some 21st birthday...i just want all of us to be happy and blessed by God, and that's all i ask...

Exams were kinda half-and-half; some good, some not so good...we'll just see!

I wanna go out, but the lack of cash prohibits it...i wanna watch all those new movies...i wanna go here, there and everywhere, experience everything great...but the lack of cash prohibits it. I wish i had a million dollars...

Any offers?

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Why can't i seem to study? Why, Why, Why? Is it a hard thing to do; to read a little? And what's with this recurring dream i keep having? It is making me over-analyze my personal life, (READ: relationship!)

Yeap, the big relationship issue reels itself in yet again...i haven't touched on this subject for ages, since i've been too busy for shit like that. BUT...here it goes again.

You see, i have this friend who keeps telling me that i NEED a bf...i flat out deny this BS and she says that proves that i REALLY REALLY am proving her point. My reply is "WHAT???"

All i want is this; a full, happy life with family and friends. Anything more would just be the icing of the proverbial freakin' cake! Why do i need to be defined as someone who NEEDS someone? All i need is my own life, to do as i please. I see my sister, who has been in a five year relationship so far (Wow!)...yeah, it is admirable, but i tell you what. They fight all the time. Do i want that? No thanks!

Plus, i'm a self-confessed commitment-phobe...i don't know why. My parents seem like the perfect couple, so maybe it is due to something else...

Another thing is, who would ever understand a girl like me? Another friend tells me that my so-called OK looks (i said so-called) do not match my brain-complexity. Yeah, i read philosophy for fun, my IT knowledge and geek-ism is better than the average layman, and the obsession for gadgetry is stunted by my lack of money, but which guy would know that? They think i'm stuck-up for not socializing like the other girls anyway, so why must i be a kiss-ass? Most guys are shallow like that...that's all!

Tell you what, when i meet a guy i can truly click with, you'll be the first to know. Mind you, attraction is a major point here, but attraction does not mean looks...those are 2 different things.

But, intellect, humor and a street-wise attitude is the way to go. In the end, personality trumps all. Right, guys...err, i mean girls! Guys...you could just choose from a variety of bimbos, coz there are many bimbo-fish in the sea...the shallow sea. LOL! (Lame, i know.)

So maybe in the next post i'll give you details on the bimbo species available...that's if i put my study books down again!

I hate it when i'm in weird-mode...

Toodlez, bithces!

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Malaysian weather used to be this stable consistency...but currently, it has turned to be very extreme and unpredictable...it's sooooooooooo freakin-hellishly hot, then, all of a sudden, heavy downpours reign the skies...

I mean, is this the effect of our BIG CLIMATE CHANGE? Is this caused by GLOBAL WARMING? If it is, we are doomed!

Why don't i see any state governments like the US doing anything about it? Why is it when it comes to the planet, nobody cares, but when it comes to a little country like Iraq, billions are spent just for the sake of national security...how about EARTH security?

Paging Mr. Bush...our planet is important too! US is the no. 1 environmental pollutant! DO SOMETHING!

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I did...i did!

And i'm sooooo freakin' happy!

Now i can concentrate on my studies, not get so stressed-up all the time, get Carpal Tunnel Syndrome, red eyes, dull skin, etc...

Now i don't have to get the dreaded call of "Is the work done?", then not sleep at night just to finish the subtitles...

Now, i'm free!!! I'm free to study, free to play with my baby sis, and be a normal, studious, fun-loving youth!

Now, i can say...

WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!

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I can't believe i'm still alive...this week has been hell.

Work? I'm gonna quit, coz i ain't getting no money from it, and i can't waste my precious time doing omething which i'm getting nothing from...i'm wasting my study-time!

I have tons and tons of assignmnets, i don't know where to start, that me and a friend just sat down on a bench...startled, overwhelmed...that we didn't know what to do and how to handle it!

What we did, you won't believe...we went to Mid Valley to catch a movie! Betcha-by-golly-wow! We just wanted to forget, if just for a while...nothing wrong with that, right?

Watched 27 Dresses...friend told me i was Catherine Heigl's character...doesn't know why, but she pictures my sis and I. I'm the eldest, so...go figure! Hey, my sister ain't THAT bad! Lol...That was a pretty feel-good movie. Felt slightly happy after that.

Gosh, i may be a tough one, but i'm sure a sucker for chick-flicks!

Btw, James Marsden is HAWT! Too bad he hasn't gotten the credit he deserves...he's a pretty good actor. I've always liked him in Second Noah, as lame as it was. Heigl's a superstar, plus i like her...enough said!

Coming home, we started thinking about all that work again...SHITSHITSHITSHIT!!!!! And SHIT!!!

Now, i'm home, my phone is turned off, and i'm gonna finish everything i can, so please wish me luck!

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I hate the aftermath...i wish music festivals in Malaysia would be held every fuckin' year so i could have fun for at least once a year!!!

I'm going home tonight...coz tomorrow is gonna be a holiday...yay! But i guess i'm following mom to church from Thursday to Friday, maybe Saturday AND Sunday (for Holy Week).

And i forgot to mention that i had my midterms...did quite well in French (even if je ne sais pas!), but i don't know my marks in Strategy and International Systems and Globalization...Geez, i need to buck up on them! MUST READ U.N. CHARTER!

The job i was supposed to do? Bleagh...i'm not getting anything even worth my time, and i have to sacrifice my study time? I think after this, i'm gonna have to pass on it...PITTANCE is not worth my time. Subtitling takes patience and a whole lotta time, which i don't have.

So now i have to complete an assignment on Deterrence as a Defense Mechanism...gonna go to the library...So, till next time...

Toodlez, bitches!

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Mike Einzeiger played a pipa, a clasical-Chinese instrument...not a sitar, which is clasical-Indian...

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Indeed it was!!!

Okay, so you don't know the whole story...i joined this contest on MTV, and won me a pair of tickets...well, since it was gonna be on my sister's birthday, why not bring her along, right?

So...there!

Then, i found out that a friend of ours got herself a free ticket from a friend who wanted to 'use' her as his driver.

So...there!

Then, my sister's boyfriend got a little annoying and decided NOT to let her have fun with the gals and bought one for himself...ergo, he was joining us!

So...there!

All in all, we ended up reaching at almost 8pm, but it started from 2 pm. Well, i just wanted to see John Legend and Incubus, which was from 10-12.30 at night...

So...there!

Well, did i have fun?

HELL YEAH!!! That was one of the funnest, greatest concerts ever!!! The rest of the performers (there were many acts!), i didn't really care for, but the vibe from the audience for John Legend and Incubus was really a great thing for them. And i have to add that John's band was great, yo! I was dancing till my shoes got all loose and stuff.

Well, maybe it got damaged coz i was jumping and head-banging to Incubus!!! I was singing-along to every single song of their...i'm a super-fan!

As for John, i only knew him from his hit songs, but after yesterday, you can bet that he has a new fan...MOI! Plus, he's not only a great singer-performer...he's super-duper HAWT!!! I can't believe i didn't realize that before. He brought a girl up on stage to slow dance with him, and i got freakin' jealous...so did all the other girls, lol...and he was sweating through his t-shirt...HAWT!!! He went on and on without losing his superbbly smooth voice, and promised to come back to Malaysia...

Tell you what, if he does come back to KL for another performance, i'm soooooo there, dudes!!!
And the hotness of Brandon from Incubus could not be forgotten...enough said! Though, one complaint would be the turntablist (correct?) from Incubus was not going at the same key as the whole band...meh, maybe i'm wrong. But, boy can Brandon play percussions!

Don't get me wrong. I'm not so shallow as to notice ONLY the hotness, but it's just great to see that there are REAL talents with good-looks. I DO love their music, and appreciate their talents, y'all! I wish more acts like them would come to Malaysia...

Hah, wishful thinking!

Lastly, the awesome guitarist, Mike from Incubus played some kinda instrument...i think it was a sitar...man, i didn't know HE was the one playing it on the album...amazing!!!

Both John and Incubus came out for an encore...and i was in heaven!

Didn't take pictures...just one measly pic with my sis on her stupid phone...but the memoy will be running in my head for a long-long time!

Love it! Till the next post...

Toodlez, bitches!!!

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As many Malaysians know, the gov coalition won majority seats in the parliament, but lost five states to the opposition...What a wake-up call, right?

I can't believe my state is gonna be taken over by the opposition...lol! If only i was old enough to vote...if only the parliament was just a few months later, i could!

Man, this whole handing over the state to the opposition thingy is kinda scary and exciting. What kind of changes do you suppose they will bring to the table? Will they be tough on the citizens? Will the state STILL gain government grants for enhancing and development? That, i can't be sure...thinking about it makes me scared.

But, Selangor is the most developed and she attracts the most businesses from in and around the country, so i have no qualms about it after thinking about it in that sense.

As for my assignments, there are still plenty to complete...work tasks; still plenty. I just came home to take a break, before i resume all those shitty stuff. It's like, after you complete an assignment, 2 more will come to your doorstep.

I NEED MORE PATIENCE AND MORE ENTHUSIASM...

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I must say, the title is pretty lame, but i am not gonna delete it and think of another title...i do have an N-gage QD, and i'm sick of it...it's basically like a remote control, without the fuckin TV!

The last week has been like all the previous weeks; HECTIC! Finished 3 different tasks: 2 assignments, and 1 work task. I feel like i'm gonna burst, that when i come home, i don't even feel like going out. I miss my friends from home, but everyone is soooooooooo busy, we all are pooped to even hangout!

I miss you guys, though...

My new phase is the hectic phase...great! As you know, i enjoy hectic life better. What i don't enjoy is the food i eat at varsity...

I CAN'T BELIEVE I PAY FOR THIS SHIT!!!

It's horrible, the food they sell at my college dorm...sucks-balls! But last Friday, i just couldn't wait to eat REAL food, and i forced my friends to go have Yoshinoya Beef Bowl...well, of course, i'm the only one among them who ate the Beef Bowl Combo! I'm the freakin carnivore...HAHAHAHA!!! (Well, i did order a side of veggies...Mmmmmm, yummy!)

And now, i'm back home, eating Mom's cooking...Mmmmmm. Any pounds i'd lose would come back during the weekends, and then some! But, tomorrow, i'd have to wake up at 5 am, and travel back to uni...finish up more assignments, do more work tasks (of which i'm making a pittance!), etc...

So...all that's left is to wait for the next week, or if i'm lucky, a few days to update my online diary. I love you blog! You are a great release of tension, stress and pain!!!

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Well, what have i done?

Pretty much a lot!!! Just this week , i tried to complete as much as possible...from work, to assignments to researches...to blablabla!

I'm so fuckin' tired...but i guess i'm loving it! Huhhhhhh, the times are abuzzing, and i'm just getting started! My exams are coming soon, and i've yet to study...

French class is getting more and more difficult, as the grammar is a total 360 degrees from English. Wow!!! There's so much difference...masculine and feminine? Who could tell? You'd have to have a dictionary to tell...

Well, i'm loving globalization and international systems...it's cool! Strategy? YES...but the lecturer for Strategy? Kind of a bore...English? Used to be my fave during high school, but this subject in uni is kinda 'kindergaten-esque for me'! It's like teaching ABC to a grown-up...this is due to the standard of English among public university students.

It's kind of a pity, because their not used to it...BUT it's kinda unfair for people who are fluent to pay for those unable to speak English...they should NOT mix people with different levels of English...it's not the right system!

Well, till next time...a lot to do...so bye!

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I love going out!

In my nonexistant social life, i just make up for it in one day out with friends. We were supposed to go watch a movie. Well, i wanted to go watch a movie featuring my one of my fave actors in a singing role...i guess you know who it is!

As expected, friends would rather watch something else...in the end, after reaching our destination, we decided for two rounds of bowling instead! Bwahahah!!!

Went and bowled, scouted for cute guys and cam-whored every chance we had! We wanted the pics to remind us of campus life, you know.

I'm not that much into posing, but it was fun. Lol! Guess i'm a closet poser!

Came home the next day, forgot that i had a deadline...Shit! I hate working p/time! Very much a WOMT (waste of my time)!!!

Now, after this, i'm gonna carry on with that work i'm supposed to be finished with by now!

And not forgetting my assignments...whoah!!!

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Hi blog!

It's been ages since i poured my heart out (seems so!), but i have deadlines to attend to.

I have work, i have assignments, and no time.

I am not really eating like i should nowadays due to beyond-sucky food...i hoped to be back home by friday, but i can't due to assignments...boy, when you're busy you're really busy...

I mean, it's almost like double or triple-whammy all in one go. But when you're bored as hell...hmmmm! That sorta sums it up!

As you know, i'm more of a hectic-loving person...i'd rather do something than do nothing. However, i am slowly losing my sense of self...oh shit! Am i going nutso? Usually, losing your sense of self is a turning point towards a huge blowout, but i'm pretty sure i can handle things, coz i always do...

So now i have to say...God help me! LOL!

Peace!

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After a week of TV and boredom, i'm going back to uni. Helluva week it was. I can't believe how moody i was.

Sometimes, i hate the holidays because you have to face your family everyday...it could drive a person nuts, you know?

I didn't go out...friends were busy with their celebrations, plus i didn't even make any initiatives with any pals to go out and have some fun.

Now, i just wanna go to my dorm and take a break from my family, coz i need it. Who needs criticism when you have a family?

I know, whenever i get back to uni, i'll miss them. I much prefer that feeling than when i am here at home, getting annoyed.

PS: I DO love them...

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I have no idea what the hell is going on with my MS Word, but i've really gone nuts! Why in hell does it crash before it even loads?

I did loadsa research and found that maybe there were add-ins that gave in to the problems...after doing all sorts of shit to my notebook, like renaming template files, and inhiding system files and meticulously checking it one-by-one, i discovered this:

I CAN'T FREAKIN' FIX THIS SHIT!!! Microsoft says: "It's unfixable!!!"

What am i to do?

Answer: Buy/borrow MS Office CD-rom and reinstall everything, even though the rest of the Offfice gang are working! Ima git me a better office!

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I'm so bored!

I haven't been out since i came home, been so lazy...just now i was in such a bad, cranky mood i sorta took it out on my family with my laser mouth.

Sometimes, i just wish i don't hv holidays coz it makes me do nothing but watch tv, and nothing else...

Haven't gone to take my stuff from the dorm as dad usually promises to send me there, but to no avail...TYPICAL!

Don't you just feel that you hate certain days...u feel like you just want to go to bed and never wake up? That's how i feel today! I realized something a few days ago...I only have have my family to live for...nothing else! My future? I sometimes feel like i'm too jaded to do anything. This phase comes and goes, but it's there nonetheless...and i hate it!

My sister ha taken to seeing a shrink about her problems...you see, she's not doing so well in the mental health area. And you know, i'll never be like that. I thank God i have the sanity.

Sometimes, i just wished omething good would happen for me, you know? I always take the harder way, because i don't want to owe anything to anybody. I don't want favors, i don't like feeling indebted. I like doing things like this as a challenge i would rise up to, and i usually do.

But, in my life, who can be a witness to all of this, except for me? Who is there to grow with me?

This is my whiny post of the day. Coz if i ain't whining, i ain't ME!

G'bye!

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The holidays reign in the gov universities, but i for one, ain't gonna complain!

I just got back yesterday, and hope to have a great week! Please, please, let me get what i want!

I want to finish the great books i borrowed...which has been long overdue...kept renewing the due date, but never got to read them, as i was so busy with things...Grapes of Wrath (rereading it), Catcher in the Rye, 1984, The Prince, and Tortilla Flat. Hope these are great!

Anyway, i can't help but come home and love it...coz my dorm would never equate for the comforts of home!

My wisdom tooth is growing...and it sucks. What a nuisance!

Chinese New Year is beckoning, the year of the rat calls us to hail in its presence...

I just love the mandarin oranges! Lol...

I wish all the chinese in the world a very happy Chinese New Year! (like as if they read this!)

Bye!

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Just another boring Monday...feeling so bloody bored that i can't even think about what to write.

Will continue once i get a clue. If not, maybe next time.

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Well, the week was soo hectic...I am literally swamped with shit to do for this semester. Seeing that i have taken the heavy task of taking an extra subject, my weekly schedule has been packed to four hectic days...well, more like 3.5 hectic days.

On Mondays, i just have one measly class. But Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays are full. I have classes from morning to night, and from different faculties, too.

It wouldn't seem so bad if the buses here were efficient. They are so bloody annoying! How long do the students wait for a fuckin bus to come by? And they sometimes wouldn't go the route they're supposed to go. Just plain stinks!

And then they say why UKM can't be no. 1...how can you be no.1 if even your bus service tends to be crappy? Food ain't so good either. The syllabus...don't get me started.

However, I seem to be happier this semester. My roomie seems better than i thought she would be...she's ok. My friends and i hang out more often. I've concluded that i wouldn't wanna be too active in the activities...i'm just gonna chill with what i already have.

WiFi in my dorm is still unavailable. I do hope they put WiMax for us, though...

Baby sis had the measles...thank God she's over it now. Mom's birthday is today...a still-stunning 43-year old woman, she is...gonna buy her fave cake from Secret Recipe...prolly Caramel Cheesecake or Cheese-Choc Cake...Mmmmmm!

Still afraid of commitment...i think i was born to be a spinster! But i would hope and love to throw caution to the wind if i find him...sigh!

BTW, i'm utterly flabbergasted at Heath Ledger's passing...shocked as hell! His poor daughter. I don't think it was suicide, though...sometimes accidents just happen. But, I pray that he rests in peace...and may his family find solace in his legacy, and each other...Amen!

So, till the next post (i hope it'll be sooner than next year)...g'bye!

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There's a possibility that my Saturday classes would be scheduled on a weeknight...

YAY!!!

Ther's a posibility that French class students get to go on a trip to France...

YAY!!!

But!!! There's a possibility of going to Vietnam instead, in case the budget is way too low...

BOOOOOOO!!!

However, while i was on my way towards the last class of the week, i heard knocking at my room door. Thinking it was someone selling stuff, i ignored. Due to the persistance of the knocking, i finally opened it, only to reveal that...

I HAVE A NEW ROOMMATE!

What????

NOOOOOOOOOO.....

I had gotten so used to staying alone in my 2 people-per-room dorm, that i couldn't accept it. Again, i say...

NOOOOOOOOOO.....

Now, i can't change my clothes in my room, i can't dance around, i can't act like a goofball while i talk to my baby sis on the phone...i hate it! But i sure hope to God that she's a nice girl. To add a little intimidation, this roommie is a senior, and sure looks serious.

Geez, i hope she isn't bully, a dirty pig, or any of those...coz from the hell some of my friends go through with their roommies, having one sounds like a nightmare.

I hope my roommie is nice...pleeeze let it be, God!

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