Friday, August 20, 2010

Evil...

Friday, August 20, 2010

It's evil; this new phenomenon of dumping babies, aka infanticide. It's becoming rampant here in Malaysia, and I'm not gonna sugar-coat it: almost every day, you will see at least one report on a newly-born baby being dumped...they are either dead, alive, or barely alive. Some are half-eaten by bugs...some are foetuses (among the garbage) who never had a chance.

Why is this happening? Some groups think it's because of free-socializing amongst teens during "Western" celebrations such as New Year's Day...WTF? Yeah, blame it on celebrations and integration...it's so typical! It's so in-your-face and clear: the reason is the lack of sex education amongst the young...all because SEX is taboo! AND, the stigma that comes with teen pregnancies (or babies born outside of wedlock). Come on and open your eyes...teenagers are doing it; they're having sex whether it's against religion or not...they simply are! Asian values? What does that even mean? Does that mean that Asians don't have sex? If only you were open-minded enough to realize it and not hide behind a veil of denial...then we could nip this issue in the bud!

I guess I'm just pissed! Pissed that this issue is happening everyday! These are lives...humans lives...newly-born babies!!! I'm not even saying I'm Pro-Life or against Pro-Choice (or some of those American politicized stances people there tend to take). I'm just a human being trying to make sense of this. The Malaysian gov is now considering harsh punishments for parents who commit infanticide...is this what we have become?

Sometimes, I see Malaysia going far...but at times such as this, I see us left far, far behind due to a few bad apples. After all, you're only as strong as your weakest link! What we need is open minds and open debate, not blame-games and minds stuck in the Dark Ages...

Okay...I'm done venting! Sorry lah...I'm just mad right now...

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

How?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

How did I get so lucky in life? I thank God every single day for being this way...charmed! I may not have been born with a silver-spoon in my mouth, but I have the best family I could ever dream of...the best friends who are the best people ever...and the basic things you need to survive...AND I am blessed!

I've always prayed to God to show me the way to what I want to achieve...you see, I have the vision and goal, but I don't know how to get there! It was always holding me back. My parents, as lucky as I am to have them always seem to put high expectations...and here I am, an average Jane...a grain of sand...a piece of clay waiting to be moulded!

I sometimes wonder what else can I do or learn to make myself better; Learn another instrument? Learn more about computer-languages? Learn how to fly? Well...I suppose I could learn everything but it's more about self-perception.

I'm slowly learning that there must be something within us...as well as something we all were put here to achieve. And from what I think, it's all up to us to dream...we create our vision for the future...but God blesses the road we take.

I know it all seems sudden...but I always wonder what I did to deserve such a fortunate journey...all I can do now is thank God and live every moment the way I want to live it...

Thank you, God for finally giving me the "brick" I needed! I'm only waiting for my new phase to begin.

Amen.

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Today's The Day!

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Today is the day I graduate...I'm so freakin' scared, and I don't know why! Guess it's because it's the end of a phase in my life.

Ever had that feeling of fear of the unknown, yet a slight hint of excitement follows? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling now. I have finally hit that "SEND" button for 2 job advertisements...and hell, I've been meaning to these past few months, but I've been stalling due to certain wants...

I guess there's no longer a reason NOT to apply now...is there? I'm gonna do it; gonna start looking for a job. I just needed a few months of pure sloth so that I could take a break for awhile, you know?

I know for a fact that I will never be this 'free' anymore once I start...it's gonna be work, work, work and more work! So at least I could say that I've spent time with my family.

The one thing I'm scared about is the ceremony itself...everyone's so caught up with being perfect, I'm afraid I'd stick out like a sore thumb in terms of being under-done! Man...some people are going to salons just to do their hair and makeup...and all I have is my straightening iron!

Hehehe...well, there's nothing left to do...I've taken the odor-horrible robe to the dry-cleaner's and got it cleaned...at least I won't smell like an onion gone bad!!! :P God, I hope I don't forget any necessary items...

For now, all I can do is hope I don't screw-up! And while we're at it...I also wanna have fun!

But most of all...I just wanted to say congratulations to all my friends who are graduating with me coz you know I wouldn't have had such a great journey without you...love you guys and thank you for being my friends and sticking with me all this while despite my flaws.

Hoping we grow into better people is what I really want for all of us...and happiness throughout our lives as well.

Here's hoping we have an awesome graduation!!! Class of 2010, bitches...yeehaw!!!

PS: More emoting still to come...stay tuned!