Thursday, October 25, 2007

The "Ever Had..." Game!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

My compilation of "ever had..." moments:

Ever had...
  • your perfectly (and freshly!) squeezed toothpaste fall off of your toothbrush? I hate when that happens...happens to me all the time...
  • a moment where you're ready to cook, had all the things prepared, only to find that your stove ran out of gas?
  • the ice-cream man come when you don't crave for ice-cream, but when you do...they're nowhere in sight?
  • to do nothing at all and feel bored, but then, all tasks come to you all at once, and you just feel like jumping off the window ledge of a 30-storey building?
  • to turn down a guy, because he's plain annoying?
  • to pretend to be interested a friend's love-life, even if you're not...
  • a moment when you wished you could smack that kid kicking the back of your chair at the cinema?
  • a gut feeling that you didn't follow, then regretted?
  • a moment when you missed your chance?
  • a chain-reaction of catastrophes happen at a moment of chaos?

Well, I could ask more, but i'll just settle for this much.

It's 4.15 in the morning, and I haven't studied, haven't finished my job, and I feel so fat coz I keep popping chocolates into my mouth...I feel so fugly right now!

I am very amused at my baby sister at this moment...she's starting to roll over (no, she's not a dog!). That's sorta like a big step in her up; talking and crawling...She's a noisy little girl...she chuckles a lot too! She's just so adorable when she chuckles...I can't describe it, but this baby actually brings my family close. For that, I am thankful!

We are, however, still broke as hell!!! Hahahahaha...some things never change, I guess!

Friday, October 19, 2007

I Need...You Need...We ALL Need!!!

Friday, October 19, 2007

I am so right! I wanted a Sony VAIO, but needed a laptop ASAP...and all I got was this old geezer named Dell Inspiron...geez, talk about your old-timers...I got one that trumps 'em all...

Then again, it ain't all that bad...I did get it for my part-time job...for free, mind you! So I guess it's, it's awesome! Though, I would have to rely on looking for plug points, coz the battery is sure as hell not working, lol!

I am thankful, though...I can always upgrade when i'm good and ready for my newest gadget...isn't it funny that I always get what I need for free? Like my MP3 player, laptop...I sometimes feel that i'm a walking disaster that needs all the lucky charms in the world, but then, my life would suddenly take a 180 and all these good things come hitting me with a bat!

Now what I need are the best test results, and a boyfriend, lol!

You know something? For a commitment-phobe like me, I would be willing to take a chance on a guy who has the nerves to tell me he likes me, or asks for my phone number (not gets his friend to do it!)...coz guys, which girl doesn't like a man who goes for what he wants...

Sure, girls are complex; we don't say what we want, we have mood swings, hate male-chauvinist pigs and shit like that...but isn't that what makes you love us? Our strengths, brains, personalities, flexibilities, etc...Isn't it?

Why talk about this all of a sudden? Well, because one can only be "the intimidating girl" for so long...a male friend told me that I probably have no boyfriend coz I scare men away...even he, at first seemed a little intimidated by me at first, when we forst met...yeah, been told that many times...

But I kinda feel that somebody is out there for me...I don't have to pretend to be someone i'm not just to impress him, coz he will love me for who i am...I strongly believe that he is out there...all I have to do is just stop trying to be like other girls; desperate for a partner, can't live without a guy...Bleaghhhh!!! Who the hell are they living for? I can't be like that...EVER!

I for one choose to live for me!!! So, when i'm good and ready, he'll be good and ready...and by the power of serendipity, we shall meet, fall in love, and have a blast!

Do you concur?

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Strange Little Girl

Thursday, October 11, 2007

I would say i'm sorta ideals, my reality, my life, my likes, my pet peeves, my taste in music...etc. I like being me! Strange, weird, crayzeee! However...I hate being bored. That's why my days here are wasted on you, blog...I have no money to hangout, no car to drive out (coz Mom doesn't want me driving her car!!!)...sometimes I get into this mode like "Is this my so-called life?" It's soooooooo not interesting! Now that I have a baby sister, I can't even have an outing, without checking my other sister and parent's schedule...coz everybody's doing something!!!

I hate being bored, I hate being bored, I hate being bored!!!

I'm totally wasting my life by not experiencing it to the the hell am I suppose to fall in love without getting out of the freakin' house? How the hell am I suppose to get new clothes without searching at stores for the right apparels? How the hell am I suppose to study when Dad's supposed to send me to campus to bring home my books? How am I supposed to experience the fullest life I can live without going out of my house??????????

I cook my sister's meals now...that's all I do now...and she finishes her dinner at lunchtime, too! Says she can't help finishing all of it! Lol, I must be a great cook!!! I'm fed up with just cooking, you know...I don't know, this isn't suppose to be this way, my life is NOT how I want it to be!

Damn it!


Wednesday, October 10, 2007

The Pressure Is On!!!

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Now that i've given up on my side job as an audio visual assistant-esque work, like subtitling and shit, the bosses suddenly popped out of nowhere and said there's some work to be done, and tasks to be we go...

Nice job, guys! Leave me waiting like a fool-- on the brink of giving up, and THEN give me work to do on the imminent days of my 1st semester examinations! GREAT!!!

I'm thankful, though, that I have a chance to make some money...i'm broke as hell, dudes! I can't even go out with my friend coz I don't have money in the bank...geez, this is such a great holiday! -_-

Whatever it is, i'm happy with the incoming, albeit, late laptop i'm about to receive from my boss (it's about time!!!)...and I hope I could finish the job, and excel at my studies at the same time...please, God...LET IT BE!!! Earn while you study, that's my new motto! Lol!!!

By the way, what am I listening to on my Mp3 player? Tommy Tutone's Jenny 867 5309...Nice!

Monday, October 08, 2007

Home At Last!

Monday, October 08, 2007

After my so-called hell-week, i'm finally home, sleeping on my bed!!! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

The problems i've accumulated throughout the semester of my first year has gone far, far away, thanks to my ability to solve problems, hehe!

Now, i'm just gonna chill, then i'll go to a few friends' houses to visit them for their Hari Raya celebrations; great!!!

Right now, i'm downloading some songs...ever heard the cover of Rihanna's "Umbrella"? I like it! Sounds like Mandy Moore, but the radio DJ said 'twas some girl from YouTube...I dunno, I just know I like it.

Uhmmm, since it's early registration for the next semester, i'm thinking if I should take French lessons earlier, because I can't wait to learn it! However, it seems the classes are at 11pm!!! I mean, is that even possible? WTF, dudes! 11pm? How the hell am I gonna get transportation over there? My dorm is like 4 kilometres from my faculty...gahhh!!!!

What music am I listening to now? Lenny Kravitz' "It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over" of my favorite chillout-mellow-touchy-feely songs...

Btw, I was thinking...should I get a 1-month long job for the holidays, or should I just stay home? This is, however in December, so no know what, i'll think of it then!

At least i'm updating this who-knows-who-the-hell-reads-this blog...I sorta love this blog coz it's my only bear with me! Any comments? Lol!

Tuesday, October 02, 2007


Tuesday, October 02, 2007

That sums it up; Hell-week!!! It was and is: Hell! I expect this wek to be hell to! I've had a few problems with friends, but after a week of playing "cold war", we all sat together and had a heart-to-heart talk, confronted each other, purged our feelings, and made that that's done, there's another fuckin' problem that I need to settle!!!

Certain subjects have too many students, so we are all divided into sets. Well, my problem is, until recently, i've discovered (or my friend discovered!) that i've been going to the wrong fuckin' set!!! How in the world...well, let's just say, I'M AN IDIOT!!! I've been doing all the quizzes, and assignments in this set, so now, i'll have to come clean to the lecturer and hope that he transfers all my marks to the correct-set lecturer!

Oh, did I forget to mention that I'M A COMPLETE IDIOT???

Well, other than all this shit, some people have been asking me whether i'm a lesbian because i'm such a cynic about love, and don't wanna get married, and STILL, even at 20 have never had a boyfriend...Lemme just say something here; I'M SO NOT! I want to fall in love with a guy, but haven't met someone that fits my criteria, my huge list of standards, haven't met the one who makes me feel like i've butterflies in my stomach, haven't met the guy who i'm not afraid to say anything to, coz he gets me...never met a guy who "clicks" with me...etc!

So, I don't need to prove that i'm not, coz everyone who knows me knows i'm, meh...let 'em think so...who cares, right?

In other news...nothing else, other than i'm going broke...well, that's all, folks!

Toodlez, bitches!!!