Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Trying But Can't vs. A Funny Anecdote

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

As I attempt to study...I fail!

As I attempt to sleep...I fail!

As I attempt to stay awake...I fail!

What can i say about this shit? Epic fail!!!

Well, that's just me! But, as the saying goes...success comes with failure, and hey, whaddya know, i'm almost there! With two tests over, i am left with 5...and i can't wait for it to be over.


With the end of the semester, comes the beginning of a new one...shit! Thesis, thesis! Can't play the fool any more. I dunno, i procrastinate a lot, and i know that's a pretty bad habit...not pretty's BAD, period! And to make things worse, it's been my quality since childhood. Sigh, how do I stop it? It's a part of me now, damnit! Okok, i've said it, and i'll say it again...I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS! (so much for not being a procrastinator!)


The other day, my mom called...well, she always calls! What was different about this call was...wait for it...wait for's pretty funny...she wishes for me to have a bf!!! She actually said, "I wish for you to fall in love and have a boyfriend!" *speechless* Do I look so pathetic without one? Damn...

You may roll on the floor and laugh your ass off...coz I certainly did! Told my friends, and they laughed too. Okok, so I asked my mom -- "Why mom, why all of a sudden? You've always supported me when I said I am happily single, and you hate it when those stupid aunties ask me why I don't have a bf, right?"

She said, "Yes, of course...but you know what? I got married when i was're 22 and you've never even had ONE bf..."

SHIT...when she said that, I laughed...but in my heart...shit!!! Is this pressure i'm sensing? FUCK!!! To make light of the subject, she told me that my dad might even look for someone for was a joke, but mom said, "who knows?"

OMG...WTF!!! Can it get any weirder than this? I don't know whether to laugh or I laughed. Telling my friends was no better, they keep telling me "Who asked you to have super high standards?" Since when did I have high standards? Damn! Another even wants to hook me up with her friend...Arrrrggghhhh!!! *runs away*

To make things worse, I went and said something stupid to my mom the other day, before 'the call':
She has a friend; she's a lawyer - successful, rich...and she's single. She told my mom that she regrets being too demanding in terms of choosing a guy, that now, she's in her 40s, all alone...

What did I say that was soo stupid? Well, i told my mom, "Shit, that's gonna be me..."

I'm guessing THAT statement was the catalyst that set my mom into panic mode. I'm LOL-ing now as this is a revelation!

Damn, why did I have to say that? Ok, it's sweet that mom and dad doesn't want me to end up alone, but i would definitely NOT be alone...i have my backups.

In the end, I know my man is out there, and whatever it is...I deserve happiness, and God will not let me be unhappy! Errrr, right?

Monday, April 20, 2009

Writer's Block

Monday, April 20, 2009


I have officially gotten writer's block. Where everything used to flow, it is now stuck in a blackhole situated in my brain. There is nothing. I have nothing. I don't know what to write...I just don't. And for a bonus, I have a test in the morning, but I don't know what's going on...yes, this tends to happen...I don't know...I think i'm going nuts! I think the timing ain't right, but the crazy thing is, I still am typing...crazy, eh?

Song currently playing: Chris Isaak's Wicked Games
Mood: Clueless
What am I doing: Laughing (???)

Friday, April 10, 2009

Week Of Doom!

Friday, April 10, 2009

Well hellooooo everybody!

Couldn't help but notice that the times haven't treated me burdens within the family, family probs by itself...then, smackdown of undone projects and tests coming's all a big blurry phenomenon. Coupled with not sleeping enough, and what have you got?


Yes, yes...i was rude to my friends...mostly one friend; I snapped at her almost every chance i had...i can take slight annoyances, but when it's times like these when there's too much pressure...what can i say? I'm only human.

Well, i apologized to her coz i noe she's the sensitive one, lol! All good...

Yeah, feelin' a little better once i took a long nap...zzzzzz! Multiple mandarin oral tests are finished, and all that's left are the written essays due soon. That, I can handle!

I thank God for friends who! And now, I shall be teased for the rest of the semester due to my bitchfest. They called me pregnant, coz it seemed like my hormones were getting the best of me, like a pregnant woman...LMAO...thanks!

Now, on to the next challenge...