Saturday, February 27, 2010

I Just Don't Get It...

Saturday, February 27, 2010

How some people can say things so easily...I just don't get it! I hate it, and it freaks me out when people just blurt it's weird and it freaks me out! Oh, crap...said 'freaks me out' twice! Isn't that proof enough? Yes, I know some of you could say it easily...but could you do me a favor and grasp the concept properly? To me, the very concept is sacred...

People these days...they just don't get the concept of certain 'concepts'. At least at the end of the day, I don't say what I don't mean, but I mean what I say when I say it!

Arrggghhh, ok...maybe this post is a little cryptic...but yes, I'm writing this way on purpose! Just needed to vent a stick a fork in me...i'm done!

PS: If you tend to blab too much while drunk, perhaps you shouldn't chat with your friends or you'd end up confessing some shit you wouldn't have confessed while sober...on Facebook nonetheless...and another thing, as someone who, admittedly has her mind in the ditch...I keep my chats clean no matter how close my internet friends are...yes, jokes are jokes; dirty jokes and all. But keep away from asking me shit I wouldn't answer...for real!

PPS: I don't get how people who don't even know me think i'm a certain way because of the way I fact, you're waaaay off! Arrrrghhhh...gets me so furious!!! Thank God you're not in front of me or i'll punch you in your pretty little face!!!

Friday, February 26, 2010

This Song Made My Day...

Friday, February 26, 2010

Complaining is one of my greatest weaknesses...sometimes you just have those days when things don't go the way you want it. You go home (in my case, my single room in campus) to your solitary then throw your weight on the bed, look up the ceiling and just have the whole day on playback in your head. From there, you go on and think about the bigger things; your future, where you're heading and you find yourself lost...the same ol' issue!

Happens all the time...

Sometimes you go into dark-mode...but i'm learning to cope by going the other just reminding myself that I have everything I need in my life. Basic stuff for survival, stuff that feeds my mind, body and soul...and of course the greatest assets any human could have: a circle of trust...people whom you know will have your back in any situation.

Sometimes God speaks to you in ways you can't imagine...just when I started to get all gloomy and whatnot (maybe it's that fucking unfinished thesis and that trip I want to happen with every fibre of my being, which I've just come across some upsetting news!)...the song that played on my player was True Colors by Cyndi Lauper...damn, it made me cry!

I'm one of those people who really take the lyrics into heart, and I believe the words make the song. Of course, the music and melody plays an important role...but if the lyrics are just some jumbled-up crap...i'd hate it no matter how beautiful the melody...but that's just me!

Back to the story...I personally felt that someone was speaking to me...well, maybe not...but I would like to think so. It was just the perfect answer to that particular moment I was having. Take a look at the lyrics, and maybe you'd understand why I thought SOMEONE was speaking to me...

True Colors by Cyndi Lauper

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Thank you, God...I love you too! :')

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

A Weird-ass Dream & Malware...Again!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I guess I overslept...again! It was not your usual was more like deep sleep, where you can't wake up at all! My dreams were so real at one point, I thought I was awake, doing the stuff I usually do...checking on my Facebook acc, killed some malware (hahahaha, geek to the core!!!), which I really did yesterday, to the point of not sleeping. Maybe that's why I compensated on sleep-time, eh?

Oh, and my weird dream is this: ...Ami from Miami Ink came in biker-mode with the rest of the Wild Hogs...and he had to stay over our place because our country was in turmoil, and he was the designated US celebrity responsible for assisting us in tattooing those in need (HAHA!). He admired the work done on my sister's back, but he said the lines were slightly crooked...but the shading was good. He asked me whether I wanted one, and I said yes, but I don't wanna get one just for the sake of it. If I had to "brand" myself, it would be something important/significant to me...blablabla, yadayadayada...then, he and my family became close, he sorta became our "Uncle Ami" and then he had to go home to the US, where I presented him a bobble-head of himself (coz he can't do the Indian head-going-from-side-to-side thing). He loved it...all of us laughed...then, he left with the rest of his biker friends..they were on some pretty cool-looking Harleys & choppers, people!

Then...dream transition!

The next one was me, some guy (blank-faced, but tall) and my sister were going somewhere...we had to cross this bridge that connected two old creepy-looking buildings together...the bridge was not was shaky and unstable...that guy and myself were too scared to cross it coz we got weak in the knees just taking two which my sis taunted us for being such chickens...hahaha, and left us! So we decided to turn back and take another route...the loooong way, in the time we reached the other building, my sister was not to be found. Then, I got a call from my dad who asked me why I wasn't back home yet. It was now very dark...I was alone and lost...where did that guy go? Fuck, I'm screwed!!!

In an instant, I realized I was dreaming...then I woke up.

Weird, huh? Hahaha...


I figured out why the hell I kept getting malware...I had this tracker hidden on my system subfolder...and it was cloaked in an apparent Windows NT file...pretty smart trojan, huh? It took a looooong time to track it, mind is like a magnet for all sorts of malware, and the final straw was when my CPU usage was reaching 100%...was such a horrible thing to watch my baby suffer...I could hear the fan working on overdrive, and it just kept getting very hot as I connected to the whenever I deleted a particular trojan, the tracker would still be there, disguised as a legitimate Windows file. SO THAT'S WHY THESE MALWARE PROBS NEVER GO AWAY!!! I sure hope after deleting this asshole of a malware, there won't be any problems anymore! If it does happen, i guess i'll just give in and reformat...need HDD...stat!

Took me a total of 5 hours to do everything...from running the cmd, to tracing the svchost.exe to its program (which was running at 60-99% cpu usage!!!) Ahhhh, I don't know why I won't let anyone touch my notebook...I dunno, guess I don't trust those computer dudes. Added to the fact that i'd rather do it myself...

And take note, most antiviruses can't/won't be able to identify certain malwares/trojans/worms/ this case, I recommend MalwareBytes' Anti-Malware. It was the only software that identified the "malware.trace" hidden somewhere in a temporary file folder...I also recommend turning the System Restore off before running the software and deleting all those trojans, coz they would mostly hide in those "restore point" files...after all is fixed, just reboot and turn it on again...and you're done!

Some Stuff Coz I'm Bored...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

I write regardless whether i'm bored or not...however, in this case...I'M SO FREAKIN' BORED!!! AHHHHH!!! Added to the fact that it's heat-wave season--> I hate is soooo much!!! I'm never one to complain when it rains, coz I think of it as a blessing. At least you don't have to suffer from heatstroke!

Heat wave --> the scorching sun, sweat, prickly heat, severe neck itch, sunburn (no matter how high the SPF!!!), dehydration to the point of dizziness, nausea, low blood pressure...well, maybe that's just my take. What I know for sure is that my immune system is of 2 extremes...i've somehow managed to evade the flu that's attacked my family...and yet...and sucks at protecting me from feeling faint, headaches, wanting to puke, etc...classic symptoms dehydration! I'm drinking a lot of water now, so what gives???

I can only blame myself for not taking precautions many people know, I hate drinking water, but loooove my java...mmmm, yummo! Gimme a hot brewed one anytime! :) BUT...yeah, the formula is simple, actually:

dry season + diuretics + not drinking water = disaster/dehydation

Maybe if i'd kept this habit up, I'd be having low b.p. like I did in '08...well, thank God all i'm suffering from is the icky-sticky feeling of sweat and itching neck! Medicated powder, here I come!!!


On a different note, I watched Marley & Me again...'Sunday TV nite'...with Popsie (my dad). I got teary-eyed when I watched Marley put his face on Jennifer Aniston's lap while she was crying after she found out that her baby didn't have a heartbeat at 2-months...ugggghhhh, it damn bloody struck a chord!!! Reminded me of my mom and dad...all before Baby A was born! :)

...and of course, the sad part was when they put Marley to sleep...I just love how dogs can love you no matter what you have...poor or rich, stupid or smart...if you show them love, they're yours for keeps! Can't say much about humans though...

Okok, so the point I was going to make...the movie was not great, but it does have its moments. After all that, I turned to my 'Sunday TV nite' partner and said, "Damn...a freakin' tear-jerker towards the end, wasn't it?" and Dad said, "Nahhh, i'm not really a dog person." -______- Mood killer...

Anyway, guess that's all i'm writing for now...i have a bunch of stuff in my head, but to write all of them would take a week, maybe...with the heat and all...I think i'll just go do some assignments (HALLELUJAH!!!)...maybe, no promises! One thing i'll promise is that i'm gonna drink water...and lots of it! I just started a week ago, so here's to good health!

Oh yeah...just found out that the rest of my classes has been cancelled for the, I came all the way here just for one day's class... -_____- Guess i'll be going home that case, it's the perfect time to go get a haircut!!! Long hair is NOT good for the heatwave!!! Uggghhh...

Toodlez, bitches!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Fridays Rock, Saturdays Rule & Sundays Suck!!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

For me, Fridays are the best, coz it's like a whole day of optimism...the weekend is upon us!!! Then, in the moment of anticipation, you plan your weekend on this very day...why then, do you think many people love Fridays? Hell, you wouldn't be saying TGIS (Saturday) now, would you? It's TGIF for a reason! Hahaha...

Then, comes Saturday...the day of endless possibilities...the day where you can either spend outdoors or indoors, not worrying about school or work for the next day is a given day of rest!!! So, what else? You throw caution into the wind and enjoy the whole fuckin' day!!! Day turns to night, and you still are on the mode of 'yay' because you're allowed to have a late, that my a blast!!!

I dunno, I hated Sundays since I was little, and I can't believe that i've carried this feeling with me throughout the years...bloody hell! What sort of freak am I??? I used to hate having to wake up early for Sunday mass, then Catechism classes right maybe that could count as one of the factors.

Fast forward to the present...i don't wake up for church anymore, but I still hate Sundays... Sundays for most people, is a day of day, R&R day, lazy day...Hallmark matinees day...etc! But to me, it's just a day of sulking you are well aware...the next day is the start of work/school...well, I can fool myself and still have fun of course, but the fact is that Monday is near, and that's what I hate about's sorta like the end of the weekend fun!

And yes, it's Sunday morning...2 am to be exact...and I freakin' hate that the weekend is coming to an end, and i'll have to return to uni tomorrow...and of course, get started on my unfinished assignments and thesis! No more wasting time, or i won't be able to graduate! *God forbid*

Ok, done with useless rant...

Toodlez, bitches!!!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Capo Capo Capo!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

*Long post alert!!!*

For the 1-week holiday, I'm spending time with my darling little baby sis...damn, the little tyke is crazy-smart, OMG!!! She's like an old woman in a 2 year-old body! Can you believe, she lectures us on not saying the word "stupid" or "shut up"? Hahaha, yeah...Freudian slip, okay!!! We don't mean to say these words in front of other sis and I have to censor our F-words to the core, it ain't easy I tell ya!!!

Baby's also crazy like me...she can mimic any shows on TV, any songs we hear (or watch on TV), and she now asks us to bathe her when she feels it's time!!! She used to hate taking a bath, but now...she's the one asking us to give her a bath!!! "Can please take Baby and bath???" (excuse the grammatical errors, she's only 2 years old!!!) AND...she knocks on my door in the morning, telling me to wake up and make her some milk!!!

Man, kids these days...they're much too advanced! Makes you wonder...heck, it makes me realize that we humans are evolving before our very eyes. The next generation is gonna be full of super-homosapiens, and i'm not even kidding! Lol...what, with all the TV programs catering to toddlers...I really think these shows help in child development, so I reiterate what i've said dozens of times before...

God bless the inventor of the television! ;P

Oh, about the capo as my title...say it...say "CAPO" many's fun!!! LMAO...

Well, I "borrowed" my dad's capo (and guitar too, hehehe), coz you know...when you look for chords online, they tell you to use a capo (which I don't have!) for certain songs so that you can play with open strings and whatnot...

So when I put it on the fret...BAM!!! The song sounds so much better than without...I dunno, it sounds better...of course, you don't have to use one, but I saw a chance, tried it, and loved it! Too bad, I don't have one...

The strings of my sis' Santa Cruz acoustic is wearing thin, and my dad was supposed to buy some!!! It sound horrible, it's so loose, the sound is fucked-up even after re-tuning...just playing on my dad's Ashton was great...the sound was super sharp, clean and just wow! Damn, he promised he would get me one...waiting to this day...

Oh, well...thank goodness my sister is generous enough to lend me hers...she just isn't into it anymore, I guess. But i'm proud to say that I can now play a few songs by ear. Well, almost...I have this thing where I have to write the chords down or else i'll just friggin' mess the song up...heck, i'm no Jimi Hendrix! *wishes she was Jimi Hendrix...female version!*

I was also supposed to take some piano lessons from my godmother...but I guess dad's too busy and all...I don't know, a musical instrument; it's a stress-relief for never was, but it works for me now. I think it's an escape from the stresses of reality, just like writing is to me.

I always wished to know how to play some sort of, just knowing...even a little bit is a good enough accomplishment for me...and I did it all thanks to the internet...hahahah!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

A Gleek's Pseudo-Tribute

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

How do I start?

I start by thanking John Logie Baird (is it correct?) for inventing the TV...I remember his name because it rhymes with Yogi Bear...Lol! Ahhh, remember the days of memorizing the names of inventors during our primary school years? If i'm not mistaken, we were forced to memorize these peoples' names when we were in Standards 5 and/or 6...

Well, whateverlah (lol, never used 'lah' on my blog before)...I used to think that the 90's provided us with great sitcoms and TV shows...then, at the start of the new millennium, the days of reality TV was great when it started, but it became a cultural phenomenon, that now...MTV has cropped its "Music Television" phrase from its logo...yeah, buhbye to music vids, hello 24/7 reality shows!!! TV just isn't as good as it used to be...most of my faves ended their storylines after tons of seasons, then came my withdrawal symptoms...uhhhh, where am I getting at?

I was supposed to talk about my CURRENT fave TV shows...epic fail! Well, here goes:

The current "it" show would be Glee...I love the show so much because it's a breath of fresh air. So ok, it's basically your cliched 'Breakfast Club' meets High School Musical (hate it!!!)...BUT, it feels real and genuine. The characters are lovable...heck i even love the villain!!! The writing's good, the song mash-ups are great, the dancing is ok, they all have musical backgrounds (heck, Lea and Jenna both have performed on Broadway!!!), etc...need I say more? It's the shit, babes! Lol...

Well, it's my current fave...but i'm scared that it'll just fall...just like Heroes, Lost, Desperate Housewives,, i'm just hoping that it will last for a very very long time...but how long can the premise last, eh? They could only last till the writers decide when the kids would graduate from high school, right?

For now, i'll be joining the masses in enjoying all the music they're serving us on a weekly basis...can't wait for their return after the hiatus!

PS: Just so you know, I do not think their version of "Don't Stop Believing" trumps Journey's one beats Journey or Steve Perry!!! Well, maybe Arnel Pineda replaced Steve, but...nobody beats Journey...hahahaha! Just can't believe people think the Glee version of this song is superior...what blasphemy!!!

Ahhhh, the crap I write during the holidays...gotta love it!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Paris Holds The Key To Your Heart...

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Paree holds the key to your, ever heard of that song? It's from the animated film, Anastasia voiced by Meg Ryan and John Cusack...remember? It's produced by Don of those underdogs if you compare them to Disney, of course! But heck...I loved All Dogs Go To Heaven, and I love Anastasia too! :)))

So why am I talking about that song? Coz whenever I think of France..i think of the Eiffel Tower...i think of walking into a little french bistro and ordering a cafe creme, sitting on the Al Fresco table-setting outside the quaint place, overlooking a beautiful view...buttering a croissant, and just enjoying the day while watching people cycling, walking, playing, talking away while I try to finish Le Figaro (as if!!! I can't even speak proper French!!! LMAO) as I can't find a single English-languaged newspaper anywhere...and that, my when THE SONG comes in...ahahah!!!

Well, actually that's just one of the tunes I have playing on loop when I think of Paris...the other is La Vie En Rose by Louis Armstrong...but that's for the night-time, while I'm watching the lights on Le Tour Eiffel...heheheh...*smiles while the heart warms to the thought*

OK...daydream over!!! Back to reality...

So we (A and myself) submitted the paperwork to the relevant headquarter and were told to follow-up after 2-weeks...before we sent it out, we hoped for the best, and A gave the paper a kiss...then I followed suit! LMAO...dude, if it works...then you should kiss my lottery ticket!!!

Oh, and here's the website on the trip, by the way...can you guess which is me? Hahahaha...

So that's done, and now we wait...while waiting, I must now focus on my 3 unfinished of them being my thesis!!! Ahhhhh, ZOMG!!! I was so preoccupied with finishing my term assignments and presentation that I totally brushed-off doing anything related to my thesis, and I hope that this doesn't screw with my momentum of finishing tasks! Coz once the momentum is gone...then it gets really bad, as I have a real hard time getting it back!!!

And wow does the time fly by real fast!!! Damn, it's already February...and I didn't even realize it till people kept posting Happy Chinese New Year on Facebook...shit! That leaves me around 2 fucking months to complete this thesis of mine...the pressure is on!!!

And to think, i'd have to travel back home tomorrow to sardine-packed i'm sure EVERYONE is gonna travel back to their respective homes...this being the holidays and all...

To great times and wishes come true...I wish all this for me and you! :)

Happy Chinese New Year...let us usher the year of the Tiger!!! Roarrrr!!! *Eye of The Tiger by Survivor plays in the background*

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Show Me The Funny...In Hell Week!!!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Hey, little world!!! It's been awhile since I last did what I do best; yapping incessantly about the world as I know it...

Man, I had quite a bad...not to say bad, but rather, kind of a "What???" know, a little bit of blurriness, mixed with hectic deadlines and of course, some of life's sick games and shit like that...

You know how I always say that at that moment, I tend to think that it'll pass...well, that was really my only forward to NOW: It has passed, and i'm so glad...

Well, it hasn't been a sucky week per se...just one of those weeks of many unfortunate events and inconveniences...all meshed together to create a huge chain of disasters!!! But all i'm doing while writing this is laughing...coz in the end, you look back...dust yourself off and laugh your heart out at the catastrophes that buzzed at you at that particular moment in your's just fair to say that the BIG man upstairs has a really freakish sense of humor...and I only get the humor when it's over...LMAO!

So yeah, i'm talking but not explaining, but i'm just gonna leave it at that...some of you will know what i'm talking about anyway...LOL! So there...

I have a small test tomorrow (later, i mean!) which I haven't read for...but the whole studying thing is not gonna happen because i'm super freakin' tired and for the first time in my life (exaggeration!!!), i'm gonna hit the sack on my own free will...but hot damn, it's 3.36 this so-called anomaly of my sleeping schedule is not to be (God, i'm so influenced by Sheldon Cooper right now, OMG!!!)...damn!

And yeah, finished with season 2 of The Big Bang Theory, and on to season 3...thanks A, for introducing me to this piece of grade-A, kick-ass show!!! And...why do i find these guys cool??? Ahahahaaa...Penny is one lucky biatch!

So long for now...toodlez bitches!!!

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

23 In 2010!

Wednesday, February 03, 2010


I can't believe i'm gonna be turning 23 this freakin' year! Okay, it's still a few months away, but I don't know why i'm freaking out all of a sudden!

Why does turning 23 seem so...i dunno...old?

I know, I know...ridiculous! But somehow, i think that 23 is decades older than 22...and i have NO idea why! Maybe it's something my sister told me..."Damn, you're 23 this year!!! You're 23!!! 23!!!" -_____-

Uggghhh...meanwhile, here's a short poem (doesn't seem poetic!) for me to vent, and for you to laugh at:

The pressure is building,
The wrinkles are forming,
Before I become anything,
I'm already hyperventilating!

I'm gonna be 23!!!
Oh, Father Time...what are you doing to me?
At this moment I am happy,
But I still can't help feeling like a looney...

First the questions...
Then the expectations...
Then your salutations;
From young girl, to young 'old spinster with cats for her minions'...

Is this what happens when you reach my age?
That you feel so scared that you would need shrinkage?
That you wanna turn back time and hide back in your box...
That you took so long to get out of?

I guess this is what happens when you're me,
The weirdest gal there ever could be,
What the hell's wrong with me turning 23?
Am I not supposed to celebrate with glee?

Questions that only can be answered in time...for now, I can see faint crow's feet on the edge of my eyes...damn! I always picture myself growing old with know, grace that comes from years of wisdom, experiences and achievements!

When i'm able to, I shall travel...every year, by hook or by my list of places I've always wanted to visit and go see...sorta like a "100 places to go before I die" kinda list...Aurora Borealis in Alaska, Vegas, Paris, Italy, Germany, Amsterdam, Cambodia, Brazil, New Orleans, etc...aaaaah, may it be so!!!

Monday, February 01, 2010

Too Complex!

Monday, February 01, 2010

Ever just sat down quietly and contemplate on life? I do it all the time...

Sometimes, it just gets a little too complicated...when you think of the galaxy, other galaxies...other beings...if we are indeed the product of the Big Bang Theory, what about intelligent design, aka the human definition of a superior being (mostly referred to as God)?

If God had created us humans with our ability to think rationally, logically...and if He/She is indeed all-seeing, all-knowing, are we supposed to be? Why are we here? What lesson are we supposed to learn? Are we alone in this world? If so, why create such a huge universe, and if not...why can't we connect or see or communicate with terrestrial beings?

All these thought sometimes generate weird and scary questions if I had a spaceship that could travel millions or billions of light years, where would I end up? What's at the end of the universe? Is it just a never-ending pitch-black space or would there be things that I could never imagine?

I have more to ask, but I think i'll just save it for now...