Tuesday, May 29, 2007

A Fuckin' Fucker Who Fucked-up!!!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Who dat?

Let me start from the beginning...

Yesterday...as usual, I took the bus, which meant that I had to walk very very far to get home, as the nearest stop is around 3-4 kilometres away. I didn't mind that...in fact, I loved walking!

Now, that wasn't the problem. The problem was, some motherfucker tried to snatch my freakin' handbag!!!

He was on his motorcycle. I was facing the traffic, so I could see "any villains" who even try to do anything to me! Meanwhile, this motherfucking asshole came from the back, as the place had no people, no cars...(as it was raining...)

He tried...boy, did he try! Alas, he didn't get my bag, as it was hooked on my "manly" arms (remeber previous post? Lol!)

But, what if I fell and hit my head on the pavement, like all the other snatch cases, huh? I got his plate number, but it was useless...I went to the police station with my dad, hoping that the number would at least save other lives...after checking it out, they discovered it belonged to a Pajero!

WTF? A truck? Then, they explain that thefts like these are all the norm, and they can't do anything...they said I was lucky nothing got stolen. I said, I was lucky to be alive...and indeed I was! There are so many cases like this where the people die of a coma or head trauma coz they got dragged or they hit the pavement. Although I love my stuff (mp3 player), I would let go of it if it meant my life...

So? What do I do now?

I'm gonna thank God, and my guardian angel for having been protected from this jerkoff...and pray that he gets caught so that others won't get hurt, or worse...

And you know what else? The day before, my mom warned me to give up my belongings in case a snatch thief tries to take it...in my head, I was thinking "Great, tomorrow, something like that is gonna happen!"...and what do you know? That happened!!! Sigh, I knew I was psychic! Lol...

I made a joke that the thief lost to a girl...what a stupid thief to work alone...a stupid thief who fucked-up/botched his job...AND my dad scolded me of making light of the situation. I mean, what else can I do, right? I thank God, then I make fun of it, coz that's how I handle things...with humor!

My arm is now black and blue from the bag-pulling force...

BTW, my lovely bag got hurt...reeeeeal bad!!!

Monday, May 28, 2007

These Are...The Days Of Our Lives

Monday, May 28, 2007

What's up, you ask?

Sometimes I don't even know how the hell i'd answer that question. Life can get so hectic, busy, great atone particular moment, and then...it'll be one stagnant routine of nothingness! That's what's happening now!

My work has taken a rest, as the key programmer is arranging vids and shit like that. Meanwhile, i'd have to wait for the finished results to go on with my work...and so, I wait!

My social life is still blah...still single and available, still idealizing that i'd meet a hot TV character (Peter, Denny, Mohinder, Isaac...), and we'll have a great life together! :'(

Arrrgh, I think I have bipolar disorder!!! One minute, i'm on top of the world, and the next...i'm pissed at the world for letting me be trapped in dull loneliness!

I can't go out and do something, as I need something to do things, right? You can't be broke, alone and expect to have fun here and there, go on shopping sprees, hangout with friends...

Guess, i'll have to wait for something good to come!


Friday, May 25, 2007

Updates On My Life

Friday, May 25, 2007

Whoa, it has been a long time since my last post!

What can I say, i've been busy...finally passed the slope test on my second try! Yes, right on the yellow line, lol! Without further money-wasting classes since the last test I took! The slopes are merely luck, in my opinion...plus, the cars they use are fuckin' unmaintained, yo! WTF? The gear won't budge, the clutch won't work, but thank God, I can finally have a driver's license...I passed the driving test the first time, so...


While mom was in the hospital, and dad was outstation, I took my sister for a ride in mom's car...LOL! Hey, she asked me to! So, we went to the mall, went to the bank...

When mom asked how we managed to run errands, we say we walked...and give each other a knowing look! Hehe...


Baby is cute! So frickin' cute, everyone keeps hoggin' her! Aarrrghhh, they say i'm too rough on her, then they say I shouldn't carry her with my tough-guy arms! Then I say "Whaaaaa???"

Yes, peeps! After lifting 5lbs of dumbells a few times a week, my arms now look muscular, which is NOT what I was goin' for! I was goin' for toned arms, not muscular! FUCK...I look like Angela Basset in that Tina Turner movie...I must stop A.S.A.P.!

Other than that, I'm flat broke, coz I keep 'helping' my family with a few expenses...have to wait till my next paycheck till I can go watch Pirates and etc with my pals...hope mom and dad lets me take the car!

I'm fuckin' busy at work now...loads of videos to edit! I'm very happy about this!

College? I don't know where yet, but I have to wait till June to see where destiny takes me...Government university, or private college...

So, that's all for now! Stay tuned for the next post!

Toodlez, bitches!!!

(I'm kinda happy today...)

Thursday, May 17, 2007

The Forgotten...

Thursday, May 17, 2007

I forgot to add this:

This morning, I was to get to work by the bus...that was not the problem for me; all of us were in such a fuckin' rush...my dad had a gig somewhere far away, so I had to help load all the stuff into the car...and what do you know, I wore slippers...and, I forgot to switch into my shoes...yup, I did!

I ony realized this shit after I was taking a seat in the bus...

...that's great, just FUCKIN' GREAT!!!

Now, as i'm typing, i'm wearing slippers...I only thank God the dress code here is casual, but still, it's embarassing to go around town in slippers...seems kinda bummish, rather than boho-chic!

I've taken a half day's work...around 1pm-2pm, i'll be going to visit mom and hopefully, the babe. I hope and pray that everything goes well!

The Days Pass Too Quickly...

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Indeed, the days DO pass quickly...just yesterday we found out mom was pregnant...just yesterday, I was that naive girl who thought I will always be the bubbly, cheerful gal, with a great life...just yesterday!

What I found out throughout the years is suffering, disappointments, sadness...they come with life, as a package deal. However, with the bad, comes the good, right? I sure hope so. It seems when i'm most confident at achieveing something, a huge pile of disappointments comes along. My grades, my social life, my attitude...and i'm just 20!

I want to be someone better...and I sure hope I can, coz i've experienced a lot for someone my age. Now, all I want to do is to go to college and excel at it, make 'em proud of me, help take care of my baby sibling, and then, maybe serendipitously, find someone who'll accompany me in my life's journey.

I've been all by myself, I just don't know how to be with anyone...but i'll try if the right man comes along. Maybe it's karma for turning down the guys who liked me...who knows? I'm sure i've hurt them, but you can't clap with one hand, right? They were nice guys, but I just wanted them to be friends, and they couldn't handle that.

At least I was up front about it...no games, no leading-ons. I'm happy about that! Just that maybe I wasn't ready, wasn't attracted...you can't force thing like these.

Sigh, maybe i'm being punished...but I STILL ain't gonna settle for what I don't want! I'll know it's right when I feel it...

Isn't that what love's supposed to be?

(I've somehow strayed from the title! Lol!)

Wednesday, May 16, 2007


Wednesday, May 16, 2007

I have a throbbing head!!! It's like i've got dumbells resting on my head, and it won't get off! I'm in my office, so I don't have any paracetamol...wtf!!!

Coffee didn't help...

Other than that, tomorrow is the big day!!! I'm fuckin' scared for my mom and the baby...tonight, my sister, dad and I shop for baby clothes...all together now, "Awwwww........"

Please, God, let them both be OK...


Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Busy Days...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

I've been busy these past few days...it's been fun!

I love it when i'm busy, coz it keeps me from thinking about how I have a dull life.

Well, when I think, I think big! My imagination goes wild! Then, I say to myself, why can't my life be larger than my dreams?

Coz then, i'd be really fulfilled...not that i'm so utterly miserable, just utterly bored, coz I know my life could be better! Definitely!

In my imaginary world, I have a great boyfriend, a great social life, a great duplex in the city...I go out to dine with my great family (which I have in real life---thank God!), then go on to party with friends...

There's more, much more...but i'll keep the rest to myself.


Friday, May 11, 2007

How Now, Brown Cow?

Friday, May 11, 2007

Yep, couldn't think of a more catchy title...

This is my TGIF post:

Today, my boss (who's a friend of my parents) asked me to take home his iBook for my mom...she translates Tagalog movies into English. Since she would be bored in the hospital, why not do something to pass the time, no?

Okay, the thing is heavy...it is! BUT, for my mom, I will...I call her cellphone, and turns out the docs let her out. I thought she shouldn't? Meh, what the hell, i'll take it home anyway.I'll take the train (two of 'em!), and hop in a cab from the station.


Today, I had some subtitling/editing work to do, and i'm happy about that!


Thursday, May 10, 2007

All I Want...

Thursday, May 10, 2007

  • A great job that I love
  • A wonderful family and great friends (DONE!!!)
  • A great boyfriend who loves me, and I love him back
  • A wonderful education, up to PhD level
  • To travel the world
  • To meet influential people
  • To help the children of Africa
  • To help Malaysia get rid of blatant racial bias, or what they call "Affirmative Action"; which should actually benefit the minorities, not the majority!
  • To become an influential person---power, grace and kindness; the kind of beauty that I want
  • To make my family proud, and repay them for all their selflessness
  • All of the above

How nice if for once, I can achive some things that I really want...I have been given a beautiful family and great friends, but others, not so much.

I hope it happens, though...I can't keep asking God...this, I have to do on my own!

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

What Am I Today?

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Am I a realist or an idealist?

I just can't seem to answer this freakin' question...I ALWAYS admit to people that i'm a realistic person, and I live in a realist mindset...and yet, I imagine a different life during my spare time!

Let me tell you, my imagination is so huge, I look at someone and create their life's story. Sometimes, i'd think of meeting the right man, falling in love, having a blast, getting married, having kids, achieving ambitions, supporting my parents, my new family, then dying...

You would think that's it, but I think of everything in between as well, Lol...My imagination...sigh! This, I see as a gift, coz without it, I'd be stuck in a rut, not knowing how i'll escape.

All these factors make me sum this up;

My imagination rocks! Thanks, God!

-A pointless post, but mehhh, whatever!-

PS: Oh...about my broken heel yesterday, I walked like a drunken sailor with a per for a leg!


Tuesday, May 08, 2007

My Shoe!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Oh shit, my new shoes...the right heel's sole came out! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How am I gonna walk now?


Monday, May 07, 2007

What's With Me?

Monday, May 07, 2007

What's with me, that I can fall for half the cast of Heroes, Denny from Grey's Anatomy (RIP...I don't want you to die next week, but you sure will! Noooooooooo.........poor Izzie!) and a whole bunch of other fictional characters on TV and movies, but I can't feel anything for guys in real life?

TV has ruined men for me!

Why and how can I be fooled into thinking that men are as nice, and kind, and hot as they are in the 'idiot box'?

Man, my standards are so way up there! But fuck it, I love TV!!!

Let any men challenge the charming Denny Duquette, and i'll be all yours!

Why can't I like the guys who like me? I wish I could, but I can't...I just don't like them!

It's unfair, I know...you think I like doing this? You can't force someone to love you, jackass!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

So You Think You Can Stand?

Thursday, May 03, 2007

One thing I do nowadays is watch stand up comedy on YouTube...it's one one my favorite things, stand up comedy...my mom once told me that I should try to become a comedienne...but then again, I guess my mom is my biggest fan!

The best comic ever is, of course the undisputed legend; the one and only Richard Pryor!

Man, watch his shit, and you'll literally ROFL...i'm freakin' serious! Though be warned, his stuff contains derogatory remarks for you sensitive people...but, then again, why watch if you're so freakin' touchy?

Others are (though not even close to the legend!) ok, the usual peeps; Rock, Lawrence, Murphy, Carlin, Sykes, etc...

They're all a blast when you're bored, to be honest! But now that i've seen all of Pryor's vids, what am I to do? Noooooooooooooo!!!

Let E Entertain You!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

OMG, this past few days all i've been doin' is watching TV...it's sick dude! The E! Entertainment Channel's finally in Malaysian satellite TV; Astro.

So, you know i'm a gossip-junkie...I read gossip blogs, mags...now I have it all on TV! Fuckin amazing, y'all!

I guess i'm better at history lessons of Anna Nicole Smith, Jessica and Ashlee Simpson, Jennifer Aniston than the history of the Malaccan Sultanate (which is utterly a bore!). Oh, man, i'm such a freaktard!

Man, it's so pathetic! I ain't proud of this, people!

This is just my confession.

Now, if only they get back NBC...(Heroes...PRIMETIME!!!)


Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Heroes Spoilers!!!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Yo, so I couldn't wait for the whole five years into the future thing on Heroes...I vow to NOT watch it online...why?

Because this episode would only be given the justice it deserves if I watch it on a large, clear, HD screen! In other words, i'll have to wait for it on Astro.

However, due to my impatience, i've found out that Peter Petrelli is the alternate exploding man, which initially was supossed to be...you guessed it: Sylar! And the reason he painted that painting of a "darker Nathan" was because he became Nathan (after killing Candice and acquiring her power of shape-shifting!) as the president.

There's a scene between Sylar and Peter which was cool (looking at the screencaps, courtesy of Rickey.org), as Peter's slicked hair and black get up looked like Neo in the Matrix...pretty cool! And who would've thought that future Hiro would be the katana-wielding terrorist that he is...cool! And Jessica is no more...Niki still is Niki, but now she's a stripper...and she kissed Peter. HELL NO!!! Micah, D.L., Ando...they're all dead in this universe...NO!!!

Yep, that's all I can say regarding this episode of Heroes...COOL! May present day Hiro save the day, and alternate the future. Yattaaaaaa!!!