Wednesday, November 22, 2006

The Story Today

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

What's up, you say? Well, so far, i'm in day-3 of my major examination...So far, i must say honestly...I sucked big time on this one paper...but i did pretty well on another...and the third? Average...That's NOT what I wanted! I have to buck up! I've been praying a lot, and i hope God hears me.

Other than sucky exams, my mom and dad came back from the O.B. yesterday...the baby is doing good, all the major limbs have formed...Oh my God! I'm so excited. After what my mom and dad have been through the last time, i hope that this baby comes out healthy. Oh shit, the baby will be born around a month right after my 20th birthday! Geez, that sounds kinda freaky, lol! I'll be one of the oldest sisters in the world...but i'm cool with that now. Now i wouldn't worry 'bout mom and dad having empty-nest syndrome after me and my sis go on through adulthood.

I listened to "Hurt" by NIN after a long time, and i missed it. I used to love that song. It's so raw and heart-wrenching...if you'd ever felt what Trent Reznor was trying to say. Well, i'm gonna listen to it again.

I'll be posting more soon. Hopefully a better, more interesting post. I know...I'm dull!

Monday, November 20, 2006

First Day of My War...

Monday, November 20, 2006

Goodbye to my first book of General Studies, for i will not see you for a very long was nice knowing you, for i have learnt so much from thy worthy feed...Had fun, and i'll be seeing you soon! Toodles!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Lost in Denial

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Oh, gosh! I'm totally in freak-out mode right now...not only am i not studying, I'm also just staring into space, while my books stare back at me...aarrrgggh!!! This photo of "The Scream" is exactly how i feel...

My major public exam is this Monday, and I'm not proud to say that I'm soooo not ready! Wtf? What am i going to do? I seem like I'm calm (that's what my parents are telling me), but inside, this shit is killing me, eating me up inside. I'm praying for a clear mind, and i hope i could rise to the occasion with God's help.

Other than that, i am also planning my life post examinations...WHAT??? I've not even completed day one, and here i am planning ahead! Well, there's ME for you! I'm so screwed up, that i commit the worst foul, ever...I'm commiting a cliché! You know, the one where you don't count your chicks before they hatch...I, hate clichés, but here i am contradicting my own belief system...

I feel like throwing up when i think of my exams...why can't i be calm? I need some soothing, calming mantras...perhaps the Hail Mary on the rosary? Sigh...I can't wait for this shizz to be over. God, my patron saints, and angels help me!

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

When I Looked at A Shooting Star

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

As a young girl of 12-years, i saw the dark, morning sky as i was waiting for my school bus...and boy, did i love looking at the stars! I saw one, twinkling was the biggest star i've ever seen...and i said, "Will you be my shooting star, one that i could wish upon?" and you know what happened? It shot across the morning, i really thought i'd imagined it...but then, my wish came true.

Now, as a 19-year old, i firmly believe in wishing upon a shooting i wish i could find one again!

I really love looking at the stars and the hues of the sky...i'm truly at awe at this! Whenever i look at the sky during sunset/sunrise, my faith in God increases...'coz a godless world couldn't have created such beauty for us to behold. C'mon, how could mere probabilities and 'Big Bang' theories put the beauty of this heavenly painting to justice?

Monday, November 13, 2006


Monday, November 13, 2006

Okay, so the job i was supposed to get is paying minimum wage, i don't know if i should take it...should i? I always jinx myself...wasn't i just saying that life couldn't be better? Then, this happens. Well, if i look at the bright side, i don't have to look for another job...but, as i'm a self-confessed pessimist, i'd rather look for 10 other available jobs that could at least pay wages that fit the job i'm about to partake...

Well, i do have about a month to think about it...

Other than that, i'm still doing my revisions, and i'm doin okay...JUST okay.I'm praying like there's no tomorrow for good results, and asking for intecessions from all my patron saints (uhuh, worked before...really!)

As much as i love planning my future, sometimes weird thing happen, so i'm trying my best to plan and be flexible at the same time...however, i do want my dream to become a reality, i want to become an AMBASSADOR for my country...please, please come true!

As i have not gone into tertiary ed just yet, i can't say that cirumstances won't change things...i've seen this happen tons of times...So, may everything fall into place!

Peace out!

Sunday, November 12, 2006

I'm Back...

Sunday, November 12, 2006

After a long year, life is getting a little better...Mom's pregnant right now, we're all so happy. Just think, in April/May, a little bundle of joy will be here to bring us luck.

I'm still single, but getting ready for the wild world as i'm gonna go through one of the toughest examinations in the world. Have almost a week to go, then after 3-weeks, i'm home free! The wild world awaits...

In January, i start a part-time job as an assistant at a production company...but only for a few months, then i start university...Whoah, it seems all so surreal...From last year, whch i must say was a shitty year, i now am a lot happier, have additional great friends and memories i'll cherish throughout my life.

I hope things will just keep getting better, it's time it started...If there is anyone reading this stuff, just know that life has its ups and downs, but, just keep going and have faith...I have always been cynical, and i doubt i'll ever change, but sometimes when you let things go and be at peace with the world, something funny happens; you see LIFE as it IS!

Well, i'll be posting soon, i pray all goes well! Good luck to me...and wait! Christmas is coming...haha!