Life's Sick Lil' Games...

I can't believe it...the time has passed so quickly...and all this while I haven't updated my journal...how can this be? I miss you...I miss coming here and typing everything in my head...where no judgment passes me...all the words just lie here in a vacuum of the blogosphere!

I am currently working...yes, I AM WORKING!!! OMG...I didn't say it earlier because I didn't wanna jinx it, but who needs to say anything when you have a mother who practically broadcasts everything on her Facebook wall??? I am laughing now, but when she did it at the time, I was so freakin' mad and embarrassed...well, the past is past...fast forward to now...I did get the job, and I'm now undergoing training!

What's mad is I have joined the automobile industry...which is something I have never thought of joining...but whoever said the Taurus sign isn't flexible...eat your heart out!!! This is a total 180 for me in every way! Cars...I have to eat, sleep and breathe cars...I am actually looking forward to this...hahaha, especially the part where I will be attached as a technician! OMG...ganassss aka fierce!!! LMAO!!!

Okay, so it's been a few days of ups and downs, but I have been warned that the coming weeks are gonna be hell...I'm freakin' ready...ready for anything you wanna give me!!!

I shall note my day-to-day activities if I can...one of the trainers said it's good to keep notes, so you don't forget...or maybe a few years down the road, you can read it again and remember the good and bad of your past experiences. For now...those other MTs are my friends, and I'm sure we're gonna grow together. Please be with us, God!

And as for the trip to Paris...as much as I want to go...I am bonded to the organization which hired me...I have 4 months of training, in which I can't take leave...so I sent in my resignation and pulled out of the trip...much to my sadness. But I can';t do anything but support my friends who are lucky enough to join the trip...please do it, and live my dream for me... :D

What else? Oh, I might get a car soon...might get staff price without waiting a year since we're bonded for 3 freakin' years!!! Muahahah, I don't want one, but I NEED one! It's just impossible to borrow Dad's car all the time! Impossible! Hey, even if I don't get the staff price...I NEED one... :(

Till the next post...I'm fuckin' sleepy...it's 12 am...OMG, I'm becoming normal!!! :-0

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Complaining is one of my greatest weaknesses...sometimes you just have those days when things don't go the way you want it. You go home (in my case, my single room in campus) to your solitary confinement...you then throw your weight on the bed, look up the ceiling and just have the whole day on playback in your head. From there, you go on and think about the bigger things; your future, where you're heading and you find yourself lost...the same ol' issue!

Happens all the time...

Sometimes you go into dark-mode...but i'm learning to cope by going the other way...like just reminding myself that I have everything I need in my life. Basic stuff for survival, stuff that feeds my mind, body and soul...and of course the greatest assets any human could have: a circle of trust...people whom you know will have your back in any situation.

Sometimes God speaks to you in ways you can't imagine...just when I started to get all gloomy and whatnot (maybe it's that fucking unfinished thesis and that trip I want to happen with every fibre of my being, which I've just come across some upsetting news!)...the song that played on my player was True Colors by Cyndi Lauper...damn, it made me cry!

I'm one of those people who really take the lyrics into heart, and I believe the words make the song. Of course, the music and melody plays an important role...but if the lyrics are just some jumbled-up crap...i'd hate it no matter how beautiful the melody...but that's just me!

Back to the story...I personally felt that someone was speaking to me...well, maybe not...but I would like to think so. It was just the perfect answer to that particular moment I was having. Take a look at the lyrics, and maybe you'd understand why I thought SOMEONE was speaking to me...

True Colors by Cyndi Lauper

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you feel so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Thank you, God...I love you too! :')

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Paree holds the key to your heart...lol, ever heard of that song? It's from the animated film, Anastasia voiced by Meg Ryan and John Cusack...remember? It's produced by Don Bluth...one of those underdogs if you compare them to Disney, of course! But heck...I loved All Dogs Go To Heaven, and I love Anastasia too! :)))

So why am I talking about that song? Coz whenever I think of France..i think of the Eiffel Tower...i think of walking into a little french bistro and ordering a cafe creme, sitting on the Al Fresco table-setting outside the quaint place, overlooking a beautiful view...buttering a croissant, and just enjoying the day while watching people cycling, walking, playing, talking away while I try to finish Le Figaro (as if!!! I can't even speak proper French!!! LMAO) as I can't find a single English-languaged newspaper anywhere...and that, my friend...is when THE SONG comes in...ahahah!!!

Well, actually that's just one of the tunes I have playing on loop when I think of Paris...the other is La Vie En Rose by Louis Armstrong...but that's for the night-time, while I'm watching the lights on Le Tour Eiffel...heheheh...*smiles while the heart warms to the thought*

OK...daydream over!!! Back to reality...

So we (A and myself) submitted the paperwork to the relevant headquarter and were told to follow-up after 2-weeks...before we sent it out, we hoped for the best, and A gave the paper a kiss...then I followed suit! LMAO...dude, if it works...then you should kiss my lottery ticket!!!

Oh, and here's the website on the trip, by the way...can you guess which is me? Hahahaha...
http://www.lasbellaparis.blogspot.com/

So that's done, and now we wait...while waiting, I must now focus on my 3 unfinished tasks...one of them being my thesis!!! Ahhhhh, ZOMG!!! I was so preoccupied with finishing my term assignments and presentation that I totally brushed-off doing anything related to my thesis, and I hope that this doesn't screw with my momentum of finishing tasks! Coz once the momentum is gone...then it gets really bad, as I have a real hard time getting it back!!!

And wow does the time fly by real fast!!! Damn, it's already February...and I didn't even realize it till people kept posting Happy Chinese New Year on Facebook...shit! That leaves me around 2 fucking months to complete this thesis of mine...the pressure is on!!!

And to think, i'd have to travel back home tomorrow to sardine-packed trains...as i'm sure EVERYONE is gonna travel back to their respective homes...this being the holidays and all...

To great times and wishes come true...I wish all this for me and you! :)

Happy Chinese New Year...let us usher the year of the Tiger!!! Roarrrr!!! *Eye of The Tiger by Survivor plays in the background*

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Why; the ultimate question for the ultimate time of tension...

I don't know, actually...guess i'm taking a break from all the shit!!!

I somehow need to step away from reality for now...by doing something non-academic. There's even things going on at home. My whole family are just too busy nowadays...know the last time I went out with friends? A few months back. How pathetic is that? Well, enough of all the shitty self-pity. Let me blog about fun things!

Well, here...the following list are stuff i wanna do in the future. Believe me when i say it'll deffo be updating it as time goes by. Here goes:

• I want to travel to France - have the ultimate cup of coffee in a small bistro in Paris, looking at the Eiffel Tower, eat great French cuisine in a posh French restaurant

• I want to go through the the ultimate love story - with a happy ending

• I want to enjoy a picnic in Central Park

• I want to celebrate New Year's Eve in Times Square, NYC

• I want to go to Tuscany and stay in a beautiful Italian villa and enjoy a view of a luscious vineyard with wonderful wine and pasta made by the locals

• I want to visit Amsterdam and go cycling, and try some legal green herbs...lol!

• I want to drive through the Vegas desert in a red convertible...and put my head in the air and feel the breeze

• I want to be rich and personally go to the African region and open up schools for boys and girls, with 50:50 ratio...i would recommend that boys take lessons on Respect for Women. The girls; studies in feminism

• I want to find my life's purpose

• I want to take up classical piano...and finish it this time!

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