Life's Sick Lil' Games...

LMFAO! Sound familiar? Oh, c'mon...you must've heard it at least once in your life from somewhere! It's Spandau Ballet's True or something like that...don't even know why I bothered writing about it...must be going mad?

Anyway...life's been good! I've been battling all sorts of sickness for the past month--> I don't know, maybe it's because I keep getting the virus from every member of the family who gets sick? Fuck, i wish i had some sort of 'firewall' that shields me from all the sickness...i hate it, really! Such an inconvenience!

And my friends from high school keep pestering me about arranging some sort of meet for us friends...i'd love to help, but why does it have to be me who arranges thing? Lol, yes, i'm flattered you think of me, but really...i'd rather join in the fun rather than arrange things...besides, I'M FREAKIN' SICK! Lol...

And yes...still listen to TH every day...just before sleeping! Single dose, daily.

Been contemplating ME...i've always held that i'm spiritual, rather than religious...and i took out my old book by Walsch...which i bought when i was 17 or 18...i read it again...i never realized that it had elements of The Secret...but while reading the latter, i spotted Walsch's name as one of the 'teachers'...wow, go figure! There is some sort of correlation there! Indeed, we're all connected! I sometimes wish more people would get onto the bandwagon towards self-discovery, rather than being dictated that life is already written. But that's just me!

Now, another thing...my dad says he wants to widen his abilities as a musician...so he's gonna learn piano next year! Wow! I was totally out of my mind since I wanted to go back to learning it as well...so I told my dad, "Me too!!!"...so, yay!!! By next year, we'll be takin' piano lessons from my godmother...again! I don't know why, but i have a feeling, we'll be getting a piano!!! Lol...yes! LoA, do your work! I must learn the piano riff of that song...that beautiful, haunting riff!

Tonight, i'm gonna chill with my bestest best friends at the movies...however, be it at the mamak, at some crappy diner or wherever else...all i care about is that we have a blast just by hanging out and talking useless crap! Sometimes it's amazing how long we've stayed friends...i know, we've had different cliques throughout the years, but we've somehow managed to stay friends, unlike our former 'cliques'...funny, eh? Funny...but somehow, it kinda works! Remember, we all are supposed to wear some drapey top and skinnies...got it? And YOU know why, Foxie! LMFAO...see you!

For now...toodlez, bitches!!!

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During the 1st week, we were supposed to go here, there and everywhere...especially shopping in Manila...unfortunately, the many cases of A H1N1 made my mom say, "I don't wanna risk it!"...and so that's why we were just in the province since...of course, we went to the malls, but i wanted to see Manila. So, when my dad joined us the week later, we made up our minds to go to Olongapo City...and spend the night at Subic Beach, then go to Manila and shop.

So off we went!

The highlight of my trip here is this particular boat ride...we went quite far, alittle less than 2 hours, visiting other resorts and islands, spotting huge tankers, cruise ships, a port, etc...Subic was a former U.S. naval base, so go figure...many Americans over there. Mostly old men with their prostitutes...something so common, that we weren't even surprised. We, however, booked the family suite which faces the beach...just get over the small barrier, and voila, you can build sandcastles...it's THAT close by.

The boating session is what really got me...I felt so much peace at the serenity...i thanked God at that moment!

After that, it was long trips to Manila, shopping, and who could forget...watching a live band at the Riverbank or something of that sort...man, the band was awesome! They did classic rock tunes my Journey, Toto, Aerosmith, Deep Purple, Guns 'n Roses...OMG, the band were "old-timers", as dad says...the vocalist had that voice so suitable for this kind of music; kinda like Steve Perry from Journey! I really loved it.

As usual, dad had to talk to them, buy them drinks and chat...yeah, my dad loves to chat up his fellow musicians...and guess what? They performed and live in Malaysia...some married Malaysians and Singaporeans, then divorced...hahahaha!

AND one of them are best friends with my Malaysian cousin! What a small world!!! Just at that moment, everyone said the same thing..."What a small world, eh?" I don't even know what lead them to talk about my cousin, a DJ...but yeah, that was like a moment of freakish coincidence!

The food? What shall i say bout the food? Some were awesome, and some weren't...it's so easy to feed me, as i'm not really picky...but some were just too 'ughhh'!

You see, there...there are the all-imported Pizza Huts and McDonalds and KFCs...but guess what? They have their very own fast-food chains.

CHOW KING--> a chinese-filipino fast food chain, serving chinese food (though i must say, nothing beats Malaysian chinese food!!! YUMMO!) that aren't spicy...plus, most have sweetish taste, which i don't like!

JOLLIBEE-->a burger-fries kinda fast food chain, serving filipino flavors in American style fast food...there's local flavors and stuff...but i don't really fancy it. Their burger patties have celery or coriander-like flavors which i find not suitable for beef patty burgers...and this is an ultimate sin for me: THEIR SPAGHETTI IS SWEET, SUPER SWEET!!! I don't like it at all!!! I'm sorry, i have my limits! Hahahahaha...

Okok...feeling like crap now, will continue later...i wanna go choke myself to death!

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Yes, i'm back, but i have too much to say, and i haven't thought of what the heck i'm gonna write, except that i had 2 weeks of total paradoxes!

1st week was a total chill-out session, where i was in the barangay or village in my grandfather's province, Pampanga...where everyone spoke a dialect called Capampangan. My mother spoke it, but i could not even begin to tell you how different it is from Tagalog...at least i could understand Tagalog when people speak it to me, but what? A whole new dialect? Shit...or shall i say "taklak!" (Capampangan for "shit") ...that's the only word i know. Oh, oh...and also "mekeni" which is "c'mon!"

Told you bout the pumping of water and seeing paddy fields, cows, chickens, buffalos, etc...right? Rode on jeepneys and tricycles many times, as that's the main way of getting anywhere around...yeah, my grandpappy has no car, so this is how we rolled, yo! LOL! Fun times...

I have also improved my Tagalog, comprehension-wise, not speaking-wise...i still don't have the confidence to speak, unless it's for fun...hahahaha! I have also gotten addicted to the teleseryes playing on the networks; Totoy Bato and Zorro...LMAO! Seriously! I watched it with my granpa...well, you know me...TV addict! And man, those actors and actresses are attractive...not ALL, but MOST...my new fave Pinoy actor is Ian Veneracion...yummo!

And every night there's a man selling Pan de Sal (some sort of hot buns) which are so fluffy and warm, it's like your very own comfort food! Put some butter or Cheez Whiz on it, and voila...fatso-builder!

That's for the first week...pretty casual...and the time during the 1st week is super-freakin' weird...why? Because time seem to pass rather slowly...i'm dead serious! You know how time passes quickly all the time? In the place where i was, it sure didn't, dudes! It's like you check the clock to see if the hour has passed, and then you find out, "whoah, it's only been 15 minutes? WTF?"

It's THAT weird! Hahahaha...and the day ends earlier...as in, the darkness sets around 6pm, and the morning brightens at 6am. And I, for some reason sleep and wake up early over there! Wow, what an achivement, eh? LMAO! Dad would be sooooo proud!

Continued story on next post...

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Can't believe i have internet, can't believe i have internet!!! Hahahaha, okok, i didn't expect this place to have it, but yeah, my uncle has this prepaid broadband thingy that we borrowed...well, my sis brought her lappy so i'm borrowing hers!

Anyway, so far...what can i say...culture shock, anyone? Why; coz firstly, we are not in the city, we are in the Barangay aka kampung! So it's basically 'kerbaus' or 'karabaos' as they call it here, paddy fields, tricycles, jeepneys, etc...what fun!

The outbreak of A H1N1 is rampant in Manila, so my mom cancelled our Manila trip for the week till my dad joins us...BOO!!! And also, i have to pump water just to use it! Unbelievable...i shall never complain of anything in Malaysia again! Plus, the roads here are super crayzay!!! Holes, sand, rocks...OMG! But maybe it's just in the kampungs...hmmm? I have been two two provinces so far, my grandad's and my late grandmother's place...but one thing...

THE PEOPLE HERE ARE SUPER DUPER NICE!!! I've never seen anyone with an ounce of cynicism or anything negative here in my family, unlike those in KL, yucks!!! The people here are crazy pleasant!!! It's nuts...but then again...who knows about the other places, right? The kampungs in Malaysia are also ok, right? But what do i know, i don't have one over there...

And they keep feeding us over here...food, food, food! Added to me not exercising...i'm gonna return much fatter than before! Damn!!!

But yay, now i have one over here in Pangasinan and Pampanga...

Next stop: Olongapo Beach and Manila

To my peeps: I miss you guys!!! Mwah from the Philippines...

PS: Most shows here are in tagalog or dubbed in Tagalog...believe it! Even the Korean, Mandarin dramas, etc...except the English ones! And yeah, i've watched some, hahahaha! Interesting... and gorceries here are damn expensive. And petrol too! That is why...I LOVE MALAYSIA!!! Always have, and always will...

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Okay, so it's been a long time since i've updated...sorry bout that. But one thing is, i feel rejuvenated, people!!! I am now back in my campus, and I already miss my baby sister's singing and dancing...well, she's a little entertainer, that girl...and it never fails to make me smile and even laugh after a shitty day!

What else is happening? I am continuing with my 3rd level French, since I love it!

And love = an A!

Hahahaha...

But now i'm adding up Mandarin in my list of foreign languages. I must tell you, today was my 1st day, and I was in a daze...seriously, everything learnt in Mandarin class was a blur, it's like a culture shock! Th pinyin, the tones and different vowels and consonants...ZOMG! French is a hundred times easier than Mandarin, OMG!!! The horror, the regret!!!

BUT!!!

I wanted to take Mandarin because China is the rising superpower, and Mandarin is a crucial language to learn...also because of it's smooth-sounding words...i love it! But nothing is easy at 1st, right? Well, i'm up for it! I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!! Besides, it's only the first day...

New year hit me like a ton of bricks, btw...mom and dad were not home, so I decided to take charge for my younger sisters...I made us some Fetuccini Carbonara (a big hit...sisters and friend wanted more, hahaha)...R (mid sister) made some garlic bread...and we drank some Heineken and Pink Vodka. Some new year, huh? Well, at least we all love each other even though work prohibits family time. And...and...we have our health...and happiness!!!

Now for the new term, i'm gonna try to take care of my health more...i stopped my blog updates due to a moment of sickness which then led to laziness...u know the story...the low b.p., the not eating and feeling faint and all that crap!

So for now, I should learn to take care of my health more. AND I MUST START DRINKING WATER!!!

I don't know why in the world I hate drinking water...it's weird, and it's taking a toll on my face...it has been attacked by an eruption of pimples...lesson learnt, but it's cut short by caffeine fixes! MUST MUST MUST DRINK WATER!!!

So, oh yeah...went and did my passport (finally!) so my family and I can finally go to the Philippines to visit my family there and learn about my heritage and all...maybe down the road i could start travelling? Oh God, may it be...

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Sorry about not updating...besides, no one ever reads this but me...I like to look back on the stuff I write about things; see if my thoughts have changed, or if they're still the same...

I'm now working part-time...at home. How great is that? However, my exams are not over yet...so I have to be careful with that.

My days at uni are dull as hell...i'll give you a piece of the action. Here's what I wrote on a dull day. Was pretending there was WiFi, and that I was updating my blog...Here goes a long post...it's like I never took a break from blogging, hahah...:

"Tuesday, 30 October 2007.


Wow, how fast does time pass when you are preoccupied with things…So far, I’ve been doing a balancing act; work and studies…the time where I should’ve been studying for my exams was the time I was rushing with my work tasks, as the deadline approached…regretfully, out of 30 videos, I only finished 27 on time, and had to give the other 3 over to the main man (coz I had to go back to my uni for the exams…)

Regarding the tests, the first paper; screwed it up…not saying I didn’t know the answers, coz I sure did know ‘em. It’s just that I didn’t manage the my time properly. I wrote long and hard on the scratch paper…then, when it came to writing them on the answer sheet, I had run out of time.

The last question, in which I was supposed to be an expert, just coz I did it as an assignment, I didn’t do it right…Why? Because I read the question wrong! Instead of writing down the difference between the foreign policy during Tunku Abdul Rahman and Mahathir’s era, I had written from the time of all of the prime ministers (just as in my assignment question!) I summarized everything, and left out a few, since I thought I was writing too much…AND , while writing, I ran out of time! How’s that for shitty!!!

When I came out of the test hall, and exchanged notes about the test with a couple of friends, only then did I know the REAL question…AAARRRGGGHHHH!!! SCREWED UP THE TEST---BIG TIME!!!!! Almost threw a fit right then and there…

Well, can’t think too much about it now, right? 15 marks down the drain, yo!

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Wish there was a Halloween Party…I often wished I was at a private uni where these sort of fun activities happen all the time…I’m missing too much on life…a part of my youth went missing when I entered this public uni…sure, it’s one of the greatest gifts the gov can give me…80% subsidized higher education…though, I sometimes feel like I don’t fit in. Sure, no one knows who Wilco or The Shins is, nobody listens to NIN or Sufjan Stevens, watches E! Channel…

This is one of the reasons I listen to music all the time…it takes me away to another world…a world of possibilities, ideals. One thing I’m finding hard to understand is why don’t I have any male friends here? It seems unbelievable that I don’t, coz I sure have dozens of them over at high school, and we all still hang out. Am I losing the ability to socialize, or is it the current environment that I’m in…I think it’s the latter…

However, I think it’s time for me to experience being a social misfit…

What am I listening to? Tommy Tutone’s Jenny 867 5309. Love that you memorize the number at the first mention…for a good time, call 867-5309 (Hahaha, classic!)"

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After my so-called hell-week, i'm finally home, sleeping on my bed!!! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

The problems i've accumulated throughout the semester of my first year has gone far, far away, thanks to my ability to solve problems, hehe!

Now, i'm just gonna chill, then i'll go to a few friends' houses to visit them for their Hari Raya celebrations; great!!!

Right now, i'm downloading some songs...ever heard the cover of Rihanna's "Umbrella"? I like it! Sounds like Mandy Moore, but the radio DJ said 'twas some girl from YouTube...I dunno, I just know I like it.

Uhmmm, since it's early registration for the next semester, i'm thinking if I should take French lessons earlier, because I can't wait to learn it! However, it seems the classes are at 11pm!!! I mean, is that even possible? WTF, dudes! 11pm? How the hell am I gonna get transportation over there? My dorm is like 4 kilometres from my faculty...gahhh!!!!

What music am I listening to now? Lenny Kravitz' "It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over"...one of my favorite chillout-mellow-touchy-feely songs...

Btw, I was thinking...should I get a 1-month long job for the holidays, or should I just stay home? This is, however in December, so no rush...you know what, i'll think of it then!

At least i'm updating this who-knows-who-the-hell-reads-this blog...I sorta love this blog coz it's my only release...so bear with me! Any comments? Lol!

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First thing's first; sorry for not updating for so freakin' long...it's been hell thinking about this poor blog, rotting away...but, here I am now!!! I've been very sick during the last week, from headaches to fever, to headaches, to tummy aches, to many other aches...

FINALLY!!! The money has been credited...bought most of the stuff I needed, paid my fees, and gave a grand to help Mom pay the bills and shit like that. Now i'm left with only a few hundred bucks, and that, I suppose I have to give to my sis (and maybe Dad too)! Lol, nothing left for me...Never mind, as long as i've settled the fees, I guess i'm ok...

What did I do that took most of my time away from you, blog? Here goes...

I was finishing an assignment. A very difficult one, it was!!! Me and my group had to do a multi-level-analysis on the Bosnian conflict...LOL! Dudes, this was NO easy task...journals upon journals, books to books. We basically had to use up everything in our brains to connect the dots. I tell ya, at one point, we didn't sleep for two days and one night! But, you know, I had a great group, finished on time, presented our work, handed out the work papers and got a 50-50 remark from the prof. Not what I was looking for, but it works for now!

Now I have to finish this assignment on Malaysia's foreign policy from the era of the first prime minister to the latest...I'm doing it alone...but not before another group task of Islamic Spain! How nice this is...LOL! I love I.R.!!!

I miss my family. I didn't go back for two weeks because of all the work. I hope my baby sis didn't forget her eldest sister...

You know what? I'm thinking of not joining the foreign service. I think a person of my race will not have a chance of promotion in this country (I could be wrong, though!)...I would love to travel the world on behalf of my country, and become somebody respected worldwide, though...I would love that very much! But, maybe something else would come along. Though, it would break Mom's heart, coz she really hopes that her daughter would become an ambassador...Anyway, it's all just something i'll consider, it's not final.

I still haven't found a single guy that fits my "LIST"...you know, "the list"...the whole brains, looks, kindness, good sense of humor, caring, etc...you know...that one! I think there aren't guys like that in this world...i'm not perfect, but I wish that I could experience that feeling of someone being in love (cue to Bjork's It's Oh So Quiet...)! That would be fun!

I'm a little committment-phobic. When I like someone, and he likes me back...for some reason I back off! Geez, i'm such a freaky weirdo! My younger sister is now in a four-year relationship...She has put me to shame...I think my baby sis will find her husband before I ever get a boyfriend...I need to do an analysis on myself and write a thesis!!!

I have such a thing for books, I can never get enough...some of the librarians now know me by name, I think! I'm reading Deliverance now...not done with 1984 by Orwell...had to give back Animal Farm coz I had to borrow more important stuff for my assignments...i'll get back to reading that as soon as I can!

Song playing in my MP3 player: Claire De Lune by Debussy...okay, okay for a rock-chick, what's wrong with a little classical piano? I like to keep things eclectic, baby!

So far, so good (jinx!!!)...I hope all goes well for now...till then, Toodlez bitches!!!

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