Wednesday, June 03, 2009

So What Now?

Wednesday, June 03, 2009


So there you have it...I was busted for a self-pitying post. Ok, i'll have to admit i was ashamed of being so petty and selfish for this sorry attempt of self-sympathy. And why? For a few hours of emoting...

Man, it felt so...so...lousy? But heck, i don't care...coz it's normal to feel like crap sometimes. So here, in all it's glory...G's pity-party post (has a nice ring to it, don't you think?)

And problems? Who doesn't have them, right? It's how you handle them...it's how we overcome. And my life's goals are way too many, although i'm a little lost. Heck, I don't wanna work at a job i hate. I don't wanna be stuck here in confinement while others get to live life to the fullest!

I wanna look forward to my career every single time i wake up. I wanna be the epitome of happiness at its best! Hah! I talked to my mom about all of this before, coz this has been an issue for me for some time...she told me to save up and go wherever i want...so simple, huh? BUT then you go and get posted in Sabah...and dad is working, sis is studying...it's funny, almost! Ironically funny...yeah, maybe resentment is what i feel.

A-ha moment: RESENTMENT! Exactly what i'm feeling right now! Boy, this is why i love writing...gives you the release, while literally showing your train of thoughts lead to an a-ha moment!

Why the hell am i so bipolar? I'm sooo weird...Then again, i don't wanna be conforming to what society dictates to me...hmmm, there i go again!

Guess what i said before was actually true...i'm at my best when i'm busy doing something, rather than bored doing nothing! So here it is...my revoked post -->REPOSTED!

Just so you can see how foolish i was...


So Jaded...But It Will Be Over Soon

Category: boredom , Collective Soul , shorts By ledzeppelin4evr


My life so far has been a cyclical period of boredom, you have no idea! This often gets me in a sort of depression mode. Why? Coz i just imagined myself in another place...and now i'm like, "Fuck!"

This is one of the reasons i don't like thinking too much bout myself...

Man, why have i become so jaded? At this very moment, I just want to go far away...maybe by myself to reflect on life a little bit. While i'm thinking about all this, this song just keeps popping into my head: Run by Collective Soul...the lyrics pretty much sums it up, and i'm in the process of learning it (damn F chord!!!)...that is how i'm feeling!!!

What more can I say? I just want this feeling to pass...and it will, or maybe it will just be re-lodged into my subconscious a little further down...

5 comments:

Neo said...

dnt u worry carbonated bottle!! hahaha,neo will save you :P hehehe

ledzeppelin4evr said...

Bong-head! ROFLMAO...yeah2, u'r a big hero...if u could, u'd wanna save everyone, right?

Neo said...

haha,well,it's pity when this big hero doesnt have sm1 to help him back :P hehheh..well,he jst help some1 that he care the most coz after all,he only have 2 hands and a heart :)

ledzeppelin4evr said...

Your theme song: Five for fighting's Superman...or for u it would be called Suparman...ahahah!

Nvmind, "i could be you hero baybeh..." by Enrique Iglesias!

Neo said...

hahah,u always noe when to use those lyrics from the song..lol.. yes you are baybeh :)