Life's Sick Lil' Games...

Well, let's see...the day hasn't ended yet, so I can't say for sure what i'm gonna do next, but so far, i've gone for tutorial classes for IT for Science and Technology, had my brunch...next, it's another tutorial class in Malaysian Politics and yada yada yada...

Well, yesterday's blabbing about entities of the paranormal kind must've been soooo different to what i always talk about, that is life's bore, happenings, ups and downs, but sometimes you sort of get a block in your head, that you have no choice but to write about things that don't necessarily go with your routine topics...vis-a-vis; yesterday's topic.

My friends are planning to have a par-tay on my country's independence day!!! I don't know what's the plan, but they say it's because I planned to have a party in my room...well, i'm one of the students who happen to be in a double-bedroom, but have no roomate...

When I jokingly told my friend that I plan to have a disco ball installed in my room ceiling, order a DJ for the night and have a mini-party, she thought I was serious! She went and told her friend, and now assumes that I have to organize this! WTF???

So I said to her, why don't we, on Merdeka night, go to Kajang and have Kajang Satay? Well, it's now a plan that is on KIV mode, alright? A plan is bound to change at anytime, right? Lol! The friends I choose...you can't help but be impressed or whacked-out by their craziness...that's what I like about my social instincts; I tend to look for like-minded peeps, and i'm sort of proud of that! Hehe...

Well, so much for wanting to write a shortie...I end up blabblin' the whole way through!

So long, bitches...toodlez!!!

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Some sort of paranormal entity has been harassing my sister in her room. She claims that some entity puts its entire weight on her as she is almost falling asleep...it has happened a few times, and the last time it happend, it freaked her out so much that she had to go sleep in our parent's room...AND she doesn't freak out too easily!

I've read somewhere that entities often send messages to us living beings when we're in the half-asleep/half-awake mode...You see, that's why i'm weird...I'm sort of fascinated by stuff like these! To top it off, my mom's sordid depiction of bad spirits are like those of horror movies. I find that entities such as the ones I read or hear about (the real life ones) are normal...BUT that's what I think!

You can't be certain for sure that there's no intent of harming coz, hey, you can't really talk to them if you don't have "the gift", right? It seems those born with a 'veil' can see and talk to these entities. However, sometimes, it's not so much an entity as it is your negative energy channeled into a unique type of entity that becomes a power by itself...or so i've seen in documentary-like shows about hauntings! Well, i'd rather be without the gift, thanks!

Well, I don't know what the hell it is in my sister's room, but she has gotten sudden black and blue bruises here and there once in a while, as stuff like these happens to her periodically. Maybe the entity likes her? Lol, oh man, that was mean! Malaysians believe that a sudden blue-black mark reveals that a being has "pinched" you! See what I mean? Haha...

Well, all in all, no one can say for sure what it is, hence the term paranormal mysteries! But, i'm sort of fascinated by these things...my mom asked us to recite the Holy Rosary to 'bless' our home, but I think God and our guardian angels are watching over us, so, no worries.

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• I get to start doing my work projects ASAP
• I get to start doing my university tasks ASAP
• I get to go home on Thursday
• I get my PTPTN loan credited into my account by this week
• I understand everything that's being taught during lectures (so far, so good!)

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My 2-month old sister has given me surprises after surprises! OMG, she's growing so very fast, you have no idea...

I mean, can a 2-month old carry its own head already? I think not! And she was doing this since she was a little more than a month old...AMAZING!

She likes sleeping on her belly, and that's when she'll carry up her little head and look around, like a little turtle...she's so adorable.

I made a huge mistake by volunteering to let Mom and Dad sleep for the first time in a long time...I volunteered to look after little A.J. for the night...Big mistake! She kept me awake for the whole duration, bawling, and screaming the whole time. It's amazing that her whole likeness changes from day time to night time...

It's like Jekyll and Hyde, I tell ya! Around 6 am, the girl finally slept...from 12am-5.59, her so-called 'sleep' would be a mere 5 minutes, and mine would be the same...at 6, she slept like a log, and I fell on the sofa, till Dad woke me around 8am to go sleep on my bed.

The babe's a challenge, dudes! My Mom and Dad understood how it all was. Imagine doing that since she was born! I have a new respect for them, but I wasn't going to back down! I promised, every time I came back from university, it would automatically be my turn to care for the babe. They said they slept well for the first time, and that made me want to do it again even more...

C'mon, you gotta pity your parents, right? I've also earned a new respect from my other younger sis, as she couldn't even take care of the baby for even a few hours...Lol!

Coming back to the uni the other day, I felt so sad...with a heavy heart, I left my home. I hate it when times like these come to get me...I hate leaving my family for life in campus...it's so different, coz they're a part of me...but, I have no choice...sigh!

Days past, and I find myself getting used to scenarios like these...it's getting routine...so it seems normal. I'm happy for this!

My sign in the horoscope is one that loves stability, and hates changes...it is a hardworker, determined and ambitious, loves the good life, materialistic...I guess that sounds like me! I do hate changes, but I find that I adapt to change...and that's a good thing, I guess!

Hope all else goes well for moi! 'Til the next post...

Toodlez, bitches!

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Yes, it's true...I can't go home this Thursday...damnit!!!

I have activities to attend, meetings, tutorials...shit, dudes! Why did I have to join so many frickin' activities? Why in the world do I feel that I have to do everything? It only brings me hardship and annoyances in the end.

The lectures here are quite okay...not bad, really! So far, that is...I kinda wished that I was more busy on the weekdays, rather than the weekends, though...but what can I do?

I keep waiting for my laptop to come by, but to no avail...i'll just have to keep waiting!

Cute guys? NONE still!

Food? I've had it with chicken! Yucks to the core...i've been eating that fowl for the past week...where's the beef? Or lamb? Or seafood? Well, today, I ate some noodles, w/out any meat...NICE!

So, for now, i'm just hangin' out till my next task calls me...

'Til next time, toodlez, bitches!

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So far, i'm slowly getting used to doing my own stuff, balancing my schedule, going back home, getting back to university before classes start, eating, sleeping, drinking, blablabla...

I'm actually here at the CC (Cyber Cafe) coz i've nothing to do for the whole day...i'm almost kinda bored...I find that I get bored rather too easily, and i'm sick of this attitude...I don't even think what i'm blogging about makes any sense...does it?

Activities? They usually start after the 3rd week...

Outings? Not so soon, as everybody's busy....

What else can I say...life here? Well, there's two sides of me here; the first side is me being all social with my mates, smiling, laughing, etc...the second side of me is the solitary-lover...When I get back to my room, the only thing with me is my MP3 player, my phone, and myself...I don't like to hangout with anyone within my block, coz there's just some weird feeling you get when you hang with certain types of people...or in my case, there's no "click factor".

You know, there's some people who you just don't feel comfortable with...the thing is, for me...I DON'T hangout with someone if I can't "click" with them, get it? It's not dislike, not hatred...just...disinterest or pure pathy. I just don't care for them. I know, that's mean, but what can you do?

But hey, that's just me!

The shuttle services here are so-called scheduled, but c'mon, you can't be that naive, right? 20- minute intervals become 40-45 minutes of anxious students during the rush hour...but you kinda get used to these kinds of things.

The desktop PC i'm using has the suckiest keyboard in the world...I have to key in extra hard to type out words...bleagh!!!

OK, gtg now...

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Please don't tell me everytime I want to login to my web stuff, i'll have to wait for hours!!!

Life here in campus ain't so bad, though...i've made a few friends, and lost a few, since we don't hangout as much...

I miss my family like hell!!! And I can't wait to get back on Thursday, hangout with my bestest best friend to watch you-know-what; the all-grown-up wizard with the unusually bushy brows, and a weird fetish for horses...LOL!!!

I feel so isolated in this uni, though...I just don't get living outside of the city...I can't imagine some people settling for solitary lives in rural areas, but hey...different strokes, eh? I respect that!

Cute guys, you say? NIL...absolute zero...but i'm not looking! (Yeah, right...)

People just can't comprehend that i've never had a boyfriend...I sure could...i've been alone all this while and good at it to let some guy come spoil it all---independence, baby!!!

Every night, i'm gonna gather up some gals to go hangout at the hawker stalls provided here...yeehaw!

Then, one of my friends had to tell me about hauntings in the girls' dorm...and she fuckin' knew that I was all alone in my room; no roomate! But, you know...I always pray, and I have a strong heart, so, although I act all scared and stuff, I know there's always something there to protect me...you know, GOD!

So that's all for now...the only reason I was up to blogging today was because my Sony Walkman was running out of battery, and needs to be recharged...well, it looks as if it's full now, so buhbye!!!

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So, how has everybody been doing so far?

Gosh, i've never had a more hectic+exciting+excruciating+adrenaline-pumping week, ever!

I'm back home for the day, and i'll be going back tomorrow morning, as lecture starts in the afternoon. Yay, I don't have to wear formal attire for lectures! But let's get down to the deets of the past orientation week!

I had my doubts about the "no ragging policy", believe me! However, I was pleasantly surprised at the rate the facilitators of the program, a.k.a. the seniors took to care for us newbies...

They really really took care of us, without getting anything in return...except, gaining our respect, for they had everything planned to fit the whole agenda.

So, this uni has 12 different hostels, which are called colleges (weird, huh?). I'm placed in one of the top ones...lol! The first day of orientation week, which is called 'Minggu Mesra Mahasiswa/i', or "Scholars' Week of Pleasantry" (or something of that sort! Sorry, no time for proper translation...)

We were taught all sorts of traditions practised on the first day...and believe it or not, I fell in love with my college...geez, for everything to do with my college, me and my fellow college mates clapped and cheered and sang our college songs, booed at other colleges, had all sorts of fun, till our seniors had to shed tears of joy, seeing how we were so enthusiastic...

I got sick on one of those 7 days, but I decided to call in a little late to attend a lecture...so they sent two seniors to take me there...what nice people!

The only thing I hate is that, being overzealous, I became 3 tones darker...FUCK! We had sports activities on one of the days, so we had aerobics in the morning...that made me one tone darker...THEN, we had to run for 5km in the blazing sun, and I, being the overzealous bitch that I am, had to go all the way...and ended up getting super-duper sunburnt!

Then, I had to walk for more than 2km to get to some places, and got sunburnt even more, even while wearing a cap! If I wear a plunging neckline, you could see a big difference...gosh, I look weird! I'm okay with being dark, but when there is a difference between your face and neck with your chest, it can be embarrasing...parts of my face have different tones now!!! Geez, i'll have to wait for...I dunno, a few months till it gets back to normal?

Another thing, the freakin' campus is soooooo gargantuan, we have shuttle services to get everywhere...

What else? My credits taken for the first semester...only 15! I have three days of lectures...and on Saturdays, I have to get to the Students' Club, which i've taken as a credit (it's compulsory to take co-curricular activity as a credit)...

I've joined a few sports clubs, which goes through elimination, so I picked more than one, just in case I suck at one of them (or two!)...I picked:

• Tennis
• Golf
• Tenpin Bowling

Challenging? Bring it on, bitches!!!

Plus, my uni has all the facilities you could ever ask for...imagine...a golf resort, bowling alley, olympic-sized swimming pool, tracks, fields, squash court, tennis court, hospital, huge-ass library...etc!

OMG, I gotta go now, more details in the next post! More, more, more! For now, i'm happy to be home with my family...missed them soooo much! Baby is so big now, even after just a week!

P.S. : My cellphone network sucks at the university's vicinity! Shit!

Bye!!!

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A new day begins tomorrow...

For very different reasons...i'm leaving my family for university life...OMG, it's just gonna be a week. However, my mom is urging me to stay on the campus for the whole year. She says it's impractical to travel daily, i would be spending a lot of money just on transport...so now, i'm thinking...

Well, it will depend on this 1 week period...I really am hoping to make tons of friends! I know it's not difficult making friends, but I just want the right kinda friends, you know? I'm kinda choosy...

Everything's been paid for...settled...PTPTN has approved my loan, although it took forever to "process"!!! I still can't seem to find my offer letter...sigh, same old, same old PTPTN!

My bosses took me out to lunch yesterday...they were super nice! My main boss says he'll get me a laptop to continue doing subtitles for the company...What!!! I said "OMG, that's great...pocket money!!!" Then, he laughed and said, "Yeah, your work for us is not over yet! At least you'll make pocket money while studying"

When I jokingly asked, "So the laptop is my parting gift, eh?", to which he replied nonchalantly, "Yeah, sure!"

What disbelief!!! It's gonna be mine? Not just borrowed, u mean all mine, with all the great audio/visual softwares and converters??? OMGOMGOMG, yay!!!

Since Boss is a friend of my parents, he spoke to them on the phone, (Haha, they told me!) telling them he would miss me...he calls me his niece. Of course, since I call of of them 'Uncle so-and-so' weird, huh? Lol! I mean, all those guys there are the nicest bunch! The Macguyver of the company said g'bye to me...I mean, he's the shyest person ever! I thanked him for teaching me all the stuff on templates, converting, photoshop stuff, subtitling, etc...

Oh, man, only now have I realized how much i've learnt! At the moment i'd cleaned out all my stuff, gave the keys to my boss, said goodbye, it felt a little bittersweet! Another boss gave me a Levi's sling bag...not really beautiful, but thoughtfull nonetheless!!!

I dunno what the new journey is gonna bring, but I adapt to new things quite easily...

One thing's for sure, i'll miss everyone at home!!! Even if I stay there for the year, i'll still be back on the weekends, right?

Goodbye old life, hello new experiences!!!

"Thank you God for the good people i've met in my life...You always take care of me, no matter how hard life can be sometimes...

Amen!"

P.S. : Will try to blog after orientation week! This is soooooo not over!

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Oh my God!!!

I'm gonna be a student all over again, but this time, i'm officially a varsity student! I'm so looking forward to this...

My whole week has been hectic! Had to rush here and there to open a new bank account, apply for a student loan, fill-in tons of forms, yada yada yada...

I can't do the physical examination before registering, as i'm very busy finishing all the video editing...you know, coz I don't wanna leave work without finishing my tasks...i've got good work ethics, you know?

This Sunday morning, I would be registering (and i'm hopeful that my dad eventually comes up with around 60% of the registration fees, coz I only can pay a little bit with my own money!), and will stay at the student quarters for a week...this stay is for my orientation and all that.

I have been sent a letter assuring me that ragging will not be permitted at UKM, but i'm bracing myself for the worst...

I wonder if i'll make friends or not, coz I sure need friends in a new place like this! This would be considered my second home for 3 years!

I've made a decision to NOT stay at the student quarters (some of my friends insist that 1st year students HAVE to stay there!) if I had a choice, as my home is only half an hour away...BUT...if it is compulsory to stay there, I will, for sure...the only thing is, i'll be missing my family and TV fix...but I know i'll manage.Perhaps it'll be fun!

Only time will tell what happens...but till that time comes, i'll take things slow, hope for the best, and expect to come out a winner...

Thank God for my strength!!! It's all good...

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I am going...going to university...I can't believe it!

I got accepted into UKM, Malaysia's current 'it' public university, having surpassed, the 'Harvard' of Malaysia, UM...so, does that make UKM today's 'Harvard' of Malaysia? ...hehe!

I was supposed to put 8 choices in my course and uni selection...I only had two in my mind. UKM was NOT included, as I thought I wouldn't stand a chance...since I had to pick four as the minimum, I chose UKM's International Relations as my almost-random 3rd choice...I've been to the faculty i'm interested in...it's kinda funky in an old kinda way...It looked old+ugly-assed! Lol...but i'm grateful to God! Mom keeps scolding me for being too superficial! Quite true...lol!

I credit HIM (duh, God!) because this was HIS plan all along; get me all confused about things for a while, let me consider private colleges and discover I haven't got the money for all that shit...then ask HIM for guidance...

Then, HE goes around and gives me this; BA of Social Science w/h Honors in International Relations, buddie!!! The right course for those wanting to be in the Diplomatic Corps., multinational corporate companies, political think-tanks...etc...Yeah, baby, just what I wanted, but gave up coz I thought I didn't have a chance in this country coz-you-know-why...but now, I sure as hell am gonna try!!! Bring it on, bitches!!! Heeeere's Johnny!

Can you believe it? MYR 7,000.00 with a 3.5% interest to be paid for around 20 years? It is a big deal that I don't have to spend soooo much on my higher education...the gov subsidizes around MYR 20,000++ for my education!

If i'd gone to Taylors or Monash, I would've spent almost a 100K for everything, including books, and other shitty-assed fees! Now that would be alright if I was a rich girl...but i'm not!

My parents told me they were proud of me! I was so happy to hear that!

God has truly blessed me, and for that, i'm thankful!

Oh, and my boss asked me to work part-time, subtitling movies, and he said he'll get me a laptop to work on the movies...Yay!!! A l'il money on the side...Lol! And he said he'll write me a recommendation letter...but that's coz I asked, yo!

What else? Oh, i'm scared of the imminent ragging i'm about to receive...that's if ragging still goes on out there...I heard it is...Shit-Damn-Fuck!

Other than that, everyone's great...baby is great, sister was late, so, since I was awake making my brekkie, I volunteered to send her...in the nick of time, she reached her school w/o being tardy.

Ummm, that's about it, I guess! I love my blog!

See ya!

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No, hell hasn't frozen over...

Just that i'm in an anxious mood right now. It's the moment of truth...my future, my imminent present...which university or college shall I be selected for?

I must admit, throughout the months after high school, or what i'd call the 'waiting period', i've had a few dilemmas...i didn't want to be selected into a government university...although that's what thousands of Malaysian students are fighting for...

I'd lost faith in the government, and opted not to work for the Foreign Service due to the preferential treatment of a certain race...and instead started dreams of working in the media, journalism, PR, writing, etc...

I didn't save money throughout my working period due to expenses, and the new sister needs some stuff...which I offered to purchase instead of my parents...now, i'll have to ask them for money when I start my studies...shit!

I was contemplating which college I would go for...a Plan B in case I wasn't selected! Boy, what a cynic i've become! I hate that i'm such a pessimist...it all stems from constant disappointments in my life; when I hold out for something, it turns out differently. I don't even believe in falling in love anymore!

I'm happy with my family, but...i've never seen any of my friends for a long time, and I miss them so much! These friend are but a few, but they're the ones i'd keep forever! (Sure, I do have a lot of friends, but they're not the BFFs i'm referring to...)

And now, I shall change for the better...a better daughter, a better student, a better friend, a better human being! Lastly, may I regain the bubbly personality, the belief in romance, in good, sincere people, in optimism...without seeming too philosophical about the simple things in life!

Good luck, me!

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Well, seeing that the place I work for is a production company, it would be making a drama catered for TV.

Now I, for certain, do not watch our local TV shows coz, they suck (sorry)! Sometimes or rather most of the time, the actors can't act for nuts....always the same bloody expression on their not-really-made-for-TV-faces (sorry!)...

However, at least I would be watching how and what the bosses here are doing to produce something. That's what i'll learn from this job I have!

So far, i've made the layout of proposed cast and wardrobe stylings for the characters. Though, I wish I could stay longer JUST to see the show in the process of shooting and such, as this is just the early stage of production.

But, you know something? I'd rather go to college! Hehe...

I guess if the whole plan of joining the foreign service don't work out, I will probably join the media circuit, PR, writer, or something of that sort...it's also kinda nice to be a scriptwriter...in Hollywood, not here!

Honestly, there are a few movies that could offer some sort of competition with the foreign flicks...however, they're like a needle in a hay stack. Even most commercials suck in the idea bank! This one local ad for a beauty product gave out the message that a guy won't even look at a girl when she's dark-skinned, but wow...after she uses the product, she gets fairer-looking, and wham! The frickin idiot-guy asks her out? WTF?

BLATANT SEXISM AND PREJUDICE AGAINST DARK-SKINNED WOMEN, ASSHOLES!!!

These are the stupid ads they show on Malaysian TV! That ad had the women scorned was was pulled-out as soon as it aired (yeah, only after a lot complaints and write-ups in the papers!)...but God forbid, kissing scenes! The censor board must cut 'em out!

I want better Malaysian shows, movies, actors, music, commercials, literature...just be original, people!!! IMO, our counterparts, Indonesia and the Philippines, though economically not so OK like ours, they fare better in entertainment...and don't even get me started on Japan and South Korea...I mean, wow! They have their own everything, man!

We should all strive to do better for ourselves here, coz we sure as hell can do it if we really want!!! The problem is, there are no Tarantinos, Scorceses, Coppolas, etc here in Malaysia! And if there were peeps like them, who knows how far we'd go!

Meh, maybe i'm being too harsh...but then again, maybe not!

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Let's me just run my hands on the keyboard and see where it leads me...

Arrgh, let's just reintroduce myself to the world!

Hi...my name is (insert what you think my name is here!)! I am 20-years old, and was born and raised in Malaysia...i'll probably be here until I get enough dough to go around the world...it would just seem impossible to do that now. I have a great family, my mom, dad, younger sister, and not until 3-weeks ago, another sister.

I am of a weird pot of heritage mix; Sinhalese on dad's side, and Filipino-Spanish on mom' side...though, the Spanish part is only minimal...the thing I like most about being a 'hybrid' of mixed ancestry is that I can fool people into thinking i'm a Latina, Indian, Native American, Malay, Hawaiian, Filipino, etc...that's kinda cool!

The thing I hate is, weird strangers asking me my race...WEIRD! I also hate that my dad knows nothing of his native tongue, culture and family in Sri Lanka...it's like his whole history was sucked into a black hole! My mom however, is full of info, which I like! I can understand Tagalog, but can't speak it...I've tried, but I sound too weird, it's embarassing!

So, my mother tongue can be considered the English language...I know for a fact i'm good at it! My Bahasa Malaysia is also great! (Boy am I blowing my own horn, fo' shizzle!)

I've just finished my high school education, and am now awaiting college...

I've never had a boyfriend, but i've had quite many suitors...

I'm waiting for the right guy...but in my mind, I know i'll never find him because of my stupid ideals and too-high standards!

I keep saying I don't look good, when in truth, I do...BUT then, when I start having the confidence, my weight goes up, and I feel fugly...and so, the cycle repeats...

I can cook...and bake...pretty well!

I love Greek Mythology...those were some sickos, I mean, really!

I have many good friends, but I don't make the effort to sustain the friendship.

I love good-looking men...I ain't gonna lie! I want my eye candy every day!

I am only 5' 2...but my rationale is i'll always look young! Even now, people think my super-tall sister is older...but maybe it's because she's tall...D'oh!

Speaking of 'D'oh!' I love the Simpsons...

I love watching TV...

I never make promises I can't keep...

I have a knack for reading people's characteristics through their faces...and it turns out to be true.

I am a great listener and talker!

I am a dreamer...a BIG one!

I am stubborn as hell!

I am very very very opinionated.

I have a small head...and small ears...but i'm smart! Hehe...

I pack up muscles pretty quickly if I lift weights...

I hate holier-than-thou people!!! They preach BS that you didn't ask in the first place!

I hate emo bands...they're soooo NOT rock!

I love classic rock, but I also like RnB, Jazz, Oldies...and Classical music...but the last one's a secret!

In the next post, there'll be more of this! Who thought writing about me would be so easy?

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I just found out I won 4 movie tickets, yo!

Wow...my dad said, i'm a pretty good contestant in the stuff I join!

I say, it's pure luck! Maybe God has pity for me...you know, no boyfriend, always working without ever going out with friends...movie tickets ain't that big a deal, but you know, so far, i've won a bunch of stuff, and i'm happy with it!

Now, if I could only win Milo Ventimiglia and a scholarship to any Ivy League University, i'd be set for life!.............BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA, like as if!!!


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WARNING: EMO POST AHEAD...

I just hope that my dreams and ideals come true. I may have ideals, but i'm pretty realistic too! I know romance is just life imitating art, and it just wouldn't last after a few months together, unless you make the effort! Pretty soon, you get in the comfort zone, and you find yourself flossing your teeth in front of each other...but maybe, just maybe, that is what I need...Comfort (with someone)! Never felt that before...

A companion to go through life with me, experience the ups and downs with me, and we end up supporting each other...then, as far as you go, you find that you can't live without each other...that's how realistic I am.

Then my friends ask me to lower my standards...why should I? I have always had high hopes for love, life and ambition...I just can't seem to settle for less, and I don't know why! Is it wrong? Oh, man...

I was always confident in my future, and knew that my plans would follow through...now I find that life just isn't that way...you plan, and you plan, and you CERTAINLY DO plan, then what happens? Life takes a detour...takes a 180 degree turn! That's what's beginning to happen, study-wise. When i'm confident about something, the outcome would just disappoint me...


P.S.: Wow, from a chirpy-happy post, to an emo post...BIPOLAR ALERT!!!

P.P.S.: Well, at least I don't dress like an emo, or fancy the same music as them...eeewww!

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YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

At least, now I have SOME money, even if it's a pittance...

Movies, here I come!!! Wanna join in? Lol!

Toodlez!

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Lately, that is! Man, these past few weeks, i've been dead broke...then, I go and watch the E! Channel, and they go on and show Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen's billion-dollar net worth!!!

Dude...

Okay, the current phase i'm going through right this minute is pure apathy towards my further education...why? Because any of my university offers would be the ones i've picked-out beforehand...political science and communication...so if I get any of my choice, i'll accept it! If I don't, last resort would be Taylor's College (BA in Communication).

So, there you go!

Haven't gone anywhere other than work, because of the "no money" problem! So no current news on my social life! Man, I can't wait to start studying again! As much as I hate the pressure to do good, I still love it; the experiences are all that I will remember the rest of my life.

In high school, i've seen the best and the worst of things...

• I've skipped school to go out with friends
• I've played in a few sports
• I've entered a few competitions, in which i've emerged victorious, and also accepted defeat...
• I've experience guys trying to get my attention, but failed!
• I've experienced watching a friend I have so much respect for now dying
• I've experienced attending VIP galas with mom's connections
• Watching awesome piano recitals
• Working as a Food & Beverage hostess
• Being hit on by old, fugly guys who think they are all that, but---
• Also being hit on by cute guys, and rejecting them for God-knows-why (that's my issue i'm tryin' to deal with!)
• Working here at a production company, awaiting freshman year!

There's much more actually! Now I can see that i've indeed experienced a few things...but not what i've been expecting. I'm 20 now, and hope to experience the things I want to.

May it be so...

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Who dat?

Let me start from the beginning...

Yesterday...as usual, I took the bus, which meant that I had to walk very very far to get home, as the nearest stop is around 3-4 kilometres away. I didn't mind that...in fact, I loved walking!

Now, that wasn't the problem. The problem was, some motherfucker tried to snatch my freakin' handbag!!!

He was on his motorcycle. I was facing the traffic, so I could see "any villains" who even try to do anything to me! Meanwhile, this motherfucking asshole came from the back, as the place had no people, no cars...(as it was raining...)

He tried...boy, did he try! Alas, he didn't get my bag, as it was hooked on my "manly" arms (remeber previous post? Lol!)

But, what if I fell and hit my head on the pavement, like all the other snatch cases, huh? I got his plate number, but it was useless...I went to the police station with my dad, hoping that the number would at least save other lives...after checking it out, they discovered it belonged to a Pajero!

WTF? A truck? Then, they explain that thefts like these are all the norm, and they can't do anything...they said I was lucky nothing got stolen. I said, I was lucky to be alive...and indeed I was! There are so many cases like this where the people die of a coma or head trauma coz they got dragged or they hit the pavement. Although I love my stuff (mp3 player), I would let go of it if it meant my life...

So? What do I do now?

I'm gonna thank God, and my guardian angel for having been protected from this jerkoff...and pray that he gets caught so that others won't get hurt, or worse...

And you know what else? The day before, my mom warned me to give up my belongings in case a snatch thief tries to take it...in my head, I was thinking "Great, tomorrow, something like that is gonna happen!"...and what do you know? That happened!!! Sigh, I knew I was psychic! Lol...

I made a joke that the thief lost to a girl...what a stupid thief to work alone...a stupid thief who fucked-up/botched his job...AND my dad scolded me of making light of the situation. I mean, what else can I do, right? I thank God, then I make fun of it, coz that's how I handle things...with humor!

My arm is now black and blue from the bag-pulling force...

BTW, my lovely bag got hurt...reeeeeal bad!!!

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What's up, you ask?

Sometimes I don't even know how the hell i'd answer that question. Life can get so hectic, busy, great atone particular moment, and then...it'll be one stagnant routine of nothingness! That's what's happening now!

My work has taken a rest, as the key programmer is arranging vids and shit like that. Meanwhile, i'd have to wait for the finished results to go on with my work...and so, I wait!

My social life is still blah...still single and available, still idealizing that i'd meet a hot TV character (Peter, Denny, Mohinder, Isaac...), and we'll have a great life together! :'(

Arrrgh, I think I have bipolar disorder!!! One minute, i'm on top of the world, and the next...i'm pissed at the world for letting me be trapped in dull loneliness!

I can't go out and do something, as I need something to do things, right? You can't be broke, alone and expect to have fun here and there, go on shopping sprees, hangout with friends...

Guess, i'll have to wait for something good to come!

Arrrggghhh!!!!!!!!

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Whoa, it has been a long time since my last post!

What can I say, i've been busy...finally passed the slope test on my second try! Yes, right on the yellow line, lol! Without further money-wasting classes since the last test I took! The slopes are merely luck, in my opinion...plus, the cars they use are fuckin' unmaintained, yo! WTF? The gear won't budge, the clutch won't work, but thank God, I can finally have a driver's license...I passed the driving test the first time, so...

**A FLASHBACK...**

While mom was in the hospital, and dad was outstation, I took my sister for a ride in mom's car...LOL! Hey, she asked me to! So, we went to the mall, went to the bank...

When mom asked how we managed to run errands, we say we walked...and give each other a knowing look! Hehe...

**THE PRESENT**

Baby is cute! So frickin' cute, everyone keeps hoggin' her! Aarrrghhh, they say i'm too rough on her, then they say I shouldn't carry her with my tough-guy arms! Then I say "Whaaaaa???"

Yes, peeps! After lifting 5lbs of dumbells a few times a week, my arms now look muscular, which is NOT what I was goin' for! I was goin' for toned arms, not muscular! FUCK...I look like Angela Basset in that Tina Turner movie...I must stop A.S.A.P.!

Other than that, I'm flat broke, coz I keep 'helping' my family with a few expenses...have to wait till my next paycheck till I can go watch Pirates and etc with my pals...hope mom and dad lets me take the car!

I'm fuckin' busy at work now...loads of videos to edit! I'm very happy about this!

College? I don't know where yet, but I have to wait till June to see where destiny takes me...Government university, or private college...

So, that's all for now! Stay tuned for the next post!

Toodlez, bitches!!!

(I'm kinda happy today...)

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