Life's Sick Lil' Games...

Well you know sometimes when a singer of a band has a gimmicky or rather 'out there' kinda look, it turns a person off...but after I put those kinds of things aside, i kinda like the band...who? what?

It's Tokio Hotel...your average German-rockers-turned-international sensation! Okok, i must admit it, Bill and Tom Kaulitz; the twins made me fascinated...and the initial song that brought me in was some song i saw in a video montage during a recent concert i attended...it was 'Automatic'...or 'Automatisch' in German...sound better in English, ahahaha!

As usual...my curiosity hit me, so i YouTubed the song and i heard the whole thing...so ok, i liked it! Then, i saw few related videos on the band and discovered they were soooo freakin' German! LOL, they can't even speak English without sounding like some German character out of The Simpsons...but yeah, i like their songs. The German ones, the English ones...both!

TH sounds like the LostProphets, with some Rammstein flavor (but of course, just the German factor...Rammstein is waaaaaaay too legendary to be compared to TH!)

Maybe it's a phase, but I like them and that's that...and even if Bill looks like a hot girl, it doesn't steer away from the concept of good music. I wouldn't say it's fantastic, but it certainly got my attention...



Hey, maybe gimmics DO work...if he dressed like your average Joe, i wouldn't have discovered them anyway! So here's to you...Tokio Hotel! Ich liebe dich...hahahahah!

Okok, I know they're an 'old' band...but it wouldn't hurt to gain a new fan, right? Below are the twins; Tom and Bill Kaulitz...by the looks of the videos on them, Tom is more guy-like, while Bill is ultra feminine in the way he talks and acts...funny, huh? Bill is so pretty!



TH, my new obsession...please come to Malaysia soon!

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I dunno what's more sick...the fact that i'm not studying or the fact that i haven't finished my TWO tasks? Wtf...

And here i am reading something TOTALLY UNRELATED to my studies...what, you might ask? No, it isn't on proper ways to speak French...No, it isn't on Major Powers...No, nothing about International Law...what I'm reading about is a thousand times irrelevant to what I should be searching for...can you guess?

Scientology...

...what the fuck, right? This always always always happen to me! I have short attention span, so no matter how hard I try, my mind will unwittingly stray from the main focus...I know-->this is dangerous, but what can I do? This is why, when i look into the future, I don't wanna end up doing something like office jobs from 9 to 5...I just don't think i have the ability to do the same things over and over again. Damn, what about other areas, then?

I'm so doomed! LMAO...this says something about many things, eh?

Alas, we'll see what happens...does ledzeppelin4evr succeeds in finishing all her assignments in the nick of time? Find out in the next post!

PS: I'm supposed to write about a vacation to a foreign land in French...I am writing about Italy. My imagination is running wild over here...and i think i'm on a caffeine high as well, having drunk 3 mugs in less than 6 hours...all this, and the fact that last minute task completion gives me an adrenaline rush...so i'm super-pumped! All the best to those who are doing their last minute studying and task completion...Godspeed!

Toodlez, bitches!

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It's been awhile since i talked about my adventures playing the guitar, but you know how it is...you pick it up, then you're too busy with uni and assignments and shit like that. Wish i had one in my college dorm so that i can just play when i'm freakin' over my head...but the next best thing is borrowing my sister's when i'm home...so she's like a play-by-ear kinda person (a-hole!), and i'm like a dumb person attempting to play...but it feels like an achievement when you play something that makes sense, you know? LOL...

So one small achievement is me plucking the intro for my most fave song by my most fave band...you guessed it; Led Zeppelin baby!!! Stairway to Heaven...i can't believe i could now play the fuckin intro by just playing around with the stings, hehehe! Kinda happy, but i guess that's all i have to show for it...oh, and yeah...i also tried to play the chords by ear...and i did, but i'm also missing some...so what else can i do but go to 'Ultimate Guitar Tabs' and refer to it...and you know what? My chords matches the ones online, so woohoo! One small step for me, one giant leap for...me i guess? Well, whatever...the most important thing is that i'm happy! Hahahaha, hope that i can play the whole song one day...it's a superawesome song! LOL...

Oh, and did I mention, i also can play the chorus for AC/DC's Highway to Hell, albeit rather slowly...but yeah...i did it myself...just for fun! You know, when you hear the song long enough, you just wanna play a certain part for fun, so i did! Hahahah, when i played the sis, and she laughed coz it's super random and "Whuh???"...LMAO! Guess it's kinda good when you learn to play chords first...makes things easier.

A few songs that which are super easy for beginners are Howie Day's Collide, Amos Lee's Colors, Green Day's Time of Your Life (Good Riddance), etc...but i've yet to master them...another song i'm studying is my other fave which is Tonic's If You Could Only See...I STILL suck though!

Too bad most of the songs i learn is unknown to most people!!! But hey, even if they did know, i would rather be caught dead than play in public, heheheh!

Well, i'm just one step closer to crossing another life task on my list! Next, is going to ******! Some rumors are swirling that we might get a chance...but i won't say it out just yet. Don't wanna jinx it!

By the way, good luckeroo to my besties (if they read this!) for the finals! Hmmmm, i can't imagine how our lives would become next year...we'd graduate, go our separate ways...it kinda makes me wanna go all emo and shit, but i won't let it...at least not just yet! :(

God bless us...everyone!

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What is life?
It is not a wasted soul,
It is not a loveless spirit,
It is not without a freedom that lies within - wanting, seeking, cherishing...

What is life without love?
What is life without crying?
What is life without laughing?
What is life without a need to fly away?

And so I live my life,
Searching for its means,
Searching for its worth,
Searching for its balance...

I am still alone,
I am still hidden,
I am still lost,
I am still searching...

I seek something to call home,
I search for a kindred spirit,
I search for somebody without haste,
I seek the ultimate time to find it.

One question lies within;
Will I ever find it,
This thing that makes life a gift?
Only God knows - I am as complex as one shouldn't be!

And though I haven't reached full circle,
What I search, seek, and hope to find...
An 'end' to call home,
So I can say I lived my life without waste.

What is life?
It is a soul full of peace,
It is a soul full of love,
It is a soul full of questions - answered.

What is life?
It is not wasted soul,
It is not a loveless spirit,
It is not without a freedom that lies within.


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I took it from my old notebook...I wrote it during my first semester in my 'new' surroundings; at my university...

I realized that I still want the same things...although circumstances may change me, the core 'wants' are the same.

I dunno, just kinda feeling sad coz as much as I want to remain a 'kid', I HAVE to grow up and go into the real world and find my ground...maybe separate from my friends and family in the long run, and that just plain sucks!

I hope and pray that I don't get caught up in work that I become one of those people who forget friends and family...

You can bet your ass that i'm gonna cry on my graduation day! I'm already counting the days till I say goodbye to student life (and I haven't even finished my assingments and thesis!)

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I just finished watching Life Is Beautiful, that Oscar-winning Italian movie that came out in the late '90s...and i've gotta say this...i cried like i've never cried before...for a damn movie!

OMG...the ending, especially, when the little boy was reunited with his mom...Roberto Benigni deserved his Oscar...and his wife on the movie is his wife in real-life too! She was good too, but the boy really stole her thunder, IMO...he wasn't just adorable, he was so right for the role and the boy can act very well, i might say!

It felt nice...the whole movie was amazing. Definitely adding it to my list of favorites!

Hey, it's never too late too watch a movie, no matter how old it is, right? At least i've unleashed years of not being able to shed a tear! What did it? A freakin' movie!

Well, at least it was an amazing movie...at least! Watch it...if you don't feel anything at all towards the end of the movie, you are full of shit!

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Sooooo, how now brown cow? It's been so long since i've blogged for real...all this has made me miss writing even more...

So i shall start by telling the story of our adventures in Sunway Lagoon's event -- Arthur's Day! I have to say, it was a mixture of good and bad experiences...

Firstly, we were running late! My 2-year-old sis was having a cold, so we had to rush in order to buy her meds at the pharmacy...then, we were off!

On the way, my sis passed a double toll-booth...in which she decided to pay at the second one ahead (as it displayed the green light), but...the 1st pole went down upon the car! OMFG! My sis and our friend were furious at the woman for such foolishness. At the same time, the woman was mad at my sis for not stopping! I, on the other hand was super stunned and remained quiet, coz secretly, i thought my sister should just STFU at the woman coz we were already running late, and after i checked the top of the car, no scratches or dents were found (thank God!)...but i so wanna forget that incident coz seriously...just plain "Ugggghhhh!!!"

Ok so after that, we all got into an argument about where to park, what if we were overdressed, what to eat, who should drive back, etc...

We had a hard time looking for parking, as it was extremely full! After finding a spot, the next thing was looking for the entrance! Then, it was a task of looking for the ticket booth! OMFG...and of course, my idiot of a sister had to stop for frequent smoking! Which was a total mood-killer! I hate it so freakin' much! I just hate it!!! It stuck to my hair and clothes the whole night!

After successfully redeeming our tickets, we went inside...it was a loooooong way! We reached on the location after a long way! Thank God i was wearing espadrilles, which were easy to walk in! Hahahaha, but some women stupidly wore stilettos...what were they thinking? It was a freakin' concert okay? LOL!

Upon reaching, there were some performances from locals and international artists...but of course, I was there to see the Black Eyed Peas, as were many other peeps. So while waiting, we sat around, tried some Guiness stout from the draft (which was good, i must say...not bitter, just smooth with a hint of smoky aftertaste...i liked it very much! But c'mon, VIP passes got you into free-flow area, which was a total buzz-killer for us who had to pay RM 100++ per ticket! So i just drank one glass! Those mothereffers!!!)

Then we chilled at the back, where there were little people...near the beach pool...two guys approached, hitting us with one-liners (which was so lame!), and before i could say "no thanks"...they asked if we had boyfriends...LOL! My sis smartly said, "Yes, ALL of us do!" One of those guys (foreigners), did a sort of flying-kiss action which kinda reminded me of those boyband gestures...OMG, hahahaha! I told this to my friends and they laughed their asses off! Now, it is one of our official gesture...seriously, lame! Guys, don't be tacky...for your own sake.

BEP came out...we pushed our way to the front! I reached a barrier...fuck! Couldn't see 'em, which made me super fucking pissed! Damn unfair!!! I settled for them on screen only, but those fuckin' peeps from VIP didn't even sing along or dance or even gave a hint of enjoyment! It was unfair to those who genuinely loved the band! Huh!!!

Okok i won't go to much detail, as it will be too long...so other than me drooling over Taboo's hotness...which i don't know, it's so sudden. Used to think he looked weird...but on that night, he looked hot wearing that wife-beater and his hair tied-up! He looked super fit too! Hahahaha, okok...shall stop now! Now, i wasn't the only one okay? Everytime he was on, all the girls would scream...so i wasn't the only one who thought he was hot! :P

After they finished, people were sorta bummed, coz they gave a great performance...save for the bad audio/visual which were quite below par! I mean, the event management could've done better! The fireworks, however (which ended the whole event) was a great display! Super fantastic!

And that was it...left out many other details, coz i'm too lazy!

An after-event meal was planned...so we thought of goin' to Asia Cafe...but, we got lost...majorly lost! Spent 1-and-a-half hours looking for the parking...we stupidly didn't record which wing we had parked in! Fuck! My feet hurt due to walking up and down! We even paid the parking ticket already, and we spent ALMOST two hours looking for our parking! Seriously, that was the ultimate breaking point for us...i even took off my shoes, as the place was closing, the elevators shut down, we had to walk barefoot! Not that there was anyone left in the complex! WTF...i saw others walking barefoot too, so why not...hahahah! Even up to this day, my ankle hurts coz i twisted it...pretty brutal!

Anyway, we finally found it! And we just chilled in the car...paid the extras for the parking, then headed for AC...we ate, we met someone of no significance to me (but to my sis...yes!)

Of course, the other mood-killer was my sis' stupid bf who kept calling very minute demanding to know who she was foolin' around with! OMFG, i seriously hate that he is a super-controlling, mentally-abusive, insecure piece of man...who, IMO doesn't deserve to be in a relationship...especially with my sis! What the hell can i do? He's in Russia nonetheless, and still manages to cry like a baby over the phone while begging my sis to admit that she's 'grinding' with other guys!

So in the end...was it disappointing or well-worth all my time? Well...i'll just say this: I loved only five things:

• The BEP performance,
  
• The fireworks,
  
• The stout,
  
• The hot eye candies
• The after-event supper!

Go figure...bittersweet, but sweet nonetheless!

Zoom to current events: I didn't realize it till i passed him...my friend told me that he was there. Turning around, I was him...OMG! My crush was still there...OMGOMGOMG! LOL, yeah...made my day...and he sat right in front of our table! A guy like him...must be taken or surrounded by girls everywhere he goes! But of course...that wouldn't change the fact that he's the nicest stranger i've ever met! :)

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Okay...freakin' out because of my fuckin' stacked-up pile of assignment!!! OMG...

I didn't even blog about my wonderfully bittersweet outing the other night, but yeah...i'll get to it right after i'm done...OMGOMGOMG!

Why the hell don't i do it early? Somehow, in some way, i do my work late, and finish just in the nick of time!

Now for the last time, i say...

OMGOMGOMG Ahhhhhhh!!! Help me God...

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Sometimes the weather is too weird you just wonder what's going on with the world...

Like today...take my word for it!

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It's been awhile since i've updated this blog, but i've been busy and a little lazy too! Well, it's the beginning of my Raya holidays, which is a week! And in this week, I'm probably gonna go visit a few friends' open house for Raya (which I love!!!) and then maybe we could swap stories after months if not years of not seeing each other...

And i'll be going to watch BEP and AAR...woohoo!!! AAR thanks to me and my sis and a friend buying DiGi's simcard and subscribing to their whatever MusicLive thingy...although, i used my mom's DiGi account due to my lack of finances!!! LOL! BEP is all mom...heck, i didn't think much of it, but when mom offered, and my sis said "YES!!!", i was inadvertently saying yes as well...hahahaha, so now i'm pretty fuckin' excited since i love BEP and the Rejects...but I will pay her for my ticket once my PTPTN gets credited in December!

At least i'm havin' some fun in my life...OMG, the rules of "The Secret"...i think it really works, coz I didn't know AAR was coming back here, and i wished with all the positive vibes, and there you have it; next thing I know, they're coming for DiGi's birthday bash and all that shit! And now, after redeeming my ticket, i'm like "Wow!"

But now comes the hard part...my mom is really adamant about migrating to that country...if only I could make her see that initial attraction could become a later regret...i mean, of course i complain about Malaysia, but to revoke my citizenship to become a Canadian? OMFG...

I knew my parents wanted to migrate when they were older, but now seems too soon! I mean, I haven't even graduated...but i'll support them 100% if they wanted to go on without me and my sister...they can bring the baby coz seriously, I think she would be better educated over there. But for me and my sis (the middle one), we need to stay here to live our lives, gain some experience...maybe later on, if we decide to work there, we'd join you guys...coz consider the damn cold weather, the lack of mamak stalls, the norm that is bland non-spicy food, and i think i'd die!

And dad is all quiet and actually considering the idea...and here i thought it was just an idea in passing that my mom concocted from talking to her relatives living over there...but when she sent me that email talking about the price for the lawyers and shit, i was thinking "OMG, she's fuckin' serious? ALL OF US???"

Then, talking to her, i asked her to not just jump into the bandwagon out of excitement...everything is unknown over there...yes, it would seem nice at first, but what about the pros and cons? What chance do I have over there? I don't wanna end up being a cleaner over there...what about my career? I can't go there as a freshie and expect to be in ANY sort of corporate ladder...

And there my mom goes again, pressuring me to join the M'sian Diplomatic Service or fail in this country... i mean wtf, right? My life is not to please everyone...sometimes i think, what's the point...whatever i choose, my mom would ALWAYS want me to be a damn freakin' ambassador/diplomat, even if i think that life would make me miserable (i presume, but i'm not sure!)

And there you have it...life's ups and downs in a nutshell...

Right now, i'm happy about the Raya and concerts, but i'm utterly shocked at the migrating bit...of course!!! Well, wouldn't YOU??? It's all so...sudden!!! We don't even have anything! We'd have to sell of everything we have here just to move there, and i'm in no shape of giving up all my chances in this country just yet! I love Malaysia, but i love my family more...

So if we were to make a compromise, I would say, you guys go ahead, gain your citizenship, and maybe i'd get PR status or something like that...but i'll just be here in Malaysia with my sis who also doesn't seem interested in this whole idea...maybe we would go back every Christmas or something like that...

Okok, i may be looking way too ahead...i mean, it's not even confirmed that you are going!!! But as usual, i think too much so now i'll STFU!

Toodlez!!!

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I can't believe i found it...and reading them over and over again makes me marvel at my own outlook on the subject...sometimes i'm cynical, sometimes i'm hopeful and optimistic, and sometimes just vacant...

It's all relative, i guess! And it all depends on how you feel at THAT moment...external factors, internal conflicts, movies (in my case...a lot of movies, LOL!) play a part in shaping my thoughts of poem-writing.

I notice that I don't write 'em anymore; since i lost my notebook. Wow, talk about brand loyalty! Hahahahah...maybe I should now, since it's here! Woot!

First thing's first--> DO THE FCUKIN' THESIS!!!

:P

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OMGOMGOMG...can't.feel.arms.

Seriously, i was drenched in my own sweat by the time i finished carrying everything, while my sis got wet in the rain...i'm thankful for the help though...really!

I just left my things in the new room...couldn't stay any longer coz we had to get back asap! Anyway, now i'm back and yeah...arms are so tight, raw, tired, etc!

But damn!!! It feels good! Isn't that nuts? Hahahaha...i'm lovin' it!

PS: Glad i moved...no regrets! Will be back by Monday to clean up. At least it's nearer to the cafe and bus stop...yay!

PPS: I wanna I wanna I wanna go see All-American Rejects...but i have to buy a new sim card from a different telco (which i used to own)...it's gone now, so i'd have to buy a brand new number...damn! Hope i get them tickets...let's buy 'em in bulk, y'all!!! Muahahahaha...

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The above pic has been a staple to me since Ramadhan started, and today...*Hallelujah!!!* I went and bought rice for dinner...i don't regret trying this Kimchi Ramen...it tastes great (to me), and it contains little pieces of Kimchi veggies...yum!!! No regrets...this is one of the reasons i try strange stuff. At least if it's bad, you don't buy it again, and if it's good...you know you'll want it again!

One of the reasons i don't buy proper meals anymore is coz:

1.The cafe doesn't serve food for non-Muslims during Ramadhan...whatever they serve are leftovers from the sahur our friends had in the morning...by the time lunch hour comes, it looks like dogfood!!! Yucks!!!

2.The cafe is so damn far from Block 12, i literally get too lazy...it's an uphill walk, and i'm a lazy person...so...go figure! I'm lazy...So there!

I took the liberty of applying for the new block, thanks to M's support...which means, i'll have to move for the 3rd time this semester! I don't really care for the moving, but i have to coz i hate that i'm never alone...my room is my private+comfort zone, and i love being alone after the whole day of mixing around with people...sometimes, you just need that alone time, right?

Besides, i hate having to put my radio alarm to waste...since having a roommate, i haven't listened to the radio coz i'm afraid i will seem too inconsiderate...she's nice, but i just can't live with another person.

And Block 12's communal bathroom? Filthy! The garbage bins are overloaded...the mozzies are on rampage...uggghhhh!!! Oh, did i mention that the vending machine swallowed all my money and didn't give it back? Fuck you, nasty machine!!! I want my drink, dickwad!!!

So i'll have to force Dad to bring his car to move my things, coz i sure can't do it myself like the last time...blocks 3 and 12 are too far apart...literally, both are at different corners! So i'm sorry, Dad, for this inconvenience! But i have to if i wanna have my privacy...besides, it'll be easy if friends come for slumber parties...i won't need to worry about my roomie and stuff like that!

The smell of the new room in Block 3? Like new! What do you expect from a newly-built block? Needs some getting use to...but i'll manage! The lady-in-charge said that we'll move back to Block 10 at the start of the next semester...GREAT...I can't wait!!! Miss my old room :'(

So again...i'll be carrying my stuff down the stairs...driving to the new block, bringing 'em up and down the stairs...again! Geez, at this rate, i BETTER be losing at least a few lbs...LOL!!!

Wish me luck!!!

Toodlez, bitches!

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Happy birthday, mother Malaysia (as one of my lecturer calls her)!!!

Malaysia, i love you despite all your shortcomings...and i hope and pray that:

1. You don't embarass us anymore with your petty politicking...ruining our credibility as a country which embraces differences in culture...calling each other names, derogatory slurs...all sick!!!

2. You stop banning concerts...c'mon, PAS Youth to ban MLTR? Geez, ridiculously stupid! What the hell is so 'bad' about MLTR? I almost peed in my pants when i found out about it...again: COME ON!!! BANNING MLTR??? IT'S LIKE BANNING YOUR GRANDMOTHER!

Why don't some holier-than-thou political parties (PAS Youth) just stop being the moral police and let the PEOPLE decide what is morally right or wrong for themselves, hmmm? If an individual breaks the Islamic law, they would be the ones facing God, not you...so what right do you have to enforce YOUR point of view and YOUR punishments upon them? YOU are NOT God! God gave us brains and free will to think for ourselves...and yes, people are just humans...WE make mistakes. So let us learn from them by ourselves...and be judged by God and NOT you!

I have so many "I-hope-this-doesn't-happen wish", but i'll save it for another day...the abovementioned ones are just what I think we need right now...I truly believe my country will progress if we can realize we are different, and yet accept and embrace it...without falling prey to propaganda set forth by our own politicians...

It took the US hundreds of years to have a black (or rather, half-black) President. Compared to that, Malaysia is just an itty-bitty-baby. So that's why our politicians are so immature!!!

We have hundreds of years to go before we could truly see a colorblind nation...that being said, I LOVE YOU MALAYSIA...MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

Peace and love to all...

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30th August...on this day 23 years ago, my parents got married...

We didn't go to a special lunch as my dad had originally planned...coz my mom felt lazy...so he bought a cake instead...her fave: Hazelnut Butterscotch something something from where else...it's not so "Secret" anymore where we get our cakes! ;)

I wouldn't call it my fave, but hey, it's for my mom to choose, right? I gave my parents the suggestion of "why don't you guys go out...just the two of you?", and i was met with my mom's WTF-face...wow, mom! Is it so icky to go out ALONE with your own husband? Geez...ok, so i made a mistake...who knew you hated dating your husband? We'll come along too!

But then, she changes her mind, and she asks dad to get a cake instead...so, her wish be done! And my sister and me? WE LOVE CAKE!!! Om nyom nyom!!! Muahahaha...



Yeah...i know it says "20th", but the lady in the shop made a mistake...and the sugar-angel on the 2nd pic, my dad bought just for the little girl aka "zee little devil"! The cake was just OK for me...you know i love Secret Recipe cheesecakes rather than the other varieties...but i still ate like a pig! Hahahah...

Tomorrow i'll have to borrow the car...to register to STAY in my current room...you know the whole "i'm gonna write a letter" shit? I don't even have the will anymore...i'll just accept that nothing will change...all i have to do is just suck it up, dust myself up...and stand tall to face REAL challenges, such as doing my thesis and assignments!!! In fact, i think i would write a letter complimenting the principal! XD I'm officially cooled-down, thanks to coming back home...it sorta chills me, and i'm glad for it!

Okok, now i'm bullshitting...please just disregard my emo post before this...i'm fed up of whining!!!

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I'm perfectly aware that life throws you curveballs once in a while, ESPECIALLY once you get too many good things at a time. I'm the type that anticipates bad things once i get many good experiences (that's why i believe in the whole 'life is a wheel' mantra!)...i know, i know...it's so dark, but it's real...i don't believe in things without reason.

Okok, so after all the 'good things' posts i've written, the bad was bound to happen right? I should have NOT been so naive as to think my happy moments would last, as it wouldn't be called LIFE-- which is a mixture of good and bad experiences!

Just this past week i had to move temporarily to a different block...and yesterday my friend told me that EVERYONE from my block is on an exodus...everyone had to evacuate block 10 because there's a crack in the pipes that could bring danger to the whole building. IMAGINE that! I'm kinda lucky coz i moved some of my stuff on Tuesday. Yesterday i made so many trips up and down block 10, walked with my stuff to block 12...again go up and down the stairs, into my new room! By the time i was done, i wanted to pass out. So tired, that i didn't have the will to make the journey back home.

My dad offered to fetch me once i sent a message saying "i'll be back the next morning"; literally making me jump for joy...and off i went without turning back! And my roomie wasn't in...so i left her a note...and apologized for not cleaning my side of the room...she replied that i'll be returning to a pigsty because she has soooooo many things...hahaha, i don't mind mess...it's just dirt and dust i hate! So bring on the clutter as long as there's no dust!!! Muahahaahah...

One person i pity is M...she is one of those who had to move to the newly-built block...the problem is she has things in block 10 AND block 12...and now she has to move to a new block (block 3)! WTF is wrong with the principal that he can't give her the current room she's living in right now? i wouldn't have minded moving to the new block too...but one thing they don't have is wi-fi! And the principal says that they're putting in Satellite TV aka ASTRO...but wtf, how is ASTRO important to a student? Are they gonna use it to complete an assignment? And out of the hundreds of student sharing ONE fuckin' TV, how could one possibly get to watch whatever the hell they want?

I know for a fact that i'm going to write a letter to the principal...and if he doesn't respond to my letter, i'm so going to write to every single newspaper in Malaysia! What an outrage!!! You disregard our complaints of blackouts on the 6th floor...it could've been a sign of the water tank above leaking, but you didn't listen, did you!

And when it exploded, you threatened the students not to go report it to any media...then, you don't even consider apologizing for any sort of inconvenience caused to us! Wtf, do you think we are robots or dogs, that we have no life outside staying here in this block where there's ALWAYS no water, no electricity? We always have to go to different blocks just to bathe, and always have blackouts (on my floor)! OMG...you could AT LEAST lessen our dorm fees for causing us inconvenience! I think this has grounds for a lawsuit ok??? So don't act all innocent...tanks need maintenance or replacement after 10 years or so!

You better be glad we're not dead...coz so far, it only takes someone to die for you to take action!

Anyway, 'nuff of me complaining here! I'm gonna do something about it! In the process of writing a letter to the management!

I'm one of those who could see the good in things...for this case, i'm just happy i ain't dead! Btw, the cough is getting better now...the voice, however is still like a rockstar! LOL...but i ain't complaining...

PS: This is no pity-post...just one of frustration for my college admin...they haven't been doing a good job, and i'm really fed up coz none of the so-called student committee is doin a good job! All just join for a good CV, but end up doin' nothing...sound familiar? These, my dears...are the future politicians of our already-downtrodden country! Where is our hero now?

Ciao, bitches!!!

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Hahaha, so i'm quoting Tracy Jordan from 30 Rock! I love it so much, i downloaded the full mp3!!! LOL...it's old, but i still think it's funny. "Werewolf bar mitzvah, spooky scary...boys becoming men, men becoming wolves!" XD

Other than that, my cough is now less frequent, but still painful. My sore throat has made my voice into a full-blown rocker...that means with a rocker voice, not the whole 'sex, drugs and rock-and-roll' thing! Hahaha!

And yes, i'm lazing around despite the fact that i have assignments piling up like hell...and although i had no plans for today, i still had the audacity to watch a movie online while reading useless online junk!!! What the hell is wrong with me...arrrrggghhh!!!

One another note, i hate it when some people on certain social networks "WrItE LiK3 DiS! iT's So FuCkin AnNoYinG!!!" and don't get me started on the online baby talk...OMG!

That's all for now...just writing a short one for today...see ya, bitches!!! LOL!

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I wanted to put Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events as my post title, but it seemed too whiny...but the current title is no different! LOL...So, here's a series of MY unfortunate events...enjoy!!!

10.30pm: Monday night...got a message saying there's a French quiz the very next day...damn
bloody unexpected...i was watching a movie, then dozed-off halfway through...'bout
12 am. Damn, i thought after the movie i would study!!!

3.00am: Woke up...I look out my window, and the stars are bright, the sky so clear...i felt
alright and at peace, as the air was cool and i feel the breeze through my window...

3.20am: I hear an explosion, then feel tremors...at that very moment i think, "could this
be an earthquake???"...right after the *BOOM*+tremors, i hear water...like a
heavy downpour! It can't be raining, coz i just saw the clear night's sky...

3.25am: The fire alarm rings for a few seconds...i quickly get out to see what the hell was
happening...saw water flowing towards the rooms, but it didn't reach into the rooms,
as we we're on the 6th level--> of course, the water would flow down...

3.50am: Next, the 'fellow of the block' tells all of us to get our valuable stuff and head towards
the cafe...immediately!

4.10am: Waiting at the cafe, they tell us what happened; the tank exploded into 2! And one of
the rooms on my floor was caved-in by the ceiling...the fan fell, and the poor girl's
laptop and other stuff were destroyed by all the pouring water...her ceiling was
weakened by the water, and that made the ceiling fall...omg, thank goodness she's
alright. The water filled her room in an instant. Shit, it could've been anyone of us...

We couldn't go back, coz of the electricity gone wild...had to stay from 4-7 something
in the morning, and were attacked by numerous bugs...

7.30 am: Then i was told that i couldn't stay in my room coz my floor was a "danger
zone...shit! And they ask us from the 6th floor to move to another block for
now...temporarily. I had to move every important thing to the other block,
which was quite far...i had to make around 3 trips...with heavy loads...fuck!

9.00am: By the time i brought everything and cleaned everything...i was tired as fuck! And we
still had to take our French quiz...and how could we make it? We had yet a lot to do!
So we called the lecturer and lucky for us, he understood our (M and me)
predicament and allowed us to get in late...so, today we made 2/4 hours of French
lessons...what a pity! We missed a lot by not attending the first two hours!!!

2.30pm: Not feeling well...started coughing on Monday, and my chest is in pain when i cough!
Now coming down with the flu, i think! A fever is coming...so i take a couple of
Paracetamols and go to sleep!!!

5.00pm: I wake up and the fever's gone, thank God! However, the cough is still so intense that
my chest hurts *uggghhh*

6.00pm: M comes to my room...she moved to the same block as me...she's shit-scared she
might get electrocuted, so she requested for a room...and she's now in my room coz
she got locked out of her current room...poor thing, even her old-room key is in
there! Did all i could to help...but without success...yeah, she had a bad day...maybe
worse!

Extras:New temporary roomie introduces herself...she left me a note when i got back from
class...how cute! I was kinda surprised that i had one! She's ok...kinda shy and quiet...and
i'm guarded (at first!), so we're both quiet...hahaha, we don't talk unless i initiate the
conversation...and M is the one doing most of the talking, so i just seem distant, but you
all know how i am if i don't know you, right?
I must say though...she is nice and thoughtful! Hope it goes smoothly...it's just a week,
right? But the amount of stuff i brought from the other room is as if i'm staying here for a
month! LOL!

So there...a chronology of a bad day! I'm not kidding...today is not a good day for many people...everywhere, i hear of unfortunate events happening! Just for today! I reiterate: Tuesday, 25th August 2009..is a bad day!!!

Toodlez, bitches!!!

PS: By the time i publish this, it'll be Wednesday...just pretend it's still Tuesday, ok? ;)

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In a blink of an eye, your life you once knew could be taken away...

I get shivers thinking about ethnic conflicts possibly happening in my country...and what i would do if it ever happened? What would YOU do? I'm sure the first thing you'll think about is to save your family, right? Ughhhh, gives me chills sometimes...these are the nightmares i have. Also of my family dying...i get so scared when i wake up. Sometimes, i'm aware that it's all a dream; while i'm still dreaming, mind you...but the tears stream down my face while i sleep!

Another thing i keep dreaming about is my teeth breaking/falling off...one of the habits i have is my obsession with teeth...OMG, i don't know what i'd do if mine were broken into a million little pieces...one of my worse fears...seriously! I'm not even kidding!!! I try my best to take care of them, and thinking of rotting teeth disgusts the shit outta me...God, why the hell am i so freakin' weird???

What else? Ahhh, yes...one more thing is that i dream that my youngest sis (Baby!!!) being here with us has been a dream all along...isn't that cruel? My mind creates these imagery of stories, so i blame my subconscious for all the cruelty...i dream that all the things we went through with her were just a dream...i couldn't even think straight while i'm typing this!!!

I get nightmares of people forcing me to marry...literally--> they push me down the aisle while the blurry/pixelated-faced, long-haired groom awaits me, wanting me to follow him to...guess where? Freakin' boring London!!! OMG...in my dream, i'm crying, coz i'll be leaving everything i have here...my job...my family and friends...what the hell!

I get nightmares of having to drive a car...but i don't know how to drive, and i end up driving off a cliff...and waking up in a shock...like i fell from the cliff onto my bed!

I get nightmares of waking up so freakin' late, i'd miss my exams...a day late!!! OMG...

I get nightmares that all humankind disappear, and i'm the only human left on Earth...lost...

I get a lot of nightmares, but so far...these are the ones i could remember NOW, in this very moment. I hate nightmares, but they happen...the good/great dreams happen too, and those are the ones i look forward to...next post will be about the great ones! :)

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The most annoying thing to me...as stated below:

You know when a guy or a girl have a relationship...1st they're all happy and stuff, they're in their own world...well, that's ok. That's not the issue here...coz that is normal, right?

But one thing i hate about this is that they start ignoring their family and friends...some don't even go home, or even think of calling their mom and dad...

THEN...

Disaster strikes!!! Your relationship is broken...you're lost...where do you go?

That's the time you go back home to your family...you go back into your mother/father's open arms...but where the hell were you when you were out and about with ur bf/gf? Were you even aware of what was going on at home? Did you even care at all?

This is something i've seen one too many times...you can't avoid it, coz nowadays people tell it to you whether you want to know or not...on Twitter, Facebook, Friendster, and many other social networking sites...sometimes you see them with your own eyes, and they admit that they haven't been home for months...

Some things you can't force...you could just be frustrated and pray to God it doesn't happen to you. I'm lucky that i appreciate what i have right NOW...my family and friends...and i hope i'd never forget them or take them for granted once i'm in a relationship. I hope i'd never forget a birthday, never miss a day where i said i loved them or never forget the memories we built together...because as much as i pray they will always be there, mortality rears its ugly head...and God might take them away the very moment you least expect it.

I don't know why i'm even talking about this, it's just that i get angry when i see friends forget their parents at home...their parents who love them and try their best to always give them the things they need and want...not everybody i know have that. Some people dream of having a mother or father who gives a damn, somebody who cares...

That is what i wish some people would realize. Why does it have to take a relationship breakdown for you to go back home? Or to take time to call them? Why not try NOW?

Right now, you're just annoying me...

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I watched The Proposal again...watched it in M's room...and now i know what line struck a chord...but i won't say it! Lol...you guys might know, hehehe...

I don't understand why i like to sleep too much nowadays, i can't believe it! It's like a sick disease, this sleeping virus, and i wanna get rid of it asap, coz it's ruining my daily plans...arrgghhh!!!

While i'm at it, i must stop trying too hard to get what i want...maybe then, it would come to me...i hope! And why can't i stop living in my own idealized life? I like the "idea" of too many things, and must now wake up! Snap out of it! Wake the fuck up and do your fuckin' thesis, miss thang!!!

That being said, must go now...

Toodlez, bitches!

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I had a blast chillin' in my friend F's kampung during the weekend...she invited us, "les filles" to her kenduri (Malay feast or celebration). So, what else? We went along...of course before going, M pulled a huge prank on me, makin me turn back towards home. She said i had to go alone, as she couldn't make it. Yeah, turning back, she said it was a joke. F***!!! I was pwned!!! Hahahaha...and yes, my sis got mad coz she had to send me to UKM and she was in a bad mood. LOL!!! Okaaaay...

The next step...the trip! Was not very long, but it was long? How's that? Hahahah, i dunno how to explain...

We made a pit stop to eat and stuff, then took a bus to F's place. It was OK coz we were doing nothing but talking and shit like that...hehehe!

Then, upon reaching, we met her parents and sister...what a bunch of great people... :)

First time her dad smiled at me, i did my 'gelabah' reaction...because i saw F when he smiled, and of course, i freaked M out...heheheheh!!! It was funny...they look so alike--when they smile!!! ZOMG...LOL!!!

F's mom made us feel at ease the moment we stepped into their huge, beautiful home...and her sis cooked us dinner! :D

The next day, I experienced first hand...the Malay-Muslim custom of prayer and feast...the kenduri. Witnessed how they interact, pray, etc...and sure, people thought i was a Malay...and they thought i didn't know how to pray, hehehe...coz i was with them while they were reading the "Yassin"...and yes, i got puzzled and perplexed looks...LOL! I don't really care though...coz I got to watch this joyous occassion...

After all was done, I took a nap, hehehe...then M saw me, and she followed suit...copy-cat! LOL...F's parents were nice enough to bring us along for a long evening drive which i loved...saw their land, their shop, and of course, more...then, had our dinner of yummy kenduri leftovers...*Om nyom nyom!!!*

Went to sleep once we came home, but not without me panicking coz i saw some white worm-like creature on my foot, in which i screamed loudly while M, F and me were relaxing...i performed the bicycle and attempted to wipe-out that creature on the carpet-->instead, i kicked M with my feet moving in circular motion, and she also freaked out and performed the bicycle...in the end, we looked like 2 upside-down tortoises, moving our feet above like we were riding a bicycle...OMG, just writing about this makes me laugh...it didn't help that i wanted to pee...thank God i went to the bathroom in time...Damn! Hahahahahahah...

Of course, there's more to be said about this...many omitted activities coz there's just too little time and i'm feeling kinda lazy, lol! But all in all...I HAD A BLAST!!!

Too bad A couldn't attend...she was so afraid we'd be mad, but we're not...would've been better if she had come though...and she attended the MTV Worlds Stage concert...*sobs* in which i'm super jealous coz she got two see cool awesome bands...the AAR, Hoobastank and Kasabian!!! :'(

Fit's parents were nice enough to take us for brekkie this morning before classes, and they dropped us back to UKM...well, we thank them wholeheartedly for their hospitality...and i hope we could meet again in the future...maybe for F's wedding with El-Arabi? Hahahaha, ZOMG! Sorry, couldn't help it...

For me, the one thing is...in each friendship i have, it's sincere...no fake stuff for me, please.

My friends and I, we all have our inside jokes...cues to laughter, i would say. That's what makes it real to me...the old ones (you're not old, you guys just happen to be by oldest friends ok? Hehehe...), the current ones, the ones i've met in passing...none of it was/is fake. That's why they know the real me and vice versa.

Thank you God for my wonderful friends...i know once we graduate, maybe we'll drift apart in our own ambitions, but the memories we created will never be erased...and we will always, one way or another be connected even though we're apart...even now, my childhood friends remain connected with me, and i hope i get to maintain all of these circles...

Wow, quite an ending...an ode to friendship! I always talk about my love for my family, but this one on friends, not so much...so here it is, in all it's glory...*shout out to my friends reading this!!! Have great week, y'all!*

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This song is currently on loop...i can't help it! I love it...LOL! It also makes me sad that i can't make it to their performance this Saturday due to me not having any tickets...damn! Arrggghhh...it's not only them, but Hoobastank will be there too...damn squared!!!

I tried to get tickets, but it was all too late, as i didn't win any of those contests entered...well, it was partly my fault...i found out that the line-up was featuring some cool bands that i love-- but it was too late!

So now let me revel in my self-pity and leave me alone...*emo*

I wanna go to the MTV World Stage Concert!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!! Goodbye Tyson Ritter, though i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you..it wasn't meant to be... :'(

The moral? As The Rejects say, "Move along, move a long like i know you do" :(

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Had a fun day with the girls...haven't seen them for quite some time. But first things first:

HAPPY GRADUATION DAY, NIGHTFOX aka W** MY BFF!!!

I so wish i could be there, supporting you for one of the most important days of your life (it is, even if you don't admit it!)...coz what are friends for, right?

Hope you step into the working world with much tenacity, spunk, and be the best you could be, no matter what you do...i have yet another year to study, but i'm in no hurry to work just yet...even if i'm jealous of some of those friends who are working...just a little bit! ;)

Wow! How many years have we been friends? It's been a very long time, eh? Hahaha, Gawd, i feel so old when i think about it!

Anyway, watched a movie with "the girls" --> The Proposal...I loved it so much! Maybe, it struck a chord, maybe not...nevertheless; I LOVED IT! It had a good storyline, though predictable...the humor and chemistry between the two characters were very believable! Plus, i had some eye candy that is the hotness of Ryan Reynolds...damn!!! *6-pack abs*

I'm reminded of a line in the movie...it just stuck to my head, and at that moment...i was like "OMG...that's me!" I won't say what it was, coz i forgot it...but yeah...sometimes there's a thin line between love and hate, right?

What else? Ok, this advice may not apply to you, but if it does, just take it: You know sometimes when you get a gut feeling about something? Just trust it...it works for me! And i often regret when i ignore it...so, people: TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS!!! You don't need to be forced into something you're not into.

Ok, so i've had enough of my workout "time-out"...not like i intended to take a break! But yeah, muffin-top and ham legs does not work on some people, i.e. ME!!! Hahahaha! I guess watching Ryan Reynolds and talking bout Ciara's ripped bod DID give me some motivation...LOL! Sometimes you just feel extra weak because you don't feel light...i need to be stronger NOW!!! Plus: When you exercise, you can eat as much as you want without regret, hehehehe! Nice...

Wish me luck!

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'nuff said...

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Pretty emo post this morning...i'm still wondering bout it...it has been haunting me ever since it was expected that i join the diplomatic corps. I just have a hard time deciding if it's the right choice. It seems too...i dunno, boring? Well, save it for another day...

For now, i'm trying my best to focus on my thesis, while doing some other stuff on the side...ever felt you want certain stuff to be over, and certain stuff to stay the same? Well, it always happens to me, but everything changes...and i have to accept it!

Got my BB last Friday, and as usual...we got lost on the way over there. Lucky thing my sis is not the freak-out-when-you're-lost kind...like mom! OMG, i could imagine mom hyperventilating at the thought, hahahah! So yeah, i'm enjoying it! It's a good phone...

What else? Tried to donate blood today...filled the usual form, got the blood group test...gave my blood donation book...and got ready to rumble...but wait!!! They asked me what time i slept and woke up...epic fail! Hahahaha, i can't donate blood if i had less than 5 hours' sleep! Asked me to come back tomorrow...

We'll see if i still have the mood.

Pretty much a boring day...and yet, i still have the urge to write. I noe...i'm a loozah! Well, you are one too if you're reading this! Nothing better to do, eh? Hahahaha!!! Go look for a job...then take me out asap...some place nice, no cheap stuff! ROFLMAO!

Toodlez, bitches...

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Dear God,

I know there will be a time where all questions asked by us mere mortals will be answered...somehow i know you DO answer us, but we don't listen...

I'm just saying, sometimes i need a brick in the head to see the answer. So please please please answer me in this time of confusion. I am at a crossroads, not knowing where i should go to attain what i truly want, which only you would know...seeing that i myself don't! I really don't know what i want...yes, i have ideals and all sorts of plans, but i know nothing can be attained without your blessing and will.

The pressure is pushing me towards one way, but even if i seem to want it, i'm not sure i do...i don't think i do...maybe i'll feel like i'm missing something that could give me more happiness? I don't know...all i know is that i have another year to decide...i'm counting on you. And no more jokes, please...as funny as they are sometimes!

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With this whole Kelly Clarkson vs. Ryan Tedder (from One Republic) fiasco because of similarities between her new single 'Already Gone' and Beyonce's 'Halo'...i have no comment! LOL! Don't MOST songs these days sound the same? Sigh...now everything is about capitalism, the art is long gone...but of course, there are exceptions...right?

I do love 'Halo'...it means something to sing those words to your significant other (which every person wishes they have). Something like love comes softly, if not naturally. For now, i'll just revel in the hotness that is that guy on the video! OMG, imagine those eyes looking back at you...with such love. Man, that guy must either be very much in love with Beyonce (she's so beautiful here!) or a very good actor, hehehe!

Enjoy the hotness...

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Baptized in the river...i see a vision of my life and i wanna be delivered...

That line from Good Charlotte's 'The River'...i keep singing it over and over and over again...help! I love the song, but can't I stop?

On a different note, i love the fact that M. Shadows (hott!) and Synyster Gates (super-duper cool!!! AND hot...at the same time, hehe!) are in it! Apart from Joel and Benji Madden, the rest of the GC guys are rather low-key...that's why i'm not familiar with them individually...unlike Synyster's bandmates...hahah!

Do i need to be delivered or something? Why can't i freakin' stop singin this song???

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Seriously...my life is REALLY REALLY like a rollercoaster!!!

Yesterday...a day of frustration...today? Utter bliss!!! I went to Genting with my buds, and woot!!! I had a blast!!! But one thing that i also appreciate is this...I WON A BLACKBERRY BOLD SMARTPHONE!!!

I was in a queue, waiting for my turn at the coaster-ride...when suddenly, i receive a call...a pleasant-sounding lady telling me i won the grand prize of the Hallmark channel's contest...and i was jumping and screamed "OMG!!! YESSS!!!", much to the people around me! What a day!!! The days of TV during the holidays worked out for me in the end, eh? Hehehe!

Maybe some friends or family-members are pissed at my win (coz this is not the first time i won stuff...), but heck...this is a gift from Hallmark, and God! Of course, i'll take it with an open heart, ok? LOL...nope, not even anything negative said to me could get me out of this blissful day...which i know can't last...so i have no choice but to enjoy it while i can!

I love today...i had fun with M, A, and F...we acted like such fools, but hell! I love acting like a fool so much, i'm often mistaken for one (i am one most of the time :D)! The rides weren't super scary to me...coz the one i was waiting for was closed due to maintenance works...damn! But we went on all the rides possible, and i have no regrets! Luckily, i'm not one of those who gets scared easily at rollercoaster rides or heights..that was all ok to me.

So now, i'm gonna wake from this "dream day" by going to sleep...I love my family and friends and my life and God! I know, there's always the bad, but there's good most of the time too!

Peace out, y'all!

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Ok, so just a few days ago i wrote a post about my love for mom and dad...and now, lemme write about my current mood; which is "Huh?"+ anger...

So i told my dad i was going to Genting with friends the other day...i was surprised he took it quite well, until; i reminded him yesterday...then, he started with a "Whatttt???"...and today, i got a nice lecture about my frequent "outings" with friends...i'm just sitting there like "WHATTAFUCK???"

Luckily, I don't know what divine power was keeping me super calm and collected, that i just shut the fuck up...while seeing my mom and sister's sympathetic face...hmmph!!! I mean, yeah so far...i went out like what...twice or so? WTF!!! And he said i didn't do any chores...OMG, did i not mop the floor in front of you the day before? I was literally laughing in my head at the ridiculousness!!! OMG...as i left, he then said..."Ok, have a good time and call us before and after you get there, k?"

If that ain't enough, my dad then started praising my sister for her help...that, ok...i agree! She has been a big help! But my dad is crayzay!!! Hahahaha...Okok...what else? Oh yeah...after laughing it off with my sis in the car...my mom calls and she tells me that she too was given a lecture? What??? Not cool!!! I think tonight, dad is just plain cayzaaaayyyyyy!!!

And too make it more laughable, my dad initially didn't let my sister send me back to uni...coz when i told him about it, he said "This is too much..." (I'm laughing in my head as i type this!!!) He said it with his index finger swaying in the air...much like a dictator giving his propaganda...

It's a revelation how my dad sometimes act like this...his moods are much like a woman on menopause; well...maybe? Hahaha! All i know is that i take it with a grain of salt, and i laugh it off coz he knows i wouldn't take it to heart...it's funny though! He said he wouldn't have let me go...but my mom said i should...and because of that, he's letting me go!!! THANK GOD FOR MOM!!!

But what's funnier is my baby sister acting the fool while dad lectures me...she was entertaining to the brink of madness! Can you imagine trying to act serious, while dad is giving you a lecture...and then this little girl dances around you, and play peek-a-boo around your dad! Bwahahahahaha...i just love her, you know? Sigh, my spoilt little baby...i wouldn't wanna imagine my (our) life without her!!! She is just a blessing to my family...i don't even for a second think that they would remain...i don't think we would be as close as we are now...all these scenarios, we would never know coz God has blessed us with this gift...LOL! How rich!!! From dad's onion-like layers to my baby sister...how my thoughts flow is somewhat a mystery by itself!!!

To reiterate my point, though...My dad is an onion!!! Hahahaha...

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Why the fuck are you so freakin' inconsiderate? You know there's such a thing as queueing-up, right? And don't act like you freakin' don't know there's a fuckin' line ok? It was clear as a fuckin' black dot on a white screen! I hate it when you act like you don't know and/or are ignorant to the fact that there's a line!!! YOU KNOW!!! DON'T ACT OBLIVIOUS, OK??? WE (the people who are actually civilized and waited for our turn) WEREN'T BORN YESTERDAY!!! And don't for a minute think that I don't know...you were in the other station, right before me, buying a ticket from the machine...you were the one who kept sticking you stupid RM10 note for what seemed like an hour...so if the machine rejects your note like 6 times...give up ok? Stupid!!! I swear to God, if i had no patience at all, i would have embarassed you like no other...but thank God i was patient, and that you had given up and left!

So don't hate me when i freakin' scold your muthaf***in' ass!!! Asswipe!!! And your huge-ass tudung won't scare me ok???

As we Malaysians say, "Amek ko!!!"

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I love this template...hahahah!!! It rocks!

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I don't know why i suddenly thought of posting about my parents...i mean, i haven't actually written that i love them so...i always have, but never actually written a post specially for them...well, maybe i have but forgotten about it, but i wanna write one NOW!

I don't actually know how my life would be without them, but i sure know that i am one of those lucky people who sometimes feel that they don't deserve such wonderful people as their parents...i mean, you could have all the riches in the world, and you can have parents who don't give a damn about you, right? Sometimes it overwhelms me how much i can't live without them, i almost cry when i imagine my life without them.

One thing good about me is that i never take them for granted...ever since! I'm so happy for that. Yeah, yeah sometimes they are a pain, but so am i, right? We are ALL humans, we are NOT perfect! But to me, no matter how many heroes i adore and respect...my number 1 will always be them both...Mom & Pops!

And that is why, i wanna be the best person i can be just so that i could justify all your sacrifices you made for me and my sisters. I don't even know why i'm feeling like i miss you guys, even though i'll see you tomorrow (i know, stupid right?) and i just talked to you...but i just know what you guys went through in each of your individual lives and your lives together...and as much as you fight about this and that, even if one day you might end up apart (God forbid...)-- I know you love your children to the brink of selflessness! I just hope all those selfless sacrifices would be worth it in the end.

I pray that BOTH my sisters and I would be able to achieve greatness and finally give you the riches you deserve! I'm glad i say "I love you" so i will never regret NOT saying it when it's too late...may God hear my prayers and bless you both...for I am ALREADY blessed. AMEN!

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Yesterday...i splurged again!!! Oh man...must stop spending!!! If this continues i shall be broke by the end of the month! Arrrgghhhh!!!

So my friends and i have been going out since we started classes, and in a way it's good coz we often have a blast, but we are getting more and more greedy in a sense that we buy stuff we don't need. This is no laughing matter...but it's fun when you're in that whole adrenaline-pumping shopping mode.

And another thing...i hate procrastination...but that's what i do. And after thinking about it, i'm taking matters into my own hands! Hahahah, yeah baby...i'm gonna do whatever i planned to do one step at a time...but of course, i'll do it within reason. So this Monday, i'm goin' on a sponteneously planned outing to the place where all of us can act stupid for a few hours...hopefully, the weather would be cool and fine coz we bought tickets already! Hahaha...

We bought the tickets yesterday, and went shopping again! *gasps* Then, we bought one of my latest obsession...Kripy Kreme's original glazed doughnuts!!! Heaven...especially while it's warm...*drools* I remember when i bought it for the 1st time...i thought a dozen was too many...after taking my first bite, i knew...i knew it wasn't enough! LMAO!!! Now i know how Homer Simpson feels...

I'M SUCH A PIG!!! LOL!

And today...i spent the day chatting with my oldest bestie...we had a fun time catching up, and she wishes that we could go back in time. Yeah, it would be great to look back, but i'm actually lookin' forward to see what the future holds. So i have no regrets about any part of my past. It made me who i am...

And yesterday, while my buddy-buds were having dinner, i told M i envisioned her marrying an older man...someone who knows how to treat a lady. She was lovin' it coz she's into older gentlemen...hehehe! Then she told me that she saw me with a hot-bodied hunk, but i would wear the pants in the relationship coz i will be the one who gets the flowers coz he would be the 'girl' and a crybaby, and i would be the one to comfort him...then the laugh fest began!!! Coz that sounds like me...ROFL!!!

F, on the other hand would be with a super-duper religious man, sporting a beard! Hahahaha...then she would act all wise and religious, but when we come for a visit, she'll be her 'real' self...and start acting all rough and unladylike! We literally laughed like fools!!! And last but not least, A would end up with a super-cute funny geek with emo hairstyle, just like the vocalist of her favorite local rock band! OMG...this is fun! The F had to spoil it all and differ M's opinion...she said i would end up with a religious Chinese nerd...LMAO...and somehow i said, "You know...you're right!"

I can't believe how much i'm LOL-ing at this as i write...and now i shall end it with this: I LOVE YOU GUYS...Uni would be so diferent without you. In the future, i will definitely look back at moments like this and say, "Those were some fun times..."

Regardless of whoever we each end up with, i pray that we all be happy in life, and achieve whatever dreams we have...AMEN!

Oh, i forgot...i saw these monster doll-like creatures in Mid Valley and couldn't help wanting to take pics with them...till my they got mad and rushed me into taking pics...i wanted to take the ones on display, that 2 guys pushing a toddler (in a pram) actually laughed at me...i even almost crashed into the pram coz i didn't realize he was there...LOL! They are some cute-looking monsters, ok? But i only got a few...too bad!

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I once saw a clip of this movie on some countdown of old weird movies, and i was instantly drawn to its super freaky plot and it's just...just...plain weird for me to even explain! I was hooked, and tried to search the movie here in Malaysia and it couldn't be found...it's about some young, crazy hooligans and what its main character goes through...it's just freakin' awesome, hahaha! It starred a young Malcom McDowell (who was kinda cute...)

Title? A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess...

So imagine my surprise when I spotted it at my library! I was ecstatic! So now, after finishing my first read (i borrowed five books in one day!), I started with this one...and the first page already uses some weird slang or maybe made-up words? Damn! This is soooo freakin' fun! Hahahaha...

I tend to read a lot of classic books...the last was Of Mice & Men by Steinbeck (one of my fave authors)...after that, i watched the movie too! LOL! It was luck, coz it played on TV a few weeks after i read it!

Next up: The 2 classic political satire by the satire-meister...Orwell! So ok, i read 1984 and Animal Farm...but i didn't finish those as assignment were nearing. But for now, i'm just chilling, so why not repeat, eh? I read 2-3 at a time, so no problem in that department! LOL!

I missed this...i'm lovin' this moment (of what i'm experiencing right NOW), and i want it to last! May it be so...

Toodlez, bitches!!!

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Like as if you didn't know i'm a weirdo...my dreams sometimes kick it into highER gear...LOL!

I dreamt I was super-duper-uber late for my exam, that i went o the hall ONE day late! OMFG...super scary!!! But!!! Thats not the weird part...get this: the person in charge, a male authority guy became my best friend, and he was gay! So...he was my Will!!! Hahahahahaha...My bestest gay friend!!!

And we had a blast! We became roomies, and he brought his hot bf...OMG, i totally dreamt I was Grace from season 7 (give or take, right W?)...but i've never had so much fun just chatting with them...it was great, even if it was a dream...i laughed so hard! I can't imagine my face while sleeping, hahahaha!

Ok, this is weird...how come my conscious life images get jumbled up into a weird-ass dream? Oh, yeah...i forgot---that's what dreams are!!! LOL! One thing though...i rarely get the old lucid dreams anymore...it's pretty much gone! It sucks when you can't fly...

Watched Titanic yesterday...AGAIN!!! Yeah, loved it! Leonardo was such a cute boy, hehehe! And i just love Kate Winslet then AND now...she's such a great actress!

Well, i may be going somewhere today...but i'm not sure where...depends on the driver, in which, i'll have to treat! Awww, man!

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Something about yesterday...it was hectic, but it was one of those days where you go, "Whoah!!! That was fun..."

So ok...for me, the best things are spontaneous...plans are great, of course...but i find that i have MORE fun when something is decided all of a sudden...LOL! By ALL OF US, mind you! Not when it's just ONE person deciding to go somewhere, inevitably forcing us to go along with the idea (out of courtesy, hehehe) *wink wink*

The day started with an 8am class, which ended exactly at 10am...on the dot! So how the hell are we supposed to make the next class, which is at 10am? In another faculty, mind you!!! So, we didn't make it on time...hahaha, but it's all good! The schedule has been changed! Loved the class though...learnt about food, my fave subject, LOL! In French...

So, after class...we had some lunch, then another class!!! Boy, i was almost going off to sleep at that time, BUT before that, we decided to go out somewhere...maybe for a movie? How about a fun time at a karaoke joint? Hahaha, so we did both! We wanted to go accompany a friend of ours who was fasting...so we could eat out! Fed up of cafeteria food...

And after everything, we ended up watching a night movie of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince in this small cinema at Kajang!!! How's that!!! Lol, i'm just saying...the balls we had for watching a night movie, as transportation after 11pm is virtually non-existent! Luckily for us...we were 4 tough cookies, LOL! And yeah...2 of the 4 cookies were coaxed into staying at my dorm (and M's too)...yay!

Came back around 12am, which is early for me actually...but damn, it was pretty empty...i mean the streets of Kajang were so deserted, it seemed almost scary! And there was ONLY 1 taxi waiting there...thank God, there was at least ONE taxicab! Nothing like KL, where people and lights are on till the morning!

Initially: chilled at Starbuckeroos with A (M & F went to pray), and i saw a man wearing a black bandana...with his weird-ass shirt, he looked like a pirate, so i told A that "...there walks the pirate of Kajang" in which she LOL-ed! Yay...1-0!!! Meh, you had to be there to find it funny! :P

Harry Potter rocked!!! OMG, i can't wait to see the next installment!!! Of course, i'm not a reader of the series...but i love the movies! Yeah, Ron was looking pretty buff, hehehe...me likey! I kept teasing A who initially said that Draco Malfoy was handsome...i was like "WTF? Blind much?" then she saw him, and changed her mind...hahahahaha!!! He USED to be cute...USED to! He looks anorexic now. I call him her bf now, hehehe...and she pointed out that Harry's eyebrows look like that of Eugene Levy...which i TOTALLY agree with!!! I literally LOL-ed at the cinema at that moment...1-1!

Next time: longer hours on the karaoke please? So much skipping songs due to time constraints...hahahaha!!! Screaming rocks! Well, i better go before i vomit more nonsensical words!!!

Toodlez, bitches!

PS: My sis is getting an LG Cookie due her old phone breaking into 2...Hahahaha! Yeah, i'm so jealous! Damn, why couldn't my phone have spoiled at this moment when dad has some cash? Why, oh why!!!

PPS: Well, at least for now, they (you know who) aren't fighting...yay! God bless us! But i hope it doesn't go downhill once the cash flow comes to a standstill, like it always does.

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Found out yesterday that my aunt died...my dad's eldest sister was the one who actually took care all of her younger siblings when their mom left! Despite their own mother leaving them, she took care of her younger brothers and sisters...my dad, the youngest boy in the family. Aat least...now i know this made him the man that he is today!

My dad found out and immediately went to Klang right away with my mom...and my poor sister is home alone with baby sis! I felt so guilty for not being able to go home at that moment!

After talking to mom and dad today, they said i didn't have to go home...all i had to do was pray for my aunt, that she attains peace and is blessed by God. Her early burial is because that she is a Muslim convert, hence...the immediate burial.

I would like to leave this post with another poem for comfort of those that were left behind...it's quite popular in funerals, as it is simply beautiful! It is by Mary Elizabeth Frye...and the first time i heard this poem...i had tears in my eyes! Here goes:

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,

I am the softly falling snow.

I am the gentle showers of rain,

I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,

I am in the graceful rush

Of beautiful birds in circling flight,

I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,

I am in a quiet room.

I am in the birds that sing,

I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there. I do not die.

May God bless you...

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Today, i felt like writing about poems that i love...so here goes!

I totally forgot which movie or TV show this poem came from, but it stuck to my head immediately after hearing it...i seriously fell in love with it coz of course, everybody hopes for this...at least for once in your life! So then, after typing it in Google (what would life be without Google?) i got the title of Cummings' words...it's called "Somewhere I Have Never Travelled, Gladly Beyond":

somewhere i have never travelled,gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully ,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility:whose texture
compels me with the color of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

So here ends the analyses of poems, both are two ends of a coin: An oxymoron. A paradox. An irony. That's what life is...that's how love is.

Wow, i surprise myself sometimes! I should do this stuff more often...

Toodlez, bitches!!!

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Just a week since classes had started, and i'm one of those unfortunates who have fallen victim to the current flu outbreak. At first, it was one of those suspected A H1N1 viruses, but nooooo...turns out, it was just the boring old flu! LOL! A relief? Hell yeah!

What can i say? A pretty hard week...solely based on my physical vulnerability. I hate it when i am weak. I hate it when this happens. But then again, i'm only human! So now...on this day, the cold i was having has become a painful cough, and yeah...due to my history with asthma, it is a wheezing cough. Damn crap! Oh, the horror! The HORROR!!!

I've finally gone to the driving school to convert my license which expired almost 2 months ago, hehehe...OMG, thank goodness i haven't forgotten about it...or else! This is what happens when you let people drive you around, and not drive yourself.

What else can I say? Oh yeah...so far, i have been to 3 of my 5 classes...i sure hope i make it through this semester with flying colors and also make a great impression on the lecturers. I don't like it when lecturers favor students who kiss their asses, so i'm pretty thankful that so far, most of my former lecturers hate that! Don't get me wrong, there are some who absolutely love it, but lucky for me...i am not one of those bootlickers!

My room is kinda ok...pretty small, but i've had worse! Whatever it is...i am thankful!

Oh yeah, i forgot...regarding MJ's death; he will be missed despite his shortcomings, but who would've thought of such things happening to the King of Pop, eh? I wouldn't have! Damn, i 've forgotten how many songs he had! And they were all good! I could still remember my uncle playing his concerts on VHS, and his singles on VCDs...he has made an impression on every kind of music today...and will forever be remembered! R.I.P., Michael...no matter how we made fun of you for the way you looked (you gotta admit, he looked pretty funny!), you will, and always will be remembered for your music, your dance moves, your elaborate music videos, your philantropy, your girly voice, your evolution from black to white, your affinity towards children (good or bad), your Peter Pan complex, etc...

What i'm saying is...the world has lost one of the greatest entertainers that ever graced this Earth! Long live the King of Pop! Peace out!

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During the 1st week, we were supposed to go here, there and everywhere...especially shopping in Manila...unfortunately, the many cases of A H1N1 made my mom say, "I don't wanna risk it!"...and so that's why we were just in the province since...of course, we went to the malls, but i wanted to see Manila. So, when my dad joined us the week later, we made up our minds to go to Olongapo City...and spend the night at Subic Beach, then go to Manila and shop.

So off we went!

The highlight of my trip here is this particular boat ride...we went quite far, alittle less than 2 hours, visiting other resorts and islands, spotting huge tankers, cruise ships, a port, etc...Subic was a former U.S. naval base, so go figure...many Americans over there. Mostly old men with their prostitutes...something so common, that we weren't even surprised. We, however, booked the family suite which faces the beach...just get over the small barrier, and voila, you can build sandcastles...it's THAT close by.

The boating session is what really got me...I felt so much peace at the serenity...i thanked God at that moment!

After that, it was long trips to Manila, shopping, and who could forget...watching a live band at the Riverbank or something of that sort...man, the band was awesome! They did classic rock tunes my Journey, Toto, Aerosmith, Deep Purple, Guns 'n Roses...OMG, the band were "old-timers", as dad says...the vocalist had that voice so suitable for this kind of music; kinda like Steve Perry from Journey! I really loved it.

As usual, dad had to talk to them, buy them drinks and chat...yeah, my dad loves to chat up his fellow musicians...and guess what? They performed and live in Malaysia...some married Malaysians and Singaporeans, then divorced...hahahaha!

AND one of them are best friends with my Malaysian cousin! What a small world!!! Just at that moment, everyone said the same thing..."What a small world, eh?" I don't even know what lead them to talk about my cousin, a DJ...but yeah, that was like a moment of freakish coincidence!

The food? What shall i say bout the food? Some were awesome, and some weren't...it's so easy to feed me, as i'm not really picky...but some were just too 'ughhh'!

You see, there...there are the all-imported Pizza Huts and McDonalds and KFCs...but guess what? They have their very own fast-food chains.

CHOW KING--> a chinese-filipino fast food chain, serving chinese food (though i must say, nothing beats Malaysian chinese food!!! YUMMO!) that aren't spicy...plus, most have sweetish taste, which i don't like!

JOLLIBEE-->a burger-fries kinda fast food chain, serving filipino flavors in American style fast food...there's local flavors and stuff...but i don't really fancy it. Their burger patties have celery or coriander-like flavors which i find not suitable for beef patty burgers...and this is an ultimate sin for me: THEIR SPAGHETTI IS SWEET, SUPER SWEET!!! I don't like it at all!!! I'm sorry, i have my limits! Hahahahaha...

Okok...feeling like crap now, will continue later...i wanna go choke myself to death!

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Yes, i'm back, but i have too much to say, and i haven't thought of what the heck i'm gonna write, except that i had 2 weeks of total paradoxes!

1st week was a total chill-out session, where i was in the barangay or village in my grandfather's province, Pampanga...where everyone spoke a dialect called Capampangan. My mother spoke it, but i could not even begin to tell you how different it is from Tagalog...at least i could understand Tagalog when people speak it to me, but what? A whole new dialect? Shit...or shall i say "taklak!" (Capampangan for "shit") ...that's the only word i know. Oh, oh...and also "mekeni" which is "c'mon!"

Told you bout the pumping of water and seeing paddy fields, cows, chickens, buffalos, etc...right? Rode on jeepneys and tricycles many times, as that's the main way of getting anywhere around...yeah, my grandpappy has no car, so this is how we rolled, yo! LOL! Fun times...

I have also improved my Tagalog, comprehension-wise, not speaking-wise...i still don't have the confidence to speak, unless it's for fun...hahahaha! I have also gotten addicted to the teleseryes playing on the networks; Totoy Bato and Zorro...LMAO! Seriously! I watched it with my granpa...well, you know me...TV addict! And man, those actors and actresses are attractive...not ALL, but MOST...my new fave Pinoy actor is Ian Veneracion...yummo!

And every night there's a man selling Pan de Sal (some sort of hot buns) which are so fluffy and warm, it's like your very own comfort food! Put some butter or Cheez Whiz on it, and voila...fatso-builder!

That's for the first week...pretty casual...and the time during the 1st week is super-freakin' weird...why? Because time seem to pass rather slowly...i'm dead serious! You know how time passes quickly all the time? In the place where i was, it sure didn't, dudes! It's like you check the clock to see if the hour has passed, and then you find out, "whoah, it's only been 15 minutes? WTF?"

It's THAT weird! Hahahaha...and the day ends earlier...as in, the darkness sets around 6pm, and the morning brightens at 6am. And I, for some reason sleep and wake up early over there! Wow, what an achivement, eh? LMAO! Dad would be sooooo proud!

Continued story on next post...

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