Life's Sick Lil' Games...

Yesterday I was supposed to pay my mom's credit cards...but it didn't happen coz my mom failed to mention i was to withdraw 1.7k from my acc that she banked in...wtf? My bank doesn't let me withdraw more than a thousand okay? Epic fail for the night!

So what did me and my sisters do? We went up the hill near the neighborhood...baby fell asleep...LOL! EVERYTIME we get into a car at night, she sleeps...hahahaha! My other sis and I didn't wanna go home, see? My dad went to teach and usually gets home around 11pm. So, you know how we are...as long as we get the chance to get the hell out of the house even for awhile...WE WILL DO SO!

So up the hill we drove...and boy, we saw a house - a big, beautiful, cozy and spacious house! My sis and I looked at each other and both said, "One day..." in unison! Lol...sigh...coz life ain't grand right now. All i do now is wish for the days to get better for us all. I know we aren't the only ones having hard times...most families are. So i won't go into much detail there.

Anyway, we saw the great view of KL...of course, with her towers of glory...my sis had an idea to take pics of the city lights in motion...so i took one on my phone...and so, behold:



Looks like some festival, huh?

What else...ooh, discovered that this old friend of mine had some guy problems, and all i could think of was "What???" Damn, girl...u should not fall THAT easily! I mean, you barely know the person. I still wonder...How? How? And I warned her not to be too forward or persistent in going after the person...you might scare the poor guy...sigh, the lengths some girls go through...but she did anyway!

I sometimes wonder how in the world do we remain close when we have different minds? Lol...variety is the spice of life, right? Well, all i can say is, i did my part...AND if you need me, i'm still here to support you! No matter how secretly disappointed i am of you, i'll still support you...no question about it!

To anyone who feels like crap...hang in there and be sure u find peace...i'm guessing it's a period of tough luck, hard times, and shit loads of bullcrap...What can you do? Look at the stars, feel the breeze of the cool night air, hear the sound of the rain...or the waves on a beach, cook for yourself, hear some great music to soothe your soul...be alone with your thoughts to ponder on life's wonders...cherish the things you have, and say "Fuck you and goodbye!" to the toxic people around you, Lol! These are just a few of many things you could do.

Now mind you, once i find that a friend needs some solitude, i respect and will do just that. I do that too sometimes! :) Solitary confinement helps...

So i wish you luck in attaining inner peace and pure bliss!

Song i'm listening to right now is an old favorite...but it seems to me that it's quite relevant in todays' freakish situation: Hurt by NIN. Man, i still wish i could go see NIN in concert! Thus, one of the shittiness of being broke!

Damn, i've had it with talking about fiscal issues!!! I've had it! So i'd better go before i talk more about it!

Toodlez, bitches!!!

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'nuff said!

Sometimes I don't wanna go home coz among the things that get to me are financial problems. My family has plenty of these problems. Yet, most of us are in denial, planning to live well into oblivion! I just don't know what to say...one one hand, i love everyone, and i'm happy we're all alright. Then on the other hand...I just won't go into details. Parents won't even acknowledge and try to work things out.

And now, my friend wanna go out for a movie. Well, that would take some $$$, and I don't like going out when i'm broke...but i guess someone already made up their mind for me. So i go with a heavy heart...but don't judge if i ain't gonna be in the mood. I just don't roll that way!

God, please get us out of this rut!

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After my so-called hell-week, i'm finally home, sleeping on my bed!!! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

The problems i've accumulated throughout the semester of my first year has gone far, far away, thanks to my ability to solve problems, hehe!

Now, i'm just gonna chill, then i'll go to a few friends' houses to visit them for their Hari Raya celebrations; great!!!

Right now, i'm downloading some songs...ever heard the cover of Rihanna's "Umbrella"? I like it! Sounds like Mandy Moore, but the radio DJ said 'twas some girl from YouTube...I dunno, I just know I like it.

Uhmmm, since it's early registration for the next semester, i'm thinking if I should take French lessons earlier, because I can't wait to learn it! However, it seems the classes are at 11pm!!! I mean, is that even possible? WTF, dudes! 11pm? How the hell am I gonna get transportation over there? My dorm is like 4 kilometres from my faculty...gahhh!!!!

What music am I listening to now? Lenny Kravitz' "It Ain't Over 'Til It's Over"...one of my favorite chillout-mellow-touchy-feely songs...

Btw, I was thinking...should I get a 1-month long job for the holidays, or should I just stay home? This is, however in December, so no rush...you know what, i'll think of it then!

At least i'm updating this who-knows-who-the-hell-reads-this blog...I sorta love this blog coz it's my only release...so bear with me! Any comments? Lol!

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Yeah, i'm not quite sure of the whole galore thing, but I wonder why couldn't the professors had given my tasks earlier, when we had a lot of free time. My assignments are all back-to-back, and I sometimes never sleep because my partners and I want to finish 'em on time! And trust me, we do it perfectly, without sleeping...

Another wave of tasks had just hit me like a ton of bricks; building and presenting a website, tons of esay-based questions, and more...but one thing I like about this is, it keeps me busy.I love being busy, and hate passive moments. I love doing work under pressure, as it makes me, or rather forces me to think critically and uniquely...I produce a lot of good stuff when I work under pressure. However, I perceive this to be a very bad habit that I need to break!!!

Know why? Coz I could get an aneurysm at any moment, and stressed-out at any given time...that's why!

I also have a knack for getting to classes a little late...I don't know why, coz I tend to get up long before class, and then I take my time. THIS IS VERY BAD!!! This one time, I read a CNN article about tardy people; it says that tardy peeps (in my words, not CNN!) tend to be programmed that way, and it would take forever to change, coz it's already written in our brain that being late is OK. It also says that quitting tardiness is like quitting the ciggies. The problem is-- the addicts do not want to quit.

I say, this quite puts me in deep shit, coz when I have the chance to be early, I tend to not take it. It's true; i've been programmed for life! BUT, I want to change, and I will try my best...(God, help me...)

Now, let' move on to something else...meh, maybe not! 'Til the next post, toodlez, bitches!!!

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Firstly, I would like to start by saying, the weekend sucked! Supposedly, I was going to volunteer at SPCA, but one thing; the stars of the event were not the animals, instead it was...a VJ? Another thing; I got stood up by my good-for-nothing sister, who ditched me for a date with her good-for-nothing boyfriend! Anyway, my friend told me there were many, many volunteers! That's a good thing, right? I really wanted to go...but damn, that place is so far away, and I can't travel THAT far...as much as I love dogs, and wanna help, this is too much hassle, yo!

The second thing is, mom came back from the O.B.'s appointment with dad...looks like there's a few problems with the pregnancy. This is what I can't fathom...she could be in danger! Not to mention the baby! She started crying at home...my dad couldn't stay longer, as he had to work...so, he asked me and my sis to comfort her. What do you tell an expecting mother who just got some bad news? It's something about the placenta in the wrong location. If it doesn't move in the next 2-weeks, she's gonna be admitted, one month early! God, please let everything be okay! Please...

Another rant i've got to release...why is it always the idiot Malay-sians who seem to do stuff they can't handle? I'm proud to say that i've done a good job writing not one, but two articles for my former-school magazine. I was the one who edited my article, coz trust me, not even the teacher-in-charge, nor the editor-in-chief understood what I wrote about. They've asked me, "what is 'Gucci'...or 'dictates'...or 'vegetative'?"

WTF? And I sort of knew that this school had hired some incompetent idiots to publish the mag...so what? Not that 99% would understand what the hell I was writing, seeing the average student couldn't even read an Aesop fable without an English-BM dictionary, right? Okay, I'm being condescending here, but I can't help it! I wrote a pretty good article, which I am proud of...sarcastic, witty (ego-bitch tells it again!), yada, yada, yada...but what exactly is the fuckin' problem?

Clerical errors! Wouldn't YOU hate that? Readers wouldn't think of blaming the publishers, they will blame the writer for this sort of shit! In this kinda shizz, I really want my stuff to be perfect...is that so wrong?

The letters "L" were replaced by exclamation points (!), "I" with the number "9", and so much more, that even I, the writer, couldn't decipher my own article...for fuck's sake, people, be a little more competent, will you? Luckily, my other article, was typed ALMOST perfectly (which means, about 20% typing errors!)

It's stuff like this that makes me a control freak! The very article that I was proud of has become one of my worse shame...Damn, I even won an elocution contest for it! Now, on to my venting...

"*(&^%$#$%^&***%%%^;^' @$$#*&$% @#$% &^*%^&$%%%^##"

Too much of you couldn't handle what I just said...so, I now camouflage the 'fucks and other stuff' with nice, frilly motifs! Enjoy!

Toodles...may the week not turn out to be a bitch!

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