Life's Sick Lil' Games...

Ok...so I got into the Dean's List. They sent me a certificate. They wrote on the envelope, "Jangan lipat/Do not fold!"

Then some idiots at the post office or maybe the postman goes on and folds it...I open it in anger. It is so crumpled-up like a tissue paper...I become the Hulk! Fuck you...my first (and last) time getting this honor, and the idiot spoils it!!!

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Sorry, but for someone like me who has never gotten into the Dean's List...I am pretty jakun+excited...so don't blame me for getting a little nuts...k? Thanks!

Idiot postman!!!

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Sometimes, what you see is what you get...no need to analyze. It's just there in your face! No need to analyze the 'deeper' meanings by my selection of book or movies...I just like them coz they're good movies.

No need to ramble on about what makes me like certain types of music...I just do!

No need to ask why I do this or that...I am human and I'm driven by instincts...

No need to philosophize about the world to me...I didn't ask you to.

No need to ask me stuff. I am not a sage, and you are not my pupil!

No need to tell me stuff I don't wanna know coz it makes me feel awkward...don't you have a right/wrong filter in your brain? DO you have a brain?

The filter in my head tells me that I can't tell these things to you coz I have something called sensitivity...which maybe you don't? Guess I'll just have to ignore you then...and no, I don't like you. I'm just being nice...

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Sorry...this is my outlet, people...some people are idiots, that's all! So this is the place where I let it out...

This is pretty much a pointless post...but I'm feeling very much better now!

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Right now, i am happy...thank you for this year! It has been wonderful (towards the end) mainly because i am fortunate enough to be with my family...it is the FIRST time the five of us are together...

I don't know why, but i feel like the next year will be just fine. I know i always get a hunch about certain things that may come true...or maybe wishes and thought manifesting into reality...but yeah, i think 2010 is going to be a good year.

I also feel like something good is going to happen to me...don't know why, but i do. Geez, i know it seems crazy, but i don't know why i feel this way. I think i've been reading too many books on self-growth and happiness...i'm finally seeing the silver lining in the things around me.

On another note...

A friend of mine never fails to make me feel like a fool...one minute, that person complains about the bane of having a dickwad for a partner...the next minute...back with the said jerk. I mean what the hell, right? Please don't go asking me shit if you're not gonna get it...it just pisses me off how you could let a person treat you like shit. Love is not blind...if you love yourself enough, it should open your eyes.

Ok, done with that moment of toxic negativity...yes, it is bloody toxic...and i shall leave it right now and never open up about this again. You wanna talk about stuff like this with me again, i'll give you a piece of my mind just like i did before...and you may or may not repeat the cycle. People can claim they love you...but if you don't start loving yourself...you may never see the truth.

Funny how i just feed you with oxymoronic themes, eh? Well, these are just my 2 cents worth...you don't have to agree. I'm just sayin'...

To a good year ahead...cheers! Salut! Toodlez, bitches!

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What is it about Friendster that gets annoying? Ok, ok, before I start...I am a victim of this so-called "social network" of "friends"...well, yeah! I know the 'in' thing is Facebook, but here in Malaysia, it's either Myspace or Friendster.

You see, i only add people i know, or people who i genuinely like to get to know in real life...schoolmates, college mates, genuine and sincere people...

But, as usual, this writer has a few complaints...about some people who are total whack-jobs!

What's with the joint account by gf-bf...showing them kissing, hugging and shitting (not really!) together...like, gimme a break, will ya? I may be single, but if i had a bf, would i want to show people all that shit? What's so nice about watching other people smooching while cam-whoring, then adding every Tom, Dick and Harry just to fill in your account? ANNOYING!!!

And what about those losers who add everyone they can, even if they don't know 'em, and then open a 2nd account and repeat? ANNOYING!!!

What about those who keep posting spam-like graphics on your comment box every single day without fail? ANNOYING!!!

And..those who keep requesting for you to be their "friend", even though you've rejected them like dozens of times? ANNOYING!!!

There...a few complaints. There's more, if you ask any sane person who's had it! But, i really keep contact with my real friends through a network like this...so, there's the good and the bad!

Maybe my bitchery has gone gargantuan, as i have been sorta irritable because of a certain person (refer to previous post)...

Do you have any complaints? Do tell...


PS: I wanna go out! For real!

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These days, all I do is watch the tele...and i can't complain. I cook, do some cleaning, help take care of my baby sis, and I won't complain, coz there's nothing to complain about--i'd do it coz it's my home...

BUT!!!

When the housekeeper sleeps on the couch, not doing any work, and i have to wash her dirty dishes, bring her water, milk, when i have to wash her dishes, cook her food, buy her food when i'm not able to cook...THAT DESERVES SOME MOTHER-EFFIN' RANTS!!!!!!!!! I've already lost my privacy because she's been staying in my room ever since she came here...around 4-5 month ago.

The first few months, i didn't mind her because i had no clue what was going on. I was of course staying in my college dorm. When i came home, i didn't mind sleeping in the hall till my dad bought a new matress for her...she slept on my bed...i didn't mind at all.

BUT...since the holidays, it's been a never-ending repression of anger, slowly making me nuts! She is so stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Here are just a few (there's alot more that i couldn't even type for i might lose it!) complaints;

She had gastric a few days ago, and she didn't even shower the whole day, she came down to eat the food i cooked, then managed to leave her plate, filled with leftovers that she didn't bother to throw-out, and left it there for me to wash! She's sick, but i mean, can't she fuckin' wash her own frickin' plate? AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

She doesn't do any cleaning other than mopping up and sweeping the floor...after that, she'll eat, eat, eat and eat like a pig, sleep on the couch, then wake up, consume 5 litres of water, eat, see that she doesn't have to do anything coz everyone in the house had already done the work, like throw the garbage, cook, clean, take care of the baby! She even slacks on the couch in the hall when there's people...like she owns the house.

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I can't tell her anything...why? Coz, she's related to my mom! Yes, she's come all the way from a village in the Philippines, and my parents called her here to help us with the baby and the cleaning so she can support her child there...But, you know what?

Paying her 500 bucks a month for sleeping on our couch all day, watching TV, consuming all our water (seriously, she'll be drinking a glass every 30 minutes!), eating non-stop (she cooks rice twice a day-idiot won't even bother to ask us if we would wanna eat) WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING is a waste...God helps those who help themselves, remember?

My mom and dad washes the bathroom, and not her!!! I'm so effin' mad!!! What are they paying her for? They don't say anything in hopes that she'd realize it herself, but i think she's just plain dumb! No wonder she doesn't have a job! Coz nobody wants to hire a help that doesn't help! Instead, WE are taking care of her. She doesn't bother to cook for herself.

The verdict? We can only do so much to help...we are financially unable to support this shit! Even my parents can't take it...you wanna help, but how much is too much when from the beginning, you are being taken advantage of...so, we are sending her home to her chanty-village.

Sorry, we wanted to help, but in the end, you have to know what you were here for...we don't care if you eat a lot, drink a lot, watch tv a lot...but if you don't do any work...WTF is the point of you being here? Shame on us if we keep on letting you be here, taking my parents' hard-earned cash, right?

I'm on the verge of turning into the Hulk!!!

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Idiots!!!

That's how I sum up "these people"...incompetent slobs! Wtf, man?

I was supossed to go for my driving test today, but what happened? Last minute phone call from the bloody-assed driving school. Ladies and gentlemen, for the second time, my test is cancelled. I was looking forward to getting through this fuckin' test, that I took a leave of absence from work, and made plans to visit my mom, collect my prize from Sony, etc...

The first time I got cancelled, was because the idiot slob forgot to put my name in the application, but told me I was confirmed for April the 13th...ok, confirmed!

Then, a week before the test, the idiot slob told me that it wasn't her fault, that it was the old clerk's fault...Oooohhh, like I fuckin' care! BUT, she's only human, so I gave in, seeing that she's 'only human', and at least she notified me early. So she said 18th was open, so I said 18th it is!

Fast forward to the 17th...after taking extra-hours of classes,(I had to, because I don't have a stick-car to practice with) I was feeling ready...

Then, she fuckin' calls me in the afternoon before the test-day to tell me my learners' permit has expired, and i'm ineligible to take the test! Wtf!!! I've renewed it, already, bozo!

Then my dad has to send her the copy, and gives her the lecture on how many times will this happened, what incompetence, and shit like that. I was in my office, pissed out of my mind! She called me and apologized and said it wasn't her fuckin fault, but the old clerk's fault!

HUH! You expect me to fall for that shit this time? Some nerve, I took leave, I planned everything around that day, and you can't even admit your fuckin' fault? How long was that clerk working there? Is she working there now?

What's with "these people"? Why do "these people" keep screwing things up? I'm glad i'm no longer wanting to work with "these people", coz working with them would embarass me as a Malaysian!

She tells me the 20th is free! After arguing about her incompetence, I then tell her to better give me the 20th. She says she'll call me back. She doesn't. So I call her. She says I could only get to do the test in May. I get pissed even more! I couldn't handle it, and tell her to call me when she's sure of everything, and be sure this time, or else...then, I slam the phone down in sheer anger, bloody anger!

I swear on Mongrel Dogs, I will never let my sister, or anyone I know go to that fuckin' driving school...NEVER!!! They fuckin' wasted my money, my time and commitment...

Now, I have made up my mind...no working with "those people", coz all I get is stupid, bloody migraines from their idiocy! Now, on to my venting:

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Dullness begins when you have nothing to do, right? Anybody have a suggestion?

Let's just talk about yesterday's train ride home. Well, I knew as much. I saw this eye candy, he looked so cute+hot, which is great. We looked at each other for a sec, then, at the next stop, a bunch of people came in, so I just gave in and went to the back of the train...sigh!

I believe there is this karmic balance in life, ya know? 1 eye candy must equal to something bad...is it too dark a thought? I think not, since it's always the case in my life...

So, what makes me think these thoughts? Experience! What happened after that? These two Indonesian guys stared at me, then one of them took liberty in holding onto bars either side of me, virtually surrounding me with his arms! Yucks!!!

Feel him breathing on me...talking to his friend beside him! WTF, dude? Just as I wanted to move away, he kinda moved away. Phew!

I just wish all asshole/perverts/idiots/weaklings/pushovers will go to hell!

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Firstly, I would like to start by saying, the weekend sucked! Supposedly, I was going to volunteer at SPCA, but one thing; the stars of the event were not the animals, instead it was...a VJ? Another thing; I got stood up by my good-for-nothing sister, who ditched me for a date with her good-for-nothing boyfriend! Anyway, my friend told me there were many, many volunteers! That's a good thing, right? I really wanted to go...but damn, that place is so far away, and I can't travel THAT far...as much as I love dogs, and wanna help, this is too much hassle, yo!

The second thing is, mom came back from the O.B.'s appointment with dad...looks like there's a few problems with the pregnancy. This is what I can't fathom...she could be in danger! Not to mention the baby! She started crying at home...my dad couldn't stay longer, as he had to work...so, he asked me and my sis to comfort her. What do you tell an expecting mother who just got some bad news? It's something about the placenta in the wrong location. If it doesn't move in the next 2-weeks, she's gonna be admitted, one month early! God, please let everything be okay! Please...

Another rant i've got to release...why is it always the idiot Malay-sians who seem to do stuff they can't handle? I'm proud to say that i've done a good job writing not one, but two articles for my former-school magazine. I was the one who edited my article, coz trust me, not even the teacher-in-charge, nor the editor-in-chief understood what I wrote about. They've asked me, "what is 'Gucci'...or 'dictates'...or 'vegetative'?"

WTF? And I sort of knew that this school had hired some incompetent idiots to publish the mag...so what? Not that 99% would understand what the hell I was writing, seeing the average student couldn't even read an Aesop fable without an English-BM dictionary, right? Okay, I'm being condescending here, but I can't help it! I wrote a pretty good article, which I am proud of...sarcastic, witty (ego-bitch tells it again!), yada, yada, yada...but what exactly is the fuckin' problem?

Clerical errors! Wouldn't YOU hate that? Readers wouldn't think of blaming the publishers, they will blame the writer for this sort of shit! In this kinda shizz, I really want my stuff to be perfect...is that so wrong?

The letters "L" were replaced by exclamation points (!), "I" with the number "9", and so much more, that even I, the writer, couldn't decipher my own article...for fuck's sake, people, be a little more competent, will you? Luckily, my other article, was typed ALMOST perfectly (which means, about 20% typing errors!)

It's stuff like this that makes me a control freak! The very article that I was proud of has become one of my worse shame...Damn, I even won an elocution contest for it! Now, on to my venting...

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Too much of you couldn't handle what I just said...so, I now camouflage the 'fucks and other stuff' with nice, frilly motifs! Enjoy!

Toodles...may the week not turn out to be a bitch!

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