Life's Sick Lil' Games...

Right now, i am happy...thank you for this year! It has been wonderful (towards the end) mainly because i am fortunate enough to be with my family...it is the FIRST time the five of us are together...

I don't know why, but i feel like the next year will be just fine. I know i always get a hunch about certain things that may come true...or maybe wishes and thought manifesting into reality...but yeah, i think 2010 is going to be a good year.

I also feel like something good is going to happen to me...don't know why, but i do. Geez, i know it seems crazy, but i don't know why i feel this way. I think i've been reading too many books on self-growth and happiness...i'm finally seeing the silver lining in the things around me.

On another note...

A friend of mine never fails to make me feel like a fool...one minute, that person complains about the bane of having a dickwad for a partner...the next minute...back with the said jerk. I mean what the hell, right? Please don't go asking me shit if you're not gonna get it...it just pisses me off how you could let a person treat you like shit. Love is not blind...if you love yourself enough, it should open your eyes.

Ok, done with that moment of toxic negativity...yes, it is bloody toxic...and i shall leave it right now and never open up about this again. You wanna talk about stuff like this with me again, i'll give you a piece of my mind just like i did before...and you may or may not repeat the cycle. People can claim they love you...but if you don't start loving yourself...you may never see the truth.

Funny how i just feed you with oxymoronic themes, eh? Well, these are just my 2 cents worth...you don't have to agree. I'm just sayin'...

To a good year ahead...cheers! Salut! Toodlez, bitches!

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You know how i said i screwed a few papers in my exams? I don't know what the fuck goes into deciding my fateful marks, but I didn't fail!!! OMG...thank goodness! As usual...got the average results. Lol, i was never an above-average student...but i am an above-average person, hahaha!!! Ok, i'm so full of it...just laugh it off!

Yes, the results ain't so good, but it wasn't as horrible as I thought it would be...and if it wasn't for acing French (yet, once again...my saving grace!) I would've gotten a less than mediocre GPA.

But after writing my list of things i was thankful for (SEE: previous post)...i realized: I am soooo much more than this...I am not my GPA! Who fuckin' cares??? It's only a grain in my whole self-concept and self-worth! It doesn't make me who or what I am...so tiny and insignificant! I'm sure any employer would hire someone who would do a great job rather than attain above-average grades...yeah, they told me so!

I would be bullshitting if i said I didn't care...of course i do! But i have more things to care about...like LIFE! Like doing the things i wanna do, and living the life i wanna live! So to hell with this shit, i'm gonna do better for my final term. And hell yeah...i'm giving out a killer thesis!

And i'll be in France with my friends by May...woot! Sipping coffee in a quaint little cafe, overlooking le Tour Eiffel...maybe bumping into Bill Kaulitz and le gang! Well, universe...do your job...please please with a cherry on top! Ktxb!

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With all the whining and bitching I've done...I've never taken for granted the thing that matter most in my life; my health, family and friends...and with all that's been said and done, I've come to appreciate myself the way I am...sure, I'm flawed just like any human being...but i have come to terms with it...heck, I'm not ashamed to say that in the past few years I've grown to love myself more...guess that counts for a few things, eh? Like knowing we deserve better, or not letting people mistreat you, etc...

So for the year 2009...my grateful attitude is for the following:

• The greatest, coolest most supportive parents any person could ever have (I've certainly had my fair share of complaints in the past, but you guys have been great ever since i was born! I thank God everyday for being in this family...and i will love you always!)

• The bestest best friends a girl could ever have...you know who you are...old friends, college friends, friends you just meet under circumstances, strangers you just happen to have a short conversation with...you've all somehow affected me once upon a time...and I'll never have it otherwise!

• My unbelievable luck -- I mean, damn! All the stuff I've got, the things I've done, the people I've met...it's all unbelievable when you look back...and i will say for sure; there's more experiences to be experienced, more lessons to learn, more people to meet, etc...

• ME -- coz there could NEVER be another ME...i could never be replicated. I am special and unique...just like YOU...a paradox, I know...but I kinda like it! We are all special…I am so full of imagination, and i can't picture my life any other way than my very own sitcom-cum-drama with theme songs to each circumstance...or being super curious about something totally out of context to any part of your life…and I’m also glad I’m the type that goes ahead and learns what I want to know…like French, or playing the guitar…the piano…karate! HTML codes? Well, that’s something in progress…I did search for tutorial sites and such. My bestie says it’s easy-peasy…so I’m already half-done! ;) For my next steady paycheck, I’m gonna go learn how to salsa! Ay, caramba!!! Can’t wait…

• My buffer zone...yes, some would say this is a bad thing...but no! I would keep this quality coz only then, you discover your TRUE friends…truly special people would see me the way i really am...a dorky, geeky, crazy-ass weirdo who's funny, moronic, neurotic, good at freaking out and a stupid genius...muahahahahaha!!! Coz some people make assumptions…and who wants to be friends with people like that…best save these qualities for those friends who are real keepers.

• My love for music, movies and TV. I've said it many times...i can't live without music! Heck, i think my first post ever was about music...if i'm not mistaken! How can we humans have life any other way? I love Rock, yes...all types of Rock, but I've always had an eclectic taste, ranging from Classical music to Jazz, Reggae, Oldies, Pop, Acoustic, Electronica, Big Band Swing, R&B, Rap…and yes, even Flamenco (think Gypsy Kings, baby)! Movies? Well, go figure! I’m a sucker for action-packed movies (Rocky!!! Eye of the Tiger, baby!) as much as I am for tear-jerkers (It’s A Beautiful Life, Life Is Beautiful, The Notebook) and romance…and of course, Chick-flicks and Disney cartoons & fairytales! Ahahahahah…I’m truly a sucker for fairytales; they never fail to put a huge smile on my face! True favorites are aplenty, ranging from classics to totally stupidly funny and corny movies (think White Chicks and Zohan). God bless the entertainers!

Thank you God!

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LMFAO! Sound familiar? Oh, c'mon...you must've heard it at least once in your life from somewhere! It's Spandau Ballet's True or something like that...don't even know why I bothered writing about it...must be going mad?

Anyway...life's been good! I've been battling all sorts of sickness for the past month--> I don't know, maybe it's because I keep getting the virus from every member of the family who gets sick? Fuck, i wish i had some sort of 'firewall' that shields me from all the sickness...i hate it, really! Such an inconvenience!

And my friends from high school keep pestering me about arranging some sort of meet for us friends...i'd love to help, but why does it have to be me who arranges thing? Lol, yes, i'm flattered you think of me, but really...i'd rather join in the fun rather than arrange things...besides, I'M FREAKIN' SICK! Lol...

And yes...still listen to TH every day...just before sleeping! Single dose, daily.

Been contemplating ME...i've always held that i'm spiritual, rather than religious...and i took out my old book by Walsch...which i bought when i was 17 or 18...i read it again...i never realized that it had elements of The Secret...but while reading the latter, i spotted Walsch's name as one of the 'teachers'...wow, go figure! There is some sort of correlation there! Indeed, we're all connected! I sometimes wish more people would get onto the bandwagon towards self-discovery, rather than being dictated that life is already written. But that's just me!

Now, another thing...my dad says he wants to widen his abilities as a musician...so he's gonna learn piano next year! Wow! I was totally out of my mind since I wanted to go back to learning it as well...so I told my dad, "Me too!!!"...so, yay!!! By next year, we'll be takin' piano lessons from my godmother...again! I don't know why, but i have a feeling, we'll be getting a piano!!! Lol...yes! LoA, do your work! I must learn the piano riff of that song...that beautiful, haunting riff!

Tonight, i'm gonna chill with my bestest best friends at the movies...however, be it at the mamak, at some crappy diner or wherever else...all i care about is that we have a blast just by hanging out and talking useless crap! Sometimes it's amazing how long we've stayed friends...i know, we've had different cliques throughout the years, but we've somehow managed to stay friends, unlike our former 'cliques'...funny, eh? Funny...but somehow, it kinda works! Remember, we all are supposed to wear some drapey top and skinnies...got it? And YOU know why, Foxie! LMFAO...see you!

For now...toodlez, bitches!!!

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Long post alert! And...

GEEK SPEAK ALERT!!! FOR GEEKS ONLY...

So yesterday morning, i found that my computer was kinda iffy...and by the afternoon, when i tried turning it on, i got the dreaded blue screen...it said:

Stop: c0000218 {Registry File Failure} The registry cannot load the hive (file): \SystemRoot\System32\Config\DEFAULT

OMFG...I thought, "Well, maybe if I reboot, all will be good!"

Boy, was I wrong! It showed me that all the craziness of my Dell had taken its toll...damn! So dad asked me to take it to the shop, and of course, being the shero that I am, i cleverly said NO...that i could fix it, even though i had no idea what's going on...well, you know these so-called computer fixer-uppers...they're super lazy to even see if any files could be salvaged, they'd just reformat everything and overwrite all my files...no way i'm gonna lose all my songs, writings, pictures, and other important files...yeah...don't have an external HD yet ok? Don't give me a hard time bout not backing up...i know i'll receive flak for it!

So i started doing my homework...but then it gets worse...my lappy also tends to overheat pretty quick when it gets booted from the CD...fuck, i had about 2 minutes if i was in room temperature before it shuts down! Arrrggghhhh, that was my main problem! So, i put it in my parents' room for sometime...to cool it down, so i'd get more time to type in the super long command line!!!

md tmp
copy c:\windows\system32\config\system c:\windows\tmp\system.bak
copy c:\windows\system32\config\software c:\windows\tmp\software.bak
copy c:\windows\system32\config\sam c:\windows\tmp\sam.bak
copy c:\windows\system32\config\security c:\windows\tmp\security.bak
copy c:\windows\system32\config\default c:\windows\tmp\default.bak

delete c:\windows\system32\config\system
delete c:\windows\system32\config\software
delete c:\windows\system32\config\sam
delete c:\windows\system32\config\security
delete c:\windows\system32\config\default

copy c:\windows\repair\system c:\windows\system32\config\system
copy c:\windows\repair\software c:\windows\system32\config\software
copy c:\windows\repair\sam c:\windows\system32\config\sam
copy c:\windows\repair\security c:\windows\system32\config\security
copy c:\windows\repair\default c:\windows\system32\config\default

Could YOU type this in 2 fucking minutes???

Then, to make matters worse, since the DEFAULT registry file was erroneous, after i tried copying it, it said "the file could not be found"...FUCK!!!

So...what do you think I did...i skipped the first and did this instead "copy c:\windows\repair\default c:\windows\system32\config\default"...and it worked!!!

So what the hell happened...well, it overheated before i could finish...

after cooling it in front of my fan (hahahahah), i continued from where i was cut-off...then...the results...

NO MORE BLUE SCREEN! But...

got another error saying "Error message WINDOWS/SYSTEM32/CONFIG/SYSTEM on Windows startup"...

I was literally like the painting of The Scream!!! Then i refered to this genius called Fastco on http://www.techspot.com/vb/topic53755.html and did this:

1. Insert and boot from your Windows XP CD.
2. At the first R=Repair option, press the R key
3. Press the number that corresponds to the correct location for the installation of Windows you want to repair.
Typically this will be #1
4. Enter in the administrator password when requested
5. cd \windows\system32\config
6. Depending on which section was corrupted:
ren software software.bad or ren system system.bad
7. Depending on which section was corrupted
copy \windows\repair\system
copy \windows\repair\software
8. Take out the CD ROM and type exit

I did it for SYSTEM...and yes...all was well again!!!

So i did even more elaborate shit...there were soooo many fuckin' things to do, if i wrote it all, I would bore myself to death...it took a lot of time coz of the overheating, the Recovery Console loading time, the limited amounts of time on the Recovery session, and so on...and i finally finished after 5 long fucking hours! Arrrggghhhh...

Now, i can finally call myself a GENIUS, GENIUS, GENIUS...for someone who's not in this sector, hehehehe! Gives me some kind of satisfaction when I don't have to rely on people to fix MY stuff...nice!

But of course, who could do it without the tons of people on the internet...thanks to them, I could fix anything...and that's a fact! :)

Need help? Leave me a comment...muahahahaha!!! I'll pay it forward...

And now, back to doing what I do best...slacking off!

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