Life's Sick Lil' Games...

I can't believe it...the time has passed so quickly...and all this while I haven't updated my journal...how can this be? I miss you...I miss coming here and typing everything in my head...where no judgment passes me...all the words just lie here in a vacuum of the blogosphere!

I am currently working...yes, I AM WORKING!!! OMG...I didn't say it earlier because I didn't wanna jinx it, but who needs to say anything when you have a mother who practically broadcasts everything on her Facebook wall??? I am laughing now, but when she did it at the time, I was so freakin' mad and embarrassed...well, the past is past...fast forward to now...I did get the job, and I'm now undergoing training!

What's mad is I have joined the automobile industry...which is something I have never thought of joining...but whoever said the Taurus sign isn't flexible...eat your heart out!!! This is a total 180 for me in every way! Cars...I have to eat, sleep and breathe cars...I am actually looking forward to this...hahaha, especially the part where I will be attached as a technician! OMG...ganassss aka fierce!!! LMAO!!!

Okay, so it's been a few days of ups and downs, but I have been warned that the coming weeks are gonna be hell...I'm freakin' ready...ready for anything you wanna give me!!!

I shall note my day-to-day activities if I can...one of the trainers said it's good to keep notes, so you don't forget...or maybe a few years down the road, you can read it again and remember the good and bad of your past experiences. For now...those other MTs are my friends, and I'm sure we're gonna grow together. Please be with us, God!

And as for the trip to Paris...as much as I want to go...I am bonded to the organization which hired me...I have 4 months of training, in which I can't take leave...so I sent in my resignation and pulled out of the trip...much to my sadness. But I can';t do anything but support my friends who are lucky enough to join the trip...please do it, and live my dream for me... :D

What else? Oh, I might get a car soon...might get staff price without waiting a year since we're bonded for 3 freakin' years!!! Muahahah, I don't want one, but I NEED one! It's just impossible to borrow Dad's car all the time! Impossible! Hey, even if I don't get the staff price...I NEED one... :(

Till the next post...I'm fuckin' sleepy...it's 12 am...OMG, I'm becoming normal!!! :-0

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WOW!!! OMG IT'S REALLY DONE AND MY VARSITY LIFE IS OVER...OVER, I TELL YA!!!

So...now what? Lemme get to thinking and I'll let me know...yes, you read it...ME! Coz I sure as hell still don't have a plan...my plans went down the drain about a year after my first year at uni...

...damn! Somebody...help. Anybody? OMG...

Okok, the story first...my thesis editing went on like Hell's Kitchen during the periods of chaos...OMG, then there came a time where my MS Word started giving problem because I stupidly did this whole 'page break' thing...so in the end, I couldn't insert page numbers, and A sorta got into the whole mess...It was almost 4pm, and we were supposed to be printing the work already!!! So A offered to let me use her laptop to fix it...but I failed...SHIT!!! And I still had more to do like the references and shit like that! Didn't even proof-read the whole thing!

Thank God A managed to figure it all out and put the pages in for me...sorry coco! I'll always be grateful... :')

Then, we started getting to our destination...A also found out from her friend about this place just outside of campus that makes thesis hard covers in just a day...of course, we had to pay extra, but we didn't care! So we asked the lady and she confirmed this...so we paid about 2 times the price I think...but seriously...I had no regrets...just as long as it was done!

And then we paid almost 90 bucks...that's including printing out 2 copies of the thesis, with multiple reprints because we didn't proof-read our writings, LMAO!!! Now, that was funny...but in the end, we left with a slight feeling of accomplishment!

The next day, I managed to pass it up on the day itself...the 5th of May 2010, in which a huge burden left my shoulders after I signed that final form...I had to go without the partner in crime coz Dad had to use the car so I had to hurry...boo!

Then, as I walked towards the car, it hit me...

"It's over...just like that?"

It felt so surreal...every single time I tell myself that an intensely chaotic period will pass...it does, of course...but this...this whole experience...it's really over! Oh.my.God.

I came home and slept like a baby...seriously been like a zombie running on caffeine and junk. Now I have the chance to cut the intake...hopefully my skin will get better soon...and those inches gained throughout uni will melt away with a new regiment...I hope!!!

Now, I'm supposed to be focusing on this work thing I have in Damansara...I was hired for a short stint at an events company. They need a receptionist. I need to make some money. However, I have no idea how to get there so looks like I have to do some homework...and of course, I don't even know if it's worth the pittance I'll be making, since it's quite far from my place...hmmmm...well...why not, eh? At least I won't be stuck being too much of a couchie at home...which I am right now, heheheh! Of course, I'm paying back for all the times I've missed at home...and you know what? By the time I start working...I mean OFFICIALLY...I'll be working like a slave for the rest of my life, won't I? So let me revel in my high-density sloth!!!

All this while planning the trip to France...yes, people...the trip is on...and for now, it shall be my main focus (among other things, lol!)...there's lots to do. Many have pulled-out due to this and that...but we shall overcome and like I said, God knows and never disappoint...now I know why it didn't happen in May...HE knew we wouldn't be able to make it on that particular date...HE knew...and HE is going to make it happen for us in November...so, I pray that it happens at this moment...I know in my heart that this trip will change me in some way...I don't know what and how, but it will...

For now...I bid my formal education adieu...and I don't know what the future holds for me, but I certainly plan to further my studies down the road...one thing about me is...I do something and finish it...so I'm glad I finished this Degree in IR...and finished all the levels of the French language at UKM with my friends (learning French has been my dream since primary school so I'm glad, so glad...I finally managed to learn it)...at least now I know that I actually DON'T love IR, lol! So, in essence...I'll be taking a Masters Degree in something I love. I'll just need the time to figure out what I love...this will be a toughie, since I love so many things...

Good luck to all my dear friends...you are going to face a whole different battle now. Congratulations on this particular one...it has been a honor to fight the fight right beside you! ;)

The next post will be a tribute to all of you...hehehe! Why not, eh? I'm free now so let me be! Okay, gonna go chill with the 'Boobettes' tomorrow...my other circle. See ya!

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Yeah, been home lately...doin nothing but cooking for the fam and watching TV.

Okay, okay, i regret not looking for a job! I'll admit it!

One thing i'm super bummed about is my lack of cash! I can't go out unless i ask mom and dad, and that's embarassing for me, coz all this while, i'd never ask them for money coz i know their financial hardship...

Well, i know they would give me some money in a heartbeat, but i somehow would feel guilty, and i don't know why. My sis is certainly sucking 'em dry with her using the car, getting money for gas, and her daily expenditure...i just find it difficult asking them for some, you know...

BUT! That doesn't mean i wouldn't wanna go out with some friends once in a while...i don't go out everyday. I deserve some days out!

Other than that, yesterday i dreamt of this guy i know (we're not close, just sorta know him and sorta have a crush on him, hehehe!) asking me out. In my dream, i said yes...then, i was woken up by my baby sister...oh, damn!

LOL! I'm so crushing on this guy, but...i think he WAS in his final year...and probably taken...Meh, one chance missed! Damn!

Other than that, what should i do...i should try to do some productive stuff, right? The problem is...what? I don't know, read many books? compose a score (ROFL)? Get some cats and call myself a spinster? Etc?

My current situation is...

---BORED TO THE HIGHEST DEGREE!!!---

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Yeah, baby...

2nd term=OVER!

Freshman year=O-V-E-R!!!

I'm getting a 2-month long vacay, but i don't know if i should work, or...NOT? Mom's making me go to work somewhere, but i feel kinda lazy, you know? I guess the stress kinda makes me wanna take a break for real and chill out at home, maybe get fat(ter!), catch up on my TV, and wheel my way into obesity...

Ok, ok, maybe that's a little too idle, this wish of mine, but damn...i don't know what part-time job i would wanna do. I've tried the hotel industry, then tried the audio-visual industry, and now what should i do? Be a cashier? Hell no...

I could handle being a dog walker, a bounty hunter, etc...but i don't think services like that are available in this country...LOL!!! Haha...bounty hunter...Haha!

Oh, and if you couldn't guess, i seem like i'm kinda out of my head, right? Well, maybe it's coz i am...kinda...dunno what's wrong today...

Anyway, gtg now, guess i'll be blogging more often than unusual since i'm gonna be so freakin' free...

Toodlez, bitches!

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I can't believe i'm still alive...this week has been hell.

Work? I'm gonna quit, coz i ain't getting no money from it, and i can't waste my precious time doing omething which i'm getting nothing from...i'm wasting my study-time!

I have tons and tons of assignmnets, i don't know where to start, that me and a friend just sat down on a bench...startled, overwhelmed...that we didn't know what to do and how to handle it!

What we did, you won't believe...we went to Mid Valley to catch a movie! Betcha-by-golly-wow! We just wanted to forget, if just for a while...nothing wrong with that, right?

Watched 27 Dresses...friend told me i was Catherine Heigl's character...doesn't know why, but she pictures my sis and I. I'm the eldest, so...go figure! Hey, my sister ain't THAT bad! Lol...That was a pretty feel-good movie. Felt slightly happy after that.

Gosh, i may be a tough one, but i'm sure a sucker for chick-flicks!

Btw, James Marsden is HAWT! Too bad he hasn't gotten the credit he deserves...he's a pretty good actor. I've always liked him in Second Noah, as lame as it was. Heigl's a superstar, plus i like her...enough said!

Coming home, we started thinking about all that work again...SHITSHITSHITSHIT!!!!! And SHIT!!!

Now, i'm home, my phone is turned off, and i'm gonna finish everything i can, so please wish me luck!

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Well, what have i done?

Pretty much a lot!!! Just this week , i tried to complete as much as possible...from work, to assignments to researches...to blablabla!

I'm so fuckin' tired...but i guess i'm loving it! Huhhhhhh, the times are abuzzing, and i'm just getting started! My exams are coming soon, and i've yet to study...

French class is getting more and more difficult, as the grammar is a total 360 degrees from English. Wow!!! There's so much difference...masculine and feminine? Who could tell? You'd have to have a dictionary to tell...

Well, i'm loving globalization and international systems...it's cool! Strategy? YES...but the lecturer for Strategy? Kind of a bore...English? Used to be my fave during high school, but this subject in uni is kinda 'kindergaten-esque for me'! It's like teaching ABC to a grown-up...this is due to the standard of English among public university students.

It's kind of a pity, because their not used to it...BUT it's kinda unfair for people who are fluent to pay for those unable to speak English...they should NOT mix people with different levels of English...it's not the right system!

Well, till next time...a lot to do...so bye!

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I love going out!

In my nonexistant social life, i just make up for it in one day out with friends. We were supposed to go watch a movie. Well, i wanted to go watch a movie featuring my one of my fave actors in a singing role...i guess you know who it is!

As expected, friends would rather watch something else...in the end, after reaching our destination, we decided for two rounds of bowling instead! Bwahahah!!!

Went and bowled, scouted for cute guys and cam-whored every chance we had! We wanted the pics to remind us of campus life, you know.

I'm not that much into posing, but it was fun. Lol! Guess i'm a closet poser!

Came home the next day, forgot that i had a deadline...Shit! I hate working p/time! Very much a WOMT (waste of my time)!!!

Now, after this, i'm gonna carry on with that work i'm supposed to be finished with by now!

And not forgetting my assignments...whoah!!!

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Now that i've given up on my side job as an audio visual assistant-esque work, like subtitling and shit, the bosses suddenly popped out of nowhere and said there's some work to be done, and tasks to be finished...here we go...

Nice job, guys! Leave me waiting like a fool-- on the brink of giving up, and THEN give me work to do on the imminent days of my 1st semester examinations! GREAT!!!

I'm thankful, though, that I have a chance to make some money...i'm broke as hell, dudes! I can't even go out with my friend coz I don't have money in the bank...geez, this is such a great holiday! -_-

Whatever it is, i'm happy with the incoming, albeit, late laptop i'm about to receive from my boss (it's about time!!!)...and I hope I could finish the job, and excel at my studies at the same time...please, God...LET IT BE!!! Earn while you study, that's my new motto! Lol!!!

By the way, what am I listening to on my Mp3 player? Tommy Tutone's Jenny 867 5309...Nice!

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Black Monday...Manic Monday...Shitty Mondays...they are practically a guarantee! The weekend's done, and we start the week with another day of business.

So, i don't enjoy my work, as it's just a temporary one till I start freshman year. Sure, many people do hate their job...but I would like to do something which I have passion for. That is why, I hope everything goes how it should. Pleeeeeeze, let it happen!

Mom had to go back to the hospital after her "weekend holiday". We sent her back yesterday night. Dad waited in the car, probably tearing up coz he'll miss his wifey...my sis and I sent her to her ward. Unloaded her stuff, then kissed her goodbye. We could see her face was sad and she was about to cry. When I turned back, she gave my sis and I a flying kiss, with the almost-gonna-cry face. We got out, and my sister began crying. I tried to be the strong one, and held back tears.

Just as we reached the darkness, I released all the held tears, and wiped them before my sister could detect anything. I really didn't want to make her cry even more, so I had to keep up a front, as usual...back at home, I ran into my room and cried my heart out!

Mommie, my mommie! She's such a great person...she's funny, weird and crazy (like me!), demanding, but she makes up for it with her smile, her heart. We all would just miss her, we can't even say goodbye when we send her to the hospital! Gawd, i'm welling up! Must stop now...

I truly hope everything goes well, and she and the baby will remain healthy, as they should be. Till the next weekend, when momsie comes home...


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Today, I decide to take the bus home. Too much money is being spent on train rides, and I don't have a lot of money. So, I have to get down on a place that is quite far from my house, and walk! Perhaps I could lose some pounds! Lol! Oh, wait, i'm wearing high heels...NOOOOOO!!!!!!

Hope that everything goes well.

Toodlez, bitches!

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